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Tarot Blog Hop – Questioning Time 11

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As Time Goes By…

 

Okay let’s do the customary introductions first… Joy Vernon of Completely Joyous inspired this month, which in a nutshell is the relationship between Magic (or Magik) and Tarot. This is a challenge for me but instead of running or opting out of from the challenge I have decided to take it onboard and feel my way through it from my own unique vantage point.

 

If you haven’t ‘hopped’ with me before, then welcome; let me briefly explain about this: A hop is a group of unique and experienced people who write, blog or work with tarot as part of their every day lives. We come together at a set time and the wrangler, cat herder and juggler of unusually pointy objects that keep exploding, sets the topic, which the rest of us end up insanely writing about at the last second. This time (and probably wisely done) I am the last, so you’ll end up at the start again when you use the Next Blog at the top or bottom of this post…

 

This topic presents a rather interesting challenge, one that I am not even sure I can fully explore; I really don’t see the Tarot as most do, I rarely pay attention to the conventions, the wyrd or even the astrological, mythological or alchemical elements to the tarot; those are only useful if you have a connection or relationship to them already, through study or background. They can bog you down in the minutiae details, just as much as they can enhance the reading. What is the point in knowing you have an aires in the spread if the other person hasn’t a clue about astrology, or where would be the point in telling someone don’t get involved with a situation where you have someone that is very much a hero with a weakness like Achilles, when they’ve never read or studied mythology?

 

It’s not that these things aren’t relevant because they are, for the one giving the reading; using these references it allows us to explain that someone who has a very powerful but focused attention may not be the best person to be around, if you aren’t able to keep up with them and they’re not willing to see they’re own flaws. Just as its better to be careful when dealing with people in power or people that are only interested in stepping on others, because to show them your weakness, your soft point only makes you their next target.

 

My ability to ‘step into death’ was a phrase coined by for want of a better word, a mentor. When it was first used I realised that this is what happens when a medium like myself transcends the confines of fear. It’s okay to step into death and communicate with those that are on the other side of the this veil, I have been here before countless times in other lives and also a few times in this; so to stand in this place and welcome the love from the other side is a bit like magic, it gives those that I work with peace and proof. The tarot factors into this as well, because like stepping into death, I am able to become a mirror, able to sense who this person is and see it reflected within the card dealt by them.

 

The solutions then begin to present and unveil themselves, the more my client shows up. As the mirror I already know that this is what is happening because I feel it and reflect it. Again this is my magic and several moons ago now, I let go of lables. I let go of attempting to make sense of what this is. I have given it many names and none fit; Witch, Mage, Wiccan, Pagan and Celt, none of these fit. Mystic, Oracle, Medium, Clairvoyant; again none of them fit…

 

I wonder sometimes if I am maybe a Shaman, even though I have had no formal Shaman training; and this feels wrong because it is older than Shamanism, perhaps I should reconsider and consider this way of being Delphi’s Gift, a Celt/Pagan Oracle Wiseman; you see none of these fit, they are either too tight or too loose. Thing is maybe it doesn’t have a name or a title because where this comes from it didn’t need one, there wasn’t a need to give this a lable.

 

All I do know is that it extends beyond Tarot, gave birth to the concept of Medium, who it turn helped to nurture the Wytch, who then extended the family and adopted the odd Clairvoyant. It allows me to help, heal and bring home those that need to come home, but most of all it means that I get to show up every day and its never dull…

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The Journey of Reiki 6

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I didn’t half set myself up with this one, the Journey of Reiki is perhaps one of the biggest pieces that I have ever touched upon in my entire time of doing the blog hop, and even though this was originally typed up post January blog hop, it will still be just as relevant by the time March arrives.

 
However before I get into this, let’s do some of the civil pleasantries; not everyone will have started or even read the Master List page, so let me give you a kind of cliff notes version, and if you are curious, why not go have a read of the Master List, as it sets everything up very nicely for this month.

 

The theme for this month is the Journey of Reiki, it is my belief that we enter into a consensual relationship with Reiki, for me I believe that it is a form of living energy and that the attunement process is a bit like a marriage ceremony in that we willingly allow that energy to work with us and through us, just as we work with it and through it. The journey then starts to unfold in whatever way it is meant to.

 

Each person, be they a master, practitioner or a student taking their first steps has this journey and it is my sense of things that Masters have an ongoing journey because they are teaching students to connect and what that means for them, so in essence they are supporting the process of attunement and learning not only for someone but for themselves as well.

 

The master list is the link in the chain of how each blog writer discusses this theme from the experiences of their own ongoing journey. Where you are at the moment is at the start or end of the chain depending on which way you have come.

 

 

As I said at the start, this has been a huge one for me; I came into awareness of it during my own process to do with betrayal of trust concerning the master/student relationship and the respect and honouring of the friendship that developed from that place. The dynamic gave the appearance of being mutual, where I was no longer just a student but I had entered into the teacher/facilitation role.

 

However this began to shift as soon as I began enquiring about the Masters, it felt like there was some hugely guarded sacred rite of initiation that I needed to pass before it would acceptable for me to even create the manual or teach/hold space for the Masters; now without feeding this or giving it drama, it is possible to assume from all that I have said that this was to do with power, status and control.

 

What is interesting and I am exploring here is the journey reiki took me; it literally took the shaky foundations of this perceived relationship/friendship and gave them a tap, only for the entire structure down to its foundations to crumble and become debris with no hope of ever rebuilding it, so all it services now is a talking point and instructional lesson aid for future teachers of this particular Reiki practise.

 

My journey didn’t end there, in fact it triggered a massive shift; and brought to the surface some stuff that while unexpected was welcomed in the sense that it was time for it to go; what I have discovered is that Reiki is taking me down a new and somewhat uncharted road, instead of now just being a practise; it’s a way of life, and in that I am being shown new ways to work.

 

At first I was like this is not Reiki, this is anything but Reiki and then this weekend I stopped blocking myself. This is what Reiki evolves into when you stop dividing and conquering. Okay so I realise that at this moment, I am most likely starting to loose some of you with this, so let me break this down just a little.

 

If you haven’t hopped with me before or even if you have it doesn’t do any harm for me to share, as long as you are open to it, a little piece of my Reiki background and journey. I started with Usui Reiki, it was my dad pushing me from the higher side of life; that opened or rather reopened a door that had been firmly shut.

 

Within about a year give or take, I have completed through to my Masters Certificate, but I didn’t feel as if there had been completion and so I did it again with my Original Master, (in total I have about four or five). It was the right thing to do because it opened a door to learning for both of us (another entry for another hop). I then went on to do my Kundalini Reiki, but included with that were Etheric, Gold and further Boosters to the Kundalini. Then I went through Karuna, Shamballa MDH and finally (until recently) Angelic Reiki, which I took through to Teacher level (I prefer Facilitator but again, another entry for another hop).

 

Recently I decided to do some Continued Personal Development and did a couple of refresher courses online through Udemy for Reiki. These were good because it was showing me how it is possible to discuss and perhaps do a bit of teaching online, which always seems to get the backup with some but if it works why decry it? May not be for everyone but surely in Reiki anything is possible right?

 

Okay so my sense and feeling with regards to Reiki has been that there is coming a point now where no matter the name, no matter the master, and no matter how the attunements are entered into, this sentient reiki energy that has entered into a consensual symbiotic relationship with us no longer has titles, designations, it doesn’t require them. It’s like thought, we don’t label our thoughts, or have to address the internal desire that says “It’s time to Pee” so why do we do it with Reiki?

 

My sense of awareness and as I feel my way through this is suggesting that this need to label and give energy is hierarchal place (meaning Usui Reiki is lower on the scale than Angelic Reiki or Kundalini Reiki doesn’t work or it’s not Reiki) is about human amoris and the need for something to be superior even when it isn’t.

 

The journey of reiki itself isn’t really shrouded in that much mystery; Usui Reiki in reality really only has second or third hand accounts of how it is remembered; the reality is that Usui was a very private man, he was given the title Sensei only because he was revered and honoured by those around him.

 

Kundalini, Karuna and Shamballa were all created, inspired processes by humans who were no more godly that the rest of us on our very good days. The fact is they worked and they helped to shift or created a process for healing. Angelic Reiki, based on Shamballa and Usui Reiki, has intuitive and inspired writings that allows us to understand how to develop a personal connection to the Angelic energies (however you understand them); many students, masters and teacher came together and helped the originator of the system to create the now simplistic way of how the attunements are written today and facilitated.

 

However mythical the system appears, the fundamental realities were that the founder and originator of Angelic Reiki, simply wrote things down on paper, typed up other things and basically handed these out to the students. It was a student of his that finally gathered all of it up and said here use this as your manual and is there anything you need to add to it?

 

Reiki is the essence of being human, a gift from source to bring us back in true alignment with our own sovereign selves, and that is basically just scratching the surface. This is what Reiki is teaching me, this is uncharted road; it is stripping out all the bull, all the shitty human ego mythos that has gotten in the way.

 

It is taking back our own power and it is telling those who would try to invade, undermine or anything else just to fuck off! When there is ever doubt as to how far I have come, or if I find myself lost, I look at the journeys I have seen others who have a connection to Reiki take, some its taken them to a place where they’ll move to a new country eventually. For others they are coming into their own, and taking ownership of what that means.

 

It has opened hearts, minds and souls to their fullest potential, and it has helped others to become bad ass shamanic practitioners. Reiki is truly amazing, its unassuming, living energy that works to bring us into who we are meant to be.

 

Thanks for stopping by and staying with this, loving you and your journey so far.

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Reiki Blog Hop – March 2017 Master List.

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Hello and a very warm welcome to the master list for the March 2017 Reiki Blog Hop;

 

It is perfect if this is your first or if this is nothing new to you, however let me run through what this is; the way I view a blog hop is simply a group of dedicated writers all coming together and writing from their understanding about the topic set by the wrangler for the month.

 

This brings me on nicely to what a wrangler is and does; put simply the wrangler is like crisis management, cat herder and go to body when everything starts to go awry, which if you have ever been apart of a hop, happens to some degree or another. Since I am the wrangler for this month, it falls to me to get the sticky-back plastic, glue gun and tranquilisers… or the bondage gear and a couple of nipple clams and a whip… And no I have no idea what Nipple Clams are, but they sound fun…

 

Ultimately though that’s what this is all about, having fun…

 

Okay so this is the master list, here it the launching point for the hop, the shuffled list details everyone who has chosen to take part. I work a lot through sensation, feeling and intuitive knowing, and that includes putting the list together.

 

Below all this text is the theme and the list, which are all links that take you on to the next blog and so on until you come back to the point where you started. If you get lost, then come back to this page.

 

Theme: The Importance of Being Earnest…

“Don’t Learn from Me, Learn from Reiki” that is a direct quote from a comment left on my entry from January’s Entry for the Hop. It is a statement that validated something that came into my awareness in connection to Reiki. I have a strong sense of awareness that Reiki is a conscious living energy that we enter into a consensual, symbiotic relationship with. This relationship has great gifts in that it perhaps places us on a path or journey that we are perhaps meant to go.

 

This months topic is about our relationship with Reiki, and also our relationships with clients, students and ourselves. Consider that for every fantastic experience there has been some not so fantastic, and for every amazing teacher there is one that hasn’t been, so reach into your heart/soul space and explore in your entry the relationship that you have with Reiki, where has it has taken you, if this feels too vast then try looking at some of the highest points and lowest points, as long as you feel safe to do so, last thing I would want is for a process to be triggered and you have no one there to support you.

 

Also if you are a master and have taught, keeping in awareness confidentiality, are you open with your entry into the hop sharing about the journey you have taken with the students and where that journey is now, do you still keep in touch or have you sent them on their way? How supportive did that feel to you and them once the connection between you came to its end and how did you honour the conclusion?

 

Naturally it is absolutely welcomed to just run with this in your own way and see where the journey leads you too.

 

The List

 

Okay this is the list for this months hop, have fun and feel free to drop some feedback either on this or on the Blog Hop Facebook Page
 
1. Joy Vernon | http://joyvernon.com/Blog/reiki-blog-hop-the-importance-of-being-earnest

 

2. Clare Cartwright | http://cosmiccrystal.co.uk/?p=534

 

3. Karen Sealey | https://pureblessedtarot.wordpress.com/2017/03/15/flying-the-reiki-nest/

 

4. Jay Cassels | http://metaphysicalangels.co.uk/rbh7

 

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To Boldly Go… My Journey So Far…

My Journey So Far…

WhoisI have this sense that this year is a huge year of change for me, and part of the change has already started. It’s chosen to start here at my website, you see this is the time of year where everything gets renewed, it is Imboloc, the start of spring and the stirring of new life. This is my time for renewal of everything as well, at this point its the site; so I decided that it was time to renew some of the pages and update my information.
 
It is around this time that I often look back at the journey I have taken so far; if you have come to the site before then you might be familiar with the background. Originally my business was born out of a promise that I made to my dad as I walked him to the threshold between this life and the higher side or spirit world. I began with Tarot Readings and Clairvoyant demonstrations, renting a room in a salon near by to home. This opened a door to platform demonstrations at Spirituality Churches, something that I had always wanted to do but never thought it would be possible.
 
RayofLightTowards the end of that year, I kept receiving flashback memories to do with a conversation that had happened four years previously. The conversation had revolved around a system of healing called Reiki, now at that point four years ago, I stored that information away as “something to look into at a later date” and this seemed to be the later date. It is funny to think how I wasn’t able to see my boyfriend (now husband) due to the weather being really bad, which led me to caving in and asking about the importance of the memories that kept replaying that evening. It was dad that came through and said to me that I needed to spend the evening looking into Reiki rather than spending it wishing everyone a happy new year online.
 
book_glassesI remember spending a majority of that evening doing that very thing, I kept finding out that it was a system of hands on healing, gentle and very kind. The conflicting information seemed to be around the cost and where you learnt it. I reached an impasse and could not venture any further forward with my investigation at that time. However on the eve of 2013, as I kept having this feeling and accompanying set of memories from four years earlier; these specific memories to do with a system of healing known as Reiki, were leading me somewhere. I did not know what form it was going to take or how I was going to achieve it. After spending most of 2012 in a very strange place, grieving at the physical loss of my dad but at peace in the knowledge that he was in a better place. I had focused on my studies with the Open University and also with BSY.
 
Now here I was at the very start of 2013 and I encountered (although I did not know it) my first Angelic presence, the voice directly me to look up a lady that I had worked with and had a great deal of time and respect for. On her site was a name, the name of my Usui Reiki Master Teacher. In earnest I began to look over and learn about Reiki from the different sites that I had booked marked and I decided to follow what Dad and the presence of the Angel had suggested and got in touch. It was four years ago this month that I gained my Usui Reiki Level I and by the April of that same year, I would be trained as a Practitioner in Usui Reiki.
 
angels-announcing2014, which was the following year, was a very interesting year. I became a fully trained Usui Reiki Master Teacher, not once but twice and I was introduced to Angelic Reiki. Going on the Angelic Reiki Practitioners Workshop, opened my eyes but confused the hell out of me at the exact same time. I had gone from hosting an Evening of Clairvoyance at my place of work, to being invited by the chair of a local spiritualist church to do the platform of her church. This soon developed into taking the services in many of the other churches within the area, a service that I very much enjoy and continue to do.
 
It took me a year but I returned to the Angelic Reiki journey; I started off by redoing my Practitioners and once again it opened my eyes and I began to see that this journey of Reiki is ongoing and that you are led by the Reiki energy to follow the flow no matter where it takes you. In the gap between the first time and the second time, I had gone mobile and branched out into doing House Parties and Public Demonstrations of Clairvoyance, something that is very different to doing Church services. I was taught valuable lessons, about the differences and it was also a year where I was in the position to teach groups about Spiritual Development and taking on Reiki students as well.
 
feng-shui-astrologyHowever it was not until 2015 that I realised exactly what this would mean for me. By the end of 2014, I felt that it was time to make some needed changes to both my way of life and also to my business life and so I decided that it was time to change my business name and adopt a less stressful business ethos and practice. I realised that if I was getting stressed and strung out then I was not living the same teachings I was passing on to others. It was at the same time I knew that I had to return to Angelic Reiki, and so during 2015 I went back to the practitioners workshop again and received an awakening at the core of my being. It woke me to my purpose and the reality of being me, something that profoundly changed not only the way I work but also my understanding as well.
 
Angelic Reiki raised my vibration and helped me to realise that I had a very deep and rich history with Angelic energies and also the Angels themselves. I decided that I wanted to further my journey and completed my Masters followed soon after by completing the Teachers as well. In everything that I do I follow the Reiki way, it is not just a therapy treatment for me it is a way of life, I very much adhere to the ancient Shinto practises, in that I honour the ancestors, as I honour the universe, spirit (not limited to just loved ones) as well as honouring every human life whether I actually like the person or not, I honour the fact they have that spark of life and light.
 
feng-shui-astrologyThroughout 2016, I found that once again my life and outlook began to go through changes; I had started to learn massage therapies as I felt that they had important role to play with Reiki, I also went through a great awakening as the more I connected to my Sojourn and to the divinity of the universe both inside and outside; I found and discovered that I really needed to become true to myself both personally and professionally. Last year was a year of massive shifts and changes, it began after my first time teaching Angelic Reiki; one of the important realisations that I have come to with any teaching is that I facilitate learning; I open the door and the students take themselves through that door and learn very quickly what it means to experience Angelic Reiki, or Usui Reiki. They come to understand (eventually) that it is more about being than it is about doing, sometimes you need to experience and follow the natural flow and that also applies to myself.
 
connectedI became aware that I had to shift some major past life karma, and that I also needed to fully awaken the Kundalini energy that is apart of who I am. These both play vital roles in my journey and also it required me to let go and also come home to myself as well, in order to progress and move forward with my work. So I signed myself up to doing a sacred de-armouring workshop, it is not for the faint of heart but it makes a difference and really does bring home the idea of being in a physical body as well as having an energy form as well. This also led me to doing ancestral work, which made such a difference and allowed me to experience release at the same time. This also opened up to the very unpleasant side of the work that I do and can be involved with.
 
I have always found myself in the presence of the best teachers, the best facilitators and I have over time realised why this is. As a person that has various learning and biological complications, I find that I am placed in situations with the best people that work with these rather than against them. They have either helped me to recognise these thing for what they are, or they have helped me to overcome or turn them into strengths. However the flip side of this is that it has shown me beyond the veil of pretence and hyperbole; as for every great facilitator or teacher there is one who is not that great.
 
meRecently I have discovered that much of what I had believed or been led into believing belonged to others, I have been through a lot in order to come home and start to embody my sojourn, my beliefs and also take what I have been taught and put it across in away that makes sense to others. It’s not sitting well with people, in fact it has caused me a great deal of problems for the better part of nine months. I will also be upfront and honest by saying that it has caused a lot of damage on the personal and professional level and I am over being told who I am and who I am not by the spectators of my life in the peanut gallery of hearsay and rumour.
 
I take my work very seriously and I honour what I have been taught but I will also honour what I am feeling and how I am being led by the flow of Reiki and also the calling of Source and Divine Will. This means that it is time to allow natural evolution and the ebb and flow of source to guide. I follow that flow and allow it to show me what needs to be on any given workshop or with any given client because at that moment it is perfect, and the student or the client gets what they need not what is being prescribed by some formula, there are standards and I will always adhere and work within those standards.
 
meI’d love to say that this has been the easy part, giving you the reader information about who I am but believe me when I say it’s really the hardest part of it. I have read so many about pages, as I would image you have as well and they all have the customary ‘selfie’ and then go into this huge textual glorification about how they have been this and then one day had an epiphany and were suddenly encouraged by their great grandmother, mother or some other person to go out into the world and share their gift and so on… Well like so many children up to around the age of 4 or 5 I was gifted, the difference with me I never had it bred out of me by school, my peers or even my family. If anything because I was bullied throughout the latter years of primary (elementary for those of you outside the UK) and all through Secondary education it made the connection to spirit stronger and allowed me the chance to hone the psychic skills as well.
 
Throughout my further education I was always interested in the esoteric and supernatural. It became a hobby of mine and it led me into developing a very deep passion for not only the Tarot Cards but Spiritual communication as well, something that as you have read I continue working with today, however as well as platform I also do Trance work (channelling) as well as transfiguration work (spiritually my features change). I love all aspects of my work, they have been my life since I was born really. As I said above Reiki is not just a therapy or a method of healing for me, Reiki is who I am, I live and work with it each and every day of my life.


Tarot Blog Hop – A Wrong Turn at Delphi… 18

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… That’s when you know it’s time surrender to the flow …

 

I keep thinking to myself, it’s fine; in fact it is perfect, everything will work out and here I am on the day of the blog hop and I am running late. Not intentionally though, its a technological thing (yet again)… I have this love/hate relationship with technology, when it works, it works amazingly and when it doesn’t… Well you’ve heard what happened to the dinosaurs.

 

Whether you are familiar with blog hopping, blogging or if you are just joining in for the first time, then welcome to the chaos that is my contribution to this month. A hop if you are not familiar with this; it is a group of writers and bloggers coming together on a singular subject and exploring it from their point of view; we then link to one anothers blog (albeit earlier than originally planned) and thus the hop is birthed (prematurely and late birth for this one… wyrd huh?).

 

This was meant to be about the Aces, but I swear the Oh Gods of Technology and the Delphi Oracles, have other plans for this one, and yet even as I sit here and allow the flow to just take over, I get the sense of the Aces playing their part. However they’re not playing an active role in this, they’re on the side lines so to speak, sheltered by everything else. The rest of the suits and the major cards as well are forefront again playing the part of the protector.

 

When you have the Aces present, what do they make you think about, for me the directions and the quarters. Now here is where it all goes chaotic, which one belongs where? For me Wood burns, therefore The Ace of Clubs would be Fire, A Sword cuts Air, therefore for the Ace of Swords would be Air, Pentacles, are metalic and made of earthly materials and so the Ace of Pentacles (Coins in some decks) would be Earth, leaving the Cups, holding water so therefore the Ace of Cups would be Water.

 

I would argue that this makes absolute perfect sense, I would say that my understanding is right; but then I would. It can be argued that Swords represent Fire, Batons/Clubs represent Air and the other two would be fine as they are, but then this argument would be right, I would be wrong and so would my understanding, but then it would be right… and so would I. It depends on how you came into Tarot, it depends on where you learnt those skills; neither one is wrong, just as neither one is absolutely right.

 

Recently there has been a spate of click-bate, misinformation, fake-news and ‘alternative facts’ it’s about seperation and fear; it’s about who controls who, and it’s about placing us where others feel we need to be placed and ultimately it comes down to power. I have tried several times to ride the currents of the collective and get a sense of where things are going but I swear I keep taking a wrong turn at Delphi, I keep sensing the Ten’s of each Suit, doing a Wheel of Fortuna and sending me back to the start again.

 

That’s when I started to realise that I just need to stop, it’s when you start ending up back at where you started that you know its time to surrender to the flow. Simply let the eddies and the current take you where is needed, not where is wanted. It’s the only way to be…

 

So yeah this has been my blog hop experience, don’t forget to leave me a comment (even if it does say about time or better later than never)…

 

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The Space Above Handbrake… 8

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When I read the brief for the first Reiki blog hop of 2017, I just thought; “What the feck can I say about this?” I honestly didn’t know where I could take it, however before I follow that through, let me bid you welcome to my blog/site/little bit of escapism. If you have never been here before then, I’m Jay if you want to know my background in Reiki then all you need to do is look at my profile Here on Facebook it has all the things you need to know that would normally sit here in the introduction.

Karen Seely, Wrangler, Cat Herder and Crisis Juggler Extraordinaire; asked us this, “New Year! As much as I’d like to be original and innovative, I’m going to sign up to the seasonal trend and ask you to share your thoughts on New Year. Do you love it or loathe it? Do you have your own traditions? Does this time of year affect your Reiki practice and if so, how? Do you have any resolutions or revolutions that you are planning? etc etc… Take ‘Reiki’ and ‘New Year’ as your springboard for inspiration and see where it launches you 😉

So as I said before, I had no idea where I to take this and perhaps I still don’t; all I know is that this year is really different for me compared to 2016; that was mostly about ending cycles, bringing a lot of things into completion, things is a broad and really generic term because of some the things that were being brought into completion were to do with trust, to do with betrayal of trust and a huge part of that was also releasing really old, like eons old stuff that I had been carrying for, well for the collective put it that way. Right now it’s okay for you not to know what the collective is, just stay with this for now.

I had a massive pre-release near the middle of the year, this was a massive precursor to the betrayal that happened at the end of the year and the amount of hostility, anger, and basically downright violence in the intention of the words, opened up a huge, huge thing for me; a process that stemmed from the etheric through to the physical. I’m only literally getting to grips with the feedback that is coming to my body just now.

In fact would go as far as to say that this is the definition of live, what you are reading is happening real time, this is a textual process that is happening and it is huge, huge stuff; this piece about betrayal, about the relationship between master/teacher, therapist/client, reiki practitioner and reiki client, it’s a huge, huge responsibility. It’s not about trying to ‘fix’ the person on the bed, it’s about getting them to fix themselves. We’re just holding that space, creating through our own intention the right conditions for healing.

When you have the master/student role, it’s not about our power as masters, its about us holding the space of the students to learn, receive and become attuned through their own sovereignty. It’s the alignment of the self that provides the attunement, as a master we’re taught to do because our master was taught to do. To be honest you could stand there and by intention allow the whole process to happen.

Thing is the master/student relationship is also one that is a huge thing, as a master, there is an element of the student looking to the master for reassurance and also I guess a form of friendship, but that can so easily be abused, and betrayed. I have discovered this and it called into question just how ‘pure’ is the vibration of the energy of the master if they can then betray the friendship and trust of a student/friend? To attack them with just hostile intention and really stabbing words, language is a powerful tool and to have the knowledge of that from being in receivership of some down right nasty vile shit (excuse my language) has been a hard one to let go of.

I know that I switched into unintentionally this person who tried to micromanage and control the outcome, avoided being in failure mode by just being present but not showing fully up, keeping that little bit back that may have blurred the lines, because that what was needed, and then having that challenged twice, once for the wrong reasons, meaning my master and then having it challenged again today but for the right reasons, because I was in the space to receive it as unwelcomed as it felt, I wouldn’t have heard and then written about it here if I hadn’t already been ready to welcome it, to hear it and to receive it.

So now I know that I won’t be holding back, I will be showing up and to be told I am not doing it right, that I am not doing as I was taught, you know what I say Good! Thank fuck I am doing it according to what I have been trained to do not what I was taught to be. As that is what is going to make me awesome.

So yeah I had no idea where this was going, but this year… 2017, bring it!

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Movement of Light & Shadow – Tarot Blog Hop 8

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Welcome to the Tarot Blog Hop for December, this month is a little different for me; as I am having to work at the time it has gone live. Therefore I have done a Vblog or a Video Blog. It is a little unconventional I grant you, and it was ‘fun’ trying to put together, which believe me is a post all of its own on the peril and pearls that come from outdated technology.
 
Firstly huge shout out to each of the Wranglers for this year, Joanne Sprott, Louise Underhill, Arwen Lynch Poe, Aisling the Bard, Morgan Drake Eckstein, Karen Sealey, Ania Marczyk, Joy Vernon, and not forgetting myself in this as well. Now as you know the blog hop is a bit like a round robin or a wytches circle, in that there is no end and no real start either, simply a group of dedicated bloggers, writers and also Vbloggers, discussing tarot, oracle or runes cards as you’ll find in the video. There is a theme to the month and this one was thought up by Joanne Sprott.
 

Going back to the Dark Side, the Hidden Realm beneath the autumn leaves and the snow. It’s time to dig…

 

 
Well I hope that my entry has been of interest and you’ve managed to watch through it all, have a great hop and please feel free to leave me a comment in the positive, negative or neutral as every bit of feedback helps me and the likes of me to do more of the same (and different).
 

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When Letting Go is Hard to Do… 4

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It’s funny how I always seem to adopt a different tone when I do this blog hop compared to the Tarot Blog Hop it’s not that I don’t treat it seriously because believe me I do, I just have a completely different approach to tarot, maybe because I have worked with it so long, we’ve got to a point where I give just as much attitude as I get from the 100+ decks I have in my collection. There again maybe its just with Reiki, I live within the possibilities of endless wonder.

 

This month our reiki cat herder and resident wrangler Joy, has brought up the topic of letting go and to be fair, I almost let go of the drink in my mouth upon reading the topic. I believe my actual comment was something along the lines of “…gees have you guys been scrying in your coffee and seeing my life this last two weeks??? I have a novel waiting for this one… followed later with something like “…seriously I think I have now reach my fifth volume for this post… in all fairness to this post, we’re looking at a sixth volume at this point.

 

I chose to let go of some of my weight I had been carrying, I chose to let to of just being engaged and entered into an unconventional but completely legal marriage… twice… I chose to let go of who I believed myself to be and in the process of a full weekend discovered who I actually was, I have been placed into a position where I have had to let go of a pedestal and discover the heart (and to an extent soul) of a person that I had a lot of respect for and I have also chosen to let go of inherited ancestral baggage as well as help other let go of theirs.

 

WhoisThere is no doubt in my mind though that I still have work to do, the process of letting go, this shedding continues throughout life, it doesn’t just suddenly stop one day. One of the most liberating things you can ever do is to surrender to the natural flow of reiki, its not like science, it’s not a text book method or a one-size fits all; yes! Reiki, is Reiki, is and always will be Reiki, no matter how much window dressing like words, symbols or mystical babble that gets created, at the end of the day it comes back to the fact its Reiki.

 

When you really look into Reiki, its history, its cultural heritage and even the language and philosophy of it; there is at the core of it, one blissful reality; Reiki is simple. Regardless of which history you read there is a point where the symbols, their meaning, their origins and purpose are discussed. Depending on which history you read will affect how you relate to the symbols and their function, meaning, origin and also purpose both functionally and beyond that function.

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The most common one I find difficulty with is the traditional Kanji, there is really odd debate about it not being correct and yet this is the one that actually defines Reiki at its most traditional, because it is the one that Usui-Sensei taught (allegedly just to be safe and not cause that much offense). My main sense about this is that as soon as it was brought over into the Western world, because there is so much mis-information and dis-trust between East and West, those that chose to bring it here (regardless of reasons) they decided to make it palatable for us so took out any spiritual or mystic reference and created what is mostly out there today.

 

However, as tourism and curiosity about other cultures took hold, we started to become more inquisitive and now we have more information than we really know what to do with, so where do you let go and just forge your own path? This is exactly the point that I am at; 2016 has been a phenomenal year of transformation for me. It has also been an almost full circle too; recently I charted my progress in terms of my certificated knowledge, meaning the colleges, universities and also masters and courses that I have done throughout my life. I am tempted to forego the laborious process of writing them all out, but no! At least not this time, this is about letting go and that can be seen in two ways, the release of the bad but also the releasing of knowledge, and information and let’s face it; how much do you really know about me?

 

WhoisNot that much I would imagine; Since 1998 I have studied: Media Skills, Hairdressing, Communications, Computing, Crystal Therapy, Character Analysis, Parapsychology, Numerology, Journal Therapy, Psychology of Self, Dream Analysis, Meditation Teacher, Tarot Card & Cartomancy, Counselling Skills, Spiritual Healing, Creative Writing, Wicca, Usui Reiki Level I, II and Masters, Angelic Reiki Practitioners, Masters and Teachers, Astrology, Angel Healing, Kundalini Reiki, Karuna Reiki, Gold Reiki, Shamballa MDH Reiki and I’m also studying Massage Diploma, Advance Crystal Healing and Chinese Massage & Accupressure.

 

The interesting thing about this year is while I am happy to have typed all of that out, I also release it; I have an entire alphabet after my name these days, but they aren’t me, they are what shaped me. I build my own computers, design a lot of my own logo/graphics – although admittedly these ones I am using are a gift from a friend good friend of mine – this year I have also learnt about de-armouring work, ancestral healing and I have also learnt a very valuable lesson about hero-worship and pedestals.

 

Throughout my reiki journey, I have heard the same message over and over again, ‘there is enough room for reiki practitioners, we’re all one big family, there is no competition, we all help each other…’ Let that one go! It’s said by those who are in a position where they have a stable client base and been in business for a while. They’ve got nothing to be concerned about and further they really don’t see anyone they are teaching as a threat, they also have another part to their business and Reiki is just apart of it. Since branching off into different areas of Reiki, I truly didn’t see there was any dark side to it, until I stopped looking at things from the higher side perspective.

 

You see when you take it into the physical, factor in living, money and running a business; it is highly competitive and there is no big Reiki family, in the past month alone I have been called uncaring, I have been told that the only reason I am even contemplating some of my business ideas is because I am coming from a place of ego, money or stealing students. It’s not in my nature to be any of those things, so it says more about the person saying this than me.

 

While I care about what is said about me, I also know that I am not that person being described; it is a view point coming from where that person is in their life. However it makes me realise that I have that skill set and I know that I am able to do that work, facilitate and bring new practitioners of Reiki, any Reiki into awakening and maybe its time to just stop trying to living within this world, where people and reiki are meant to be at a higher vibration, to be awakened in their own way; its clear to me that many are only coming from their own place, and at some point they have stopped being present and in their bodies to hear the message that is being broadcast within the silence.

 

“Reiki is Simple” “Reiki is Light!” “Reiki is Perfect Love!” This energy is a mirror, its a guide and it is a gift. Every person that has ever done Reiki, has been given an amazing gift, its set them on their pathway, from Shaman, Witch, Master, Practitioner, Facilitator, Devi/Deva and all the inbetweens. Reiki holds up a mirror, and says look at where you are, where you need to be and where you want to go… Reiki is Reiki is Reiki… and sometimes you just really need to let go of who you think you are, where you think you are and what you believe you are and simply be…

 

Thanks for stopping by this months entry on the Reiki blog hop. Please feel free to leave me a comment on here or on Facebook if you have trouble with my comments page

 

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Walking with the Ancestors 16

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Welcome to the Samhain Tarot Blog Hop;

 

Hello, welcome, don’t stand there on ceremony or give me that critical eye thing; you should be familiar with my ways by now. Ah so your new to this that’s okay; honesty just put your deck down over there for a few, hang up your broom over there by the door and grab some left overs from last months Blog hop, they’re fresh out the time portal. Tonight is about honouring the ancestors after all its Samhain, All Hallows or Día de Muertos, if you happen to speak Spanish or come from Mexico.

 

This is my time of the year (except maybe for driving in the dark), there is a chill to the air, you know the snow or at the very least the frost and ice is about to start forming and let’s face it, the spooks and ghouls (oh and freaky fools) start to wake up. This time around I don’t have any plans that can go awry but I know that it’s important to follow this one through, because not only will it be relevant to the Blog Hop but I also sense that its going to be honest, revealing and mildly sentimental. So if its not you thing or you feel that you may end up doing a disservice to your ancestors and mine with you comments, then maybe best to just skip ahead.

WhoisMeet my family, this is dad, mum and me; hubby is the one taking the photo. Dad’s been with the ancestors now for going on five years. He was terminally ill with a progressively degenerative condition known as MSA (Multiple System Atrophy) and it was just all to do with when he was ready to let go and return home. My family was and still is awesome, a bit crazed at times, disjointed and touched or tainted (really depends on how you look at it). Dad in his own way was empathic and the other side (meaning mum’s), well I am convinced that my grandma coming from fishing folk (so I’m told) was a seer, she would do the tea leaf readings and the palms for folks but stopped when she witnessed/foresaw my aunt in an accident.

Thing is all that had to end up somewhere, so it chose me or rather I believe I chose it. All through my life cycle this time around it’s been in the background and then one day it decided to get acquainted with me and well since then it’s been nonstop. I will get to that, there is something that I need to deal with first…

I think what brought home this year to me was getting married, it changed and yet expanded my life in ways I really didn’t think was possible. Two words within a sentence and suddenly I have a whole new set of ancestors that I didn’t even know in my life, which is massively wyrd when you have a great uncle and a ancestral king from a family you’ve known a little bit about and now suddenly they want to tell you their story in dream-o-vision, complete with bloody murder and up close and personal madness.

WhoisHowever I have learnt to deal with death; both the card and the moment of death. You see I have felt the passing and witnessed the passing of more than one member of the family line, it’s odd because the sense of peace and beauty that comes from it, the understanding and complete knowledge that you obtain from being the witness is, well it has no words. The picture here is of my father-in-law, husband, myself and my mum; I felt my father-in-law pass to the higher side of life, it began the day he made peace with his son.

It is a personally held belief of mine that some moments are sacred and only meant to be witnessed by the family themselves. Without needing to be in that room, I knew that everything they needed to say, all the moments that needed to be, happened in that room and then when it was done, my father-in-law had decided there was no more needing done and chose to meet his wife, my dad and all the others that wait beyond the veil for us. I do think there is a beauty in that; we may not get to decide how we are going to exit, but at least once its happened, there is some solace in the knowledge we’ll be made welcome…

tarotThis weekend I went on an ancestral healing workshop, a lot happened on the workshop and I was able to witness a great deal, work with the tools that we learnt but I also connected with all four of the family lines; my dad’s, mum’s, hubby’s and also my past lives; the part I am glad about is none of the lines needed to have it out with me or me with them. I seem to have a healthy respect for all of them and know I can call on them when I need to as well.

This started me thinking in terms of Tarot, maybe it is possible to help clear the past using the representations presented in the cards, we have plenty of archetypes to work with from Hierophant as the grandfather to the Emperor as the father, but is there a Grandmother figure within the traditional deck? The mother is represented as the Empress, the daughter as the High Priestess, with the Star as the virginal sister. The fool the son and the Magician the brother, but where do you find the Grandmother? Originally I thought it may have been The World, but thinking about it this can have too many representations. I know that a lot of it depends on the deck but I am just thinking of the general rule for the major deck as it was in the like of rider-waite or the IJJ Swiss.

I have a varied family tree and my past lives are certainly very interesting and there is a wealth of understanding and knowledge within them that they allow me to access when it’s needed. Having learnt from my Grandma on Mums side how to read not only cards but also tea as well as the Crystal Ball, mainly from the spirit side than here on the physical, plus learning to come into alignment with the empathy and sense of things as I have, I have come to realise that being a seer or oracle is not to be taken lightly. The more I write (and yes edit) this I am not sure that I would use a Tarot deck to help heal wounds of the past, mainly because one set of grumpy ancestors is enough but an entire spirit world of them, no thanks! 

 

A huge thanks and shout to our Cat Herder and Blog Wrangler Louise for this idea, do leave me a thought, a comment or a WTF if you feel like it and enjoy the rest of the tour, don’t forget your deck, your broom and great uncle bulgaria’s map of the internet in binary for the blind on your way out… 

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