Living within the Sacred Possibilities


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I am the first to admit that I haven’t been spending as much time online as I would normally. Partly this is because I am entrenched in case studies & assessments for the Diplomas that I am working towards. However there is perhaps a bit more to it; since really the Meteor shower, Solar Eclipse and the New Moon, I have had this sense of conformity and in essence this structured sense of reality just seemingly dissolve. The more I have sensed, felt and processed my way through this, it’s like there are no boundaries any more. So much of what I thought or considered improbable isn’t and with this new found sense of reality I am coming to terms with the notion that I have made friends with living within the sacred possibilities, and how liberating that is but also just how mindful I need to be as well.

 

 

Truthfully; I would equate this to going through a huge paradigm shift from the belief of being limited or being held back to stepping up. It’s not about doing, fixing or who is bigger, smarter or even who has less and who has more, it’s about really engaging with all aspects, from ego to soul, they’re not to be separated but rather integrated. This life, the people, animals and plants, our whole world is ready to support us in our journey as long as we give back what we take, so a plant for a plant, energy for energy. We live within sacred possibilities every day. It’s about knowledge and knowing what makes you very much you, not about somebody else telling you. Teachers, gurus or whatever should open a door, not stand in it and say its me you should follow.

 

 

From a very early age I always knew that I wanted to be a Wytch; thing was I never really understood what that word in its traditional sense meant. I always had a inner knowing that I wasn’t the same as other kids, and for most of my childhood I was always the outsider and ostracised or bullied for it. I had a very traditional CoS (Church of Scotland) upbringing, went to church on a Sunday, went through Sunday School and then began Bible Classes, but at some point around 13/14 I began to ask the odd questions such as “What if God is an Alien and we’re the science experiment that went ary and he abandoned/left it?” of course that didn’t sit well in Bible Class, and then there was the blatant hypocrisy of the congregation during the coffee morning at the end of the service…

 

 

As the outsider, the kid that spent most of his time alone while the other kids did what other kids did, I actually observed the adults. Thing is no one see a child unless they are doing something that falls outside the normal, so sitting by the service hatch or by the door, walking from one side to the other never registered on their radar and so I got to see adulting in its raw unfiltered form. I realised that there was nothing Christian about their behaviour, instead these were adult children, being mean about each other, talking behind their backs, and effectively being bullies even though they chastise their own for doing it. In that moment of reality I had my first awakening and I did not return to that church or any other for many years.

 

 

During my years of being bullied through high school, I had developed a coping mechanism, which allowed me to essentially exist outside of space-time as it is understood. Within this bubble there was no time, only source and the sentience I called Louise; this was actually my first spiritual guide and teacher (also my first goddess experience). If you think of Louise like Chocky, who was a fictional character from a series of Children’s books that was later serialised for TV, Chocky was a consciousness or guide for at first Matthew and then later a group of children, Chocky taught them about advanced sciences, telekinetics and much more. Then you begin to understand that Louise was my Chocky and she was teaching me about being a Medium, Clairvoyant and also a Wytch as well, although at first it was about guiding me to find the right information and books as the internet was a fictional thing at that time.

 

 

At 16 I never knew that I had Dyslexia or its associated learning difficulties, it would be 6 more years before I would learn about that, all I ever knew was that reading was a pain and I didn’t always recollect things the way I had learnt them. Therefore as I started to learn Tarot, I learnt from the pictures and very little from the text, this was also because my very first deck of Tarot was in French and I really didn’t (nor still do) have an aptitude for certain languages. I experimented and tinkered with Tarot for a while and then put them aside until later when I became smitten with becoming Solitaire; a character played by Jane Seymour in Live and Let Die, which was a James Bond Movie. In it Solitaire is Priestess to a Voodoo/Houdon sect, she foresees events using Tarot cards and of course becomes the main love interest for Bond. While I didn’t see myself as being the love interest for Bond, I did have a desire to become able to foresee events through the Tarot, so I bought the Tarot of the Witches and tried my hardest to replicate her ways… Unsuccessfully…

 

 

It be further year before I would fulfil the role of Solitaire to a degree and then four years before I would go through my second awakening, and this paradigm shift would shake my very foundations and strip me of my self importance and take me back to basics. It was a massive awakening when I faced the possibility of death, I had to take responsibility for my own fate, and in the run up to the car hitting me, I experienced every reality and choice. Staying in the car, getting out and sitting on the embankment, crossing to the other side of the road and even getting out and trying to attract their attention. Needless to say I stayed in the car and experienced being thrown out of my body and then wrenched back into it after a matter of seconds. A huge gift of an experience (and one I wouldn’t ever like to repeat) but I raged against the gift for a long time and blamed everyone including myself. The trauma really stayed and hid in me for a great many moons and was responsible for my self destructive journey until eventually after experiencing a form of energetic rape, I broke the cycle.

Not long after breaking the cycle, I realised that the relationship that I was in, wasn’t healthy and that the lifestyle I had been leading was self sabotaging my happiness amongst other things and it took my best friend to point this out in the car at well after midnight as I was heading home from another night out. It took another year before things changed and I was summoned back into service, prior to my summons into service, the person I had been learning from had left, and I had neglected my spiritual studies in favour of a hedonistic lifestyle, partly I blamed the higher side for not protecting me, but also for protecting me and teaching me the biggest lesson that I would not understand for some years…

 

 

Returning to service brought a cycle to an end because I spent time learning in Spiritual churches, faithfully being a member of the National Union of Spiritualists and not only one but two churches, until I realised that all I was giving was money and I wasn’t receiving anything in return, it became obvious that the same cycle of bullying, bitching and unspiritual like behaviours also occurred in this movement and it was happenstance that brought it to light, I had my own shop unit in the city and worked very hard to keep it afloat for a year and a half, during this time as a member of the main spiritual church in the city, I overheard and then was confronted with hypocrisy at its best. It amounted to being very open about my line of work and being told that as a spiritual member of the church I shouldn’t be openly working in the public domain… It wasn’t long before I left, but I would have two more dealings with that church one taught me about my abilities and the other opened the door to my platform work.

 

 

Since starting this journey and learning all that I have whether it has been through working with others or being taught by the highest side of life, I have come to understand that all of these experiences have been gifts of awakening, the paradigm shifts from within my consciousness have been true awakenings of the Kundalini, the compassionate action of Karuna, the experiential knowledge of the Muni-Qi and the reconnection to the Angelic energies and the stability of the Usui Ways of Reiki. The integration and awakening through de-armouring has reconnected all part of me and at some point I have come into the knowledge that this is my last lifetime having a human experience. I have found that this last few weeks have been a serious challenge but I also realise that I have in process.

As I come into the latter half of 2017, I am preparing to put all my skills into use, I am getting ready to finalise many of the skills I have learnt in massage, round off my skills in Chinese Medicine, and also start preparing the next phase of not only my business but my career as well. This is what it means for me at least to start living within Sacred Possibilities; I’m quite content to continue manifesting my life as it is, you see this is the bit that took me twenty plus years to learn and come to terms with, I manifested the biggest lesson, my car accident was something I needed to go through in order to force change, otherwise I would have been on a path of self destruction and most likely succeeded…

 

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