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Welcome, to the first musing of 2018, however its not the first blog I have written in 2018, there have been two already since January, you can find them under the Reiki or Tarot Blog Hop links. Through out January, I have this vibe that the training wheels are off! At the start I didn’t really have a clue what this meant or what it referred to. I have already been aware of the massive changes going on within me and around me, so I had believed this to be another confirmation and reference to that, but now here at the start of February, I believe it is something more.



In order to paint this picture and help you follow this narrative more easily, I could take you back to the very start and chart my history, but let’s face it this is not a biography nor is it ‘This is Your Life’ – so let’s pretend that I did and instead let me give you the potted history. I started in Media, went into Hairdressing, followed on into Communications and gave up the traditional career path after Computing. Most of these were big hitters, HNC for Media, Hairdressing and Computing, DiPHE for Communications. I spent the next 7 – 8 years off the grid being a carer and learning more about Humanity or lack there of than is really needed in one lifetime, let alone realising that truly no-one cares unless they are your family or a truly close friend.



Alright maybe I am being a bit unfair… There are those that care, it was just within those 7 years I rarely met them outside of friends and family. I realise that I wanted to become the one that cared about what someone was going through but not try to ‘fix’ them – however more on that piece in a few – During one of those 7 years, I had a conversation about hands on healing and that came back to re-visit me in the December of 2012 and set me off on a journey that helped me to discover more of the skills that I was going to need. Reiki, Wicca, Astrology, Creative Writing, Angel Healing and Angelic Reiki. As well as Kundalini Reiki, Shamballah MDH and Karuna Reiki… It was a huge period of change over something like 2 – 3 years.



So that almost brings things up to date, however there is another piece that I have to add to this and its where the ‘fixing’ comes into play; truthfully until around 2016, I was an unintentional ‘fixer’ I wanted everything and everyone to be better, but I didn’t understand that I wasn’t the one that needed to do the fixing, it had to come from the other person, they had to be the one to fix and mend their own lives. It’s a generational/societal trait; I recognise that now, I just didn’t see or even know that back then. That was until I went through a lot of clearance work, in 2016 and also 2017 as well; huge amounts shifted and a lot of re-wiring went on as well.



More on that in a moment, I just wanted to add another piece that is relevant to where I am now. During 2015, I had gone through a very bad time at college, from bullying to just not liking the environment or the course, however I knew that Body work was part of my journey. I left the college and went into training, I had a very good experience doing my Crystal Therapy Diploma, so I thought this was the route to take, through that I discovered the roots of Massage, well one of the roots anyway, and I followed that path as well. I had started to work out why but only a glimmer of it.



In the periods between training, I decided to keep things fresh in my head, so I started learning about Chinese Massage and Acupressure and in the background completed the Advanced Crystal Healer Diploma that I had started and sort of forgot. What I began to realise from doing the Chinese Massage and Acupressure, was that Chinese Medicine really interested me and attracted me but also the De-armouring work and training that I had received also played apart in this, again I just hadn’t worked out how they all came together as yet, but that was because this recipe wasn’t complete, Chinese Medicine, isn’t just massage, it is acupuncture, acupressure, massage, Tai Chi, Chi Kung and Herbalism. Sadly my allergies wouldn’t forgive me for getting involved with that one, so I improvised and added Meridian Psychotherapy or EFT as it is more commonly known.



It really felt and seems like a lot of study, but it is paying off! Yes I still have the traditional Western massage training to complete, but that is also coming to its end. True there are maybe one or two other things that need to be wrapped up but the building blocks are in place and almost ready to come of the ground and grow. I haven’t been able to see the bigger picture, only the seeds and the parts that were needed not where it was going or what it was going to become. I guess while I was so wrapped up in trying to gather everything it wasn’t high on my list but I am starting to see just how important it needs to be. I am starting to realise just what I need to do.



Naturally I am not as naive to just blurt it all out in text for everyone to see, not until I get my safeguards in place! I have been on the receiving end of those who are self-serving, and those who are more than happy to take the work of others and claim it as their own. However there is a fine line, between silence and secretive; just as there is a fine line between ambiguous and confusing, it is about saying just enough to help folks understand, but not too much that those who would try and profit can steal the ideas to make their own… It is amazing what you learn when you start working with official channels, they tell you what to be careful of and how to protect yourself!



It’s not just body work that I am interested in, it also the soul work and clearing work, which is why these skills are so vital; knowledge as well as instinct and understanding are key to the process that I am working to understand, the healing that we go through and how all the skills in energy work, healing, crystals, sounds and everything else that I am waiting to complete fit into this, naturally before I can bring this into the light I have to wait, but I am looking forward to putting out there and being open about it as well.


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Tarot Blog Hop – Scrying Under the Blue Moon 9

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Welcome, although it is not the first blog hop of the new cycle, it is the first one of 2018. Already there are massive changes going on within me and around me, so this blog hop will certainly prove to be an interesting one.

This month sees The Facebook Tarot Blog Hop Group starting up again after a rest period. If you haven’t blog hopped before, this is the absolute perfect time to start. You can find out all about Blog Hopping Here and you can sign up to the Group Here or through the link at the top of this paragraph.

I’ve changed the format of my posts slightly to include some information about the time, date and subject for the topic. This is a safety measure that I have adopted so that if Facebook decided to get stroppy and the Sign-up post gets messed about, all the information is here for that month.

DATE: 31st January 2018
TIME: 7pm UTC/GMT | 12 noon MST
WHERE: Your very own wonderful blog
WRANGLER: Aisling the Bard
SIGNUP DEADLINE: Saturday, 27 – January – 2018
LIST SHUFFLE: 28th January 2018




There are rules for most blog hops, if you are interested to find out what they are, then why not visit Jay’s Guide to Blogging Rule 2018 it saves having to try hunt them out on the Facebook Group.

BLOG TOPIC: “Brighid’s Blue Moon”


This Hop is known as “Brighid’s Blue Moon”. in Celtic Lore, it represents a Secret Gift of Spirit. The Blue Moon, represents those things that are rare and precious. The idea is that each participant creates a pattern of triplicity in the drawing and layouts. The following explains, how it is meant to be set out… You do realise of course, on anyone else’s blog that it most likely went according to plan; and then you visited me…

1) The Foundation: You will draw three cards, one representing Land (Body), one for Sky (Mind) and the third one for Spirit (Sea). These will indicate for you the physical, mental, and emotional/spiritual focus of your year-to-come. These cards honor the Solar Festival of Imbolc and the Three Fires of Brigid.

2) The Construction: This Moon, according to the Celtic Tree Calendar, is the Full Rowan Moon. This tree is sacred to Brighid, and represents “Protection from Evil Enchantment”. It is considered a Guardian, a Guide, and a Gateway, so that we may be safely sheltered and receive direction as we walk down the new path of the year. So the three cards you draw for the second level, the Lunar energy of the year, will represent the answers to the following three questions: What is the energy of the new path that presents itself? From what will I need protection on this journey? What energies of my own or of spirit will guide and protect me?

3) The Surprise: Once in a Blue Moon, wonderful things come forth. Draw your final three cards connected with Body, Mind, and Spirit, in that order, to see what treasures the Universe has in store for you.

Scrying Under the Blue Moon


… To pick up where I left off, then you came and visited me. Each time I try to follow the pattern and plan, the cards have other ideas! This time they were’t happy at the fact the story was incomplete, so for every step of it they added an outcome or conclusion card and that wasn’t the end of it, they then insisted on having four decks! Yes Four! The Wildwood Tarot, Druid Tarot, Celtic Tarot and The Celtic Tree Oracle.

All in all there are 21 cards in play for this topic, so be warned it is not a post you can just glance over. In all honesty it is better for you to check make sure the links work, see that the pictures and content are showing up for you and then come back and read it later. However if you have time, patience and stamina then this is the perfect time to read it!

The deck that is used for the Foundation is The Wildwood Tarot. I do like working with this deck from time to time, particularly on Celtic, Druid or Pagan themed topics; being connected to the land, the elements as well as the spirits this deck gives me the insights that I need to respond to the topic in the best possible way.

To remind you: The Foundation (focus of the year-to-come): Draw three cards, one representing Land (Body/Physical), one for Sky (Mind/Mental) and one for Sea (Emotional). It is strange but I found that the deck required a fourth, one for the Unseen (Spiritual), I will touch on this and how I draw the cards for the hops towards the end, but for now lets look at the cards.


Land (Body): This card did not come as any surprise when it showed up, this is very much where the physical plain is at the moment; lots of movement and plenty happening but there are the one or two important things that are not moving at all for me. The 10 of Arrows is pretty much suggesting that at least for this month it is not about to change. True I will still have movement but it will be slow, which I am okay with to some degree.


Sky (Mind): Frustration, well that speaks of a link to the distant and recent past, while also overlapping with currently what is around me. As I have indicated there are a lot of plates spinning on the axis at the moment, some have been spinning since as far back at 2015, while others have just started their spin in 2017. A lot of them are in relation to education and trying to wrap up everything so that by the time I hit mid-point of this wheel I can finally get moving in the direction that I want to go. This card speaks of the frustration in some parts of this plan.


Sea (Emotions): Well! I hate to admit it but Insecurity has hit the nail on the head. What I find troubling is with all the waiting and the pauses, I grow a bit worried that my skill set, the one I am waiting to complete will get a bit rusty and if I am to be assessed then there is a huge part of me that has an insecurity that I won’t be fluent or flowing because all the work I accomplished will be undone. So this card is reflecting what is lurking in the psyche, but it is also flagging up that I need to stop shying away from conflict and speak out about my worries, rather than textualising them on here where it is safe.

The Green Man

The Unseen(Spiritual): The Green Man, firstly I did not expect him to show up in this at all, if anything I was expecting The Hermit to appear, and Diogenes’ light shining full force in my face to show me the truth of it. However I think this is about as big an potent as you can get; The Green Man like The Hermit has a Karmic as well as Dharma connection. The appearance of Herne in one of his true forms suggests that matters are already in hand and that I really need to weather this with patience, grace and trust in the land as it trusts in me. My sense is that The Green Man is ensuring that all this waiting will not be in vain and also to keep moving with the cycle and pay attention to the Nature of things as they will be the truest indicator of progress and timing.

Celtic Connections…So before I move on The Construction part of this spread, let me explain a couple of things mentioned in The Foundation. You might remember from other posts that I have spoken about the fact I rescue decks as well as by them brand new. Last year I did a Video Blog Hop Challenge and on one of the days for that I did a display of all my decks for the film. My last count brought the collection to over 110 decks. Through this I have part of the collection devoted to Wicca, Pagan, Druid, Norse and Celtic, so it pretty much means I have decks for each one of these including the most recent addition of The Celtic Tree Oracle.

I was drawn to use these kinds of decks for this topic, and in order to ensure I have no idea what cards will come out for me, I typically shuffle the deck, while reading the post and then split the deck into two and whatever has the strongest pull, I will then draw however many cards are meant for the topic, face down directly on to the scanner, hit preview and then scan and save. Naturally I then upload them in order of draw and type up the reading either on site or off site and then copy to a post, it ensures that I have limited control over what I am going to encounter.

The deck that is used for The Construction is The Druid Tarot. As this is a Celtic themed topic; and because Druids like Shamans follow the Celestial Cycles such as the Sun, Moon and Stars plus they connect to the land and Spirits albeit in a different way to perhaps Wicca, Shinto and Shamans. I decided that The Druid deck would allow me the insights that I need to respond to this part of the topic.

To remind you: Construction: The three cards represent: The Energy of The New Path, The Guides and The Protection along it.

Queen of Swords

The Energy: I have been saying for a few days now that the energy of 2018 is very different, it has the feeling as if the training wheels have been taken off. The Queen of Swords asides from the connection to Aquarius and the element of Air, is very much meaning business. The entire posture, energy and feel of this card is about stepping up, recognising the power you own and knowing how to use it for the best possible outcome. Very much an answer to the first card in the Foundation.

9 of Swords

Protection: To be completely honest, I didn’t spot this the first time I looked to the card, but on a second glance just now that seems to be the position being taken, almost a protection and guarded post. In a way this makes sense as I am very protective of my energy both when I am working and also generally, it is also about keeping myself in a good place across the four body system (mental, emotional, physical and spiritual), which hasn’t been easy of late but a lot of it is old cycles, patterns and conditioning clearing itself out of those bodies. So part of this is about self care as well as listening to my body across the systems, as well as not allowing worry to get in my way either.

8 of Swords

Guides: Ages ago in my travels of learning about Tarot, I was introduced to the concept that an 8 represented Key Change, interestingly in Japanese Lore, 8 is the number of luck, good fortune, guides and protection. You’ll find out more about this later in this section, however for now let’s me explain why this is such a good place for this card to land. You wouldn’t know it to look at it but this card would appear to suggest contraint, entrapment and non-movement; however look again at the feet; they are not bound, nor are the ears, the nose or the head itself. In fact there is a lot more unbound than there is bound including the hands, we’re taught to put faith in the major organs; sight, aural and mobility, but in this card it is not about the major things but the minor. To move forward and be guided, it is really time to be silent, trust in the finer senses and allow the inner senses to guide, this is where the truth and true freedom reside.

Queen of Pentacles

The Unknowable: The Queen of Pentacles, it is not about the Capricorn or the Earth element connection in this card. This is about putting the skills to use in the way that has been already put in motion, it about really putting them into perspective and staying true to the vision. It is about embracing those hidden skills, the talents that aren’t known and bringing them forward. Look at how the Drum (which I have three) is being held and the way in which it is played, this is about announcing, making the presence felt and being in that powerful place and then having the patience to just be and allow it a chance to manifest.

YinYangThroughout this topic so far there has been an interesting side theme, this is not that uncommon in the Tarot Blog Hop for me, but I am now beginning to piece together why this is happening now on such a frequent basis. A lot of it has to with the Dharma and Karmic connections I have that brigde the East/West divide when it comes to the ways in which divination is done. Although I find the I-Ching hard to work with the Ogham like the Runes bridge that gap, in the I-Ching, it uses chance and the natural flow of energy through the land to predict any given outcome, so both long sticks and gold coins are used. Ogham, which is wooden sticks from different tress is carved with an ancient Celtic Alphabet that is both a means to write and divination. Runes are stones that are again both an alphabet and a means to divination.

In Shinto, much like Japanese Lore; Two, Four, Eight and so on are considered lucky, as are most even numbers. The odd numbers like three, nine, eleven and so on are considered to be unlucky or at the very least to be avoided. Since I follow the old ways of Shinto, before it became a political/religious tool of the government. I recognise the Kami and protectors of the physical world. However like Tarot, Shinto has a rich history and many origin stories, none of them right, just as none of them are wrong; and like Tarot, we all have one version of the origins that feels true to us. I find that try as I might to just use three cards, a fourth will always spawn itself, so these days I tend not to argue.

The deck that is used with Surprise is Celtic Tarot by Kristoffer Hughes. This is a relatively new addition to my collection but I like working with this deck, particularly on themed topics; this deck has offered its insights for this part of the topic.

To Remind You: Surprise, these final three cards re-connect with Body, Mind, and Spirit, in that order. To uncover what the Universe has in store.

Knight of Wands

Mind: The second 9 to appear in the topic, now that instantly makes me take notice. Twice is confirmation and since I am a follower of Numerology I am not about ignore it. Nine is about the completion of a cycle in Numerology and the fact that it is sitting within the Mind connection, it suggests that a lot of the physical things like exams, lessons and learning are coming to their end for me. It is the end and the beginning of the cycle and by the looks of things, once this cycle starts it will be full on. It is a nice completion to the ongoing matter of the Physical World and the Minds part to play in it.

Queen of Swords

Body: This is about ownership of my own personal power and taking back what has been out of my hands for sometime. The body is paramount in a lot of the work I am doing with myself and also with others, so it is important to listen to the body. It is also important to take ownership of the body, and doing that for myself means that I am able to do it for others as well. It is about being the person I want to be and that sometime requires the big boy pants.

The Sun

Spirit: This one pretty much speaks for itself, The Sun is the Solar energy the power centre that gives us what we need in terms of recharging, storing and making use of. The Moon energy is divine, calming and cooling it is for coming down after the work is done, this card is the power for doing the work, shining and being the powerhouse needed to get the work done properly. It is the male energy, the drive and the yang centre, it is to be embraced rather than feared, but it also requires the moon’s tempo also for balance.

Page of Swords

Tao: An interesting card, Tao or The Way is about flow. It is the natural energy that is us as well as flowing through us. It can’t really be named or defined because to name and define something like Tao, well it then is no longer Tao because it is no longer free. When you consider how the Page of Swords is in this card, it is perhaps best to remember not to pin everything down, have everything so clearly defined and within the lines so to speak. This is because, by nature we’re not something to be classified, boxed and then filed; humans are in essence free in spirit but have guidelines and limitations to ensure that there is not chaos of the unimaginable kind. It is here as a reminder to allow myself freedom but also remember why I started this journey to begin with.

Celtic KnotThis topic has been an interesting journey to take and a fascinating tale to have had woven but not only one but three decks. However it doesn’t quite end there. I did say at the very start there was four decks involved and this is the last deck that wanted to work with me on this topic. It is called The Celtic Tree Oracle. The very interesting thing about this aspect was instead of three or four cards, nine cards representing all aspects of this topic together needed to be given a voice. I have no idea what cards have come out to speak, I am only at the time of composing (8 – January – 2018) this finding out what cards have been dealt, so this should be fun!

1 White Poplar

Eadha: Eadha is the Ogham for White Poplar, which is sometimes also known as Aspen, this card in essence combines spiritual strength and endurance with the material, earthly aspects to the life cycle. It is about being able to ‘see’ the harsh realities and deal with them no matter the way in which they arrive; and in that there is beauty, which is to naturally shield and resist them. Eadha is the connection to language, speech and the wind; this card is potent in terms of the topic because although there have been frustrations, slow progress and sometimes a sense of blind faith. It has a connection to the voice of the old ones, these old gods like The Green Man; and in that there is a sense of enduring power and accomplishment once the set-backs are overcome.

2 Apple

Quert: Quert or Apple is the card that represents choice, it is in a manner of speaking a bit like the Wheel of Fortune, where you have to decide and then stick to it. It is also a card that has magical connections, such as the natural forming Pentacle or Pentagram in its centre or the ties that Apple have to Glastonbury and by extension Merlin. However it is also a card of Understanding and knowledge; the warning or caution here is not to waste the knowledge but to pass it along once it is understood.

3 Grove

Koad: Koad or Grove follows on from Apple, it picks up the message about knowledge and states that there is sacred knowledge that isn’t learnt in the traditional ways, this is knowledge that comes from the land, the collective and also from beyond that which we know as education. It is the knowledge that is hidden in plain sight and to learn it is to see beyond what is known and visible. This is a card that reveals itself in time and with patience.

4 Honeysuckle

Uilleand: Uilleand is the card of Truth; also known as Honeysuckle, the card much like the tree has many facets, Uilleand resonates at the vibration of Tao, you would not think that the two could be connected but they are. This card is about knowing truth from the inner perspective, in other words knowing truth without reason, logic or the need to explain. Tao is much like this, you know it and the truth of it without needing to add anything. It is recognising the false, the fake-news and those who do not have a good spirit, then using that recogition and finding the path, while remaining true at your core.

5 Reed

NgEtal: To bend like a Reed in the Wind is to have the strength from the Old Gods. It means adaptibility, and being able to discern your true path from one that appears true. It is a card of true unwavering purpose and knowing what you stand for as well as knowing what you mean. It is having the right skills at the right time for the right purpose and not looking back.

6 Heather

Ur: Heather or Ur is the card of duality, it represents the physical and spiritual worlds. As well as Ur, the card also has Uchelwydd, traditionally known as Mistletoe. The common bond between both Ur and Uchelwydd is fertility, the capactiy to heal all through this fertile connection between the physical and spiritual worlds, just look at Massage is all its form, as well as Reiki or Spritual Healing for examples of this in action. The card represents the dissolving of the veil, it means that there is no longer the need to keep the two separate and that to walk within both worlds is a blessing.

7 Elder

Ruis: There is always a reason why the 13th card is the most potent, this is very much like the world or death cards, in that it is both the end and start of the cycle. Ruis or Elder, is a card that represents The Unnamed Day on Dec 23rd as well as The Thirteenth Month, which is the three day period between Closing of the Wheel on Samhain, The Start of the Cycle on 1st November and the Birch Month that follows these. It represents the awareness from the cycle of the wheel, from birth into death and then rebirth, it is about severing the Dharma and Karmic ties from one wheel and standing ready to welcome the new Dharma and Karmic cycles that come as the Wheel turns.

8 Hazel

Coll: This is the Mystics Card, Coll represents Druidic Lore, Celtic and Pagan Traditions but it also represents in the wider scheme of things, it represents divination, oracular vision, and connection to the source. It represents not just a connection to the Land, but to all things both Earthly, Spiritual and Universal, when harnessed properly this is the card of potentency, creativity and in essence another form of fertility except this time it is of the soul as well as body.

9 Birch

Beith: Beith or Birch is the start of the cycle it is the newness or spring. It is about leaving that which is not for the highest or greatest good behind and firmly in the ground so that it can become something new. It is the right time to start or progress, which works well for the traditional start of the year but also works well at this time in the Celtic Calendar as well, since this is the time just after Yule but before Imbolc. It is a time for planning and cultivation so that when the time of fertility and sowing seeds for the harvest time arrives, I know what needs to be in place.

Well, this has been well worth the time and energy spent. I have learnt a fair bit about myself and also reinforced a lot of what I have been told through various sources. It all rings true and I particularly found The Celtic Tree Oracle to be very informative, it is one thing to be heard by the Tarot but it is quite another to be heard and witnessed by a deck that I have only just come into partnership with. Thanks for hopping with me and staying with this one. I am interested as always in any comments or observations that you have from reading this entry.

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Reiki Blog Hop: Master List – January 2018

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Welcome, it’s the start of a brand-new year and things in the world of energy work are becoming more relevant these days. Reiki perhaps even more so as the healer’s world is constantly changing; new ways of working and new Reiki methods constantly being discovered.

This month sees The Facebook Reiki Blog Hop Group starting up again after a rest period; and I volunteered to come up with this month’s topic. If you haven’t blog hopped before, this is the absolute perfect time to start. You can find out all about Blog Hopping Here and you can sign up to the Group Here or through the link at the top of this paragraph.

I’ve changed the format of the Master List slightly to include some information about the time, date and subject for the topic. This is a safety measure that I have adopted so that if Facebook decided to get stroppy and the Sign-up post gets messed about, all the information is here on the Master List for that month.

DATE: Monday, 29 – January – 2018
TIME: 9 p.m. GMT (London, Edinburgh Time)
WHERE: Your blog
WRANGLER: Jay Cassels
WRANGLER’S BLOG: Metaphysicalangels.co.uk
SIGNUP DEADLINE: Thursday, 25 – January – 2018
LIST SHUFFLE: Saturday, 27 – January – 2018



You can find the full rules for all the Reiki Blog Hops on the GroupYou Need to Be A Group Member To See It!  – However you can visit The Beginners Guide here on site as well to give you an idea.

Please don’t cancel any later than 24 hours before a hop.

BLOG TOPIC: Guided by Reiki?


There are times when I am teaching/facilitating the learning/birthing of Reiki practitioners either into Usui or Angelic Reiki and the topic of Guides comes up from time to time. Usually I let the student decide their own answer to this question, so for this first hop of 2018, I would like to pose this as a topic for discussion.

How do you approach/answer or discuss the topic of Reiki Guides, is it something that you’ve encountered, do you believe that as masters or as students that we are guided when it comes to Reiki?

If you have done a hop with me before, then you’re aware that I am a great believer in if you find yourself being called to discuss something that is on parallel with this topic, you are most welcome to explore it.

Master List – Saturday, 27 – January – 2018


This list, is pretty much our running order. Normally the names are randomised from the sign up list on the Group; but as there are only three folks for this one, the running order is exactly the same.


Master List: Here

1. Jay Cassels | http://metaphysicalangels.co.uk/rbh8
2. Joy Vernon | http://joyvernon.com/Blog/guided-by-reiki/
3. Karen Sealey | https://pureblessedtarot.wordpress.com/2018/01/29/reiki-guides-and-other-asides/


Reiki Blog Hop: Guided By The Light 4

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Welcome, this month sees The Facebook Reiki Blog Hop Group starting up again after a rest period; and I volunteered to come up with this month’s topic. If you haven’t blog hopped before, this is the absolute perfect time to start. You can find out all about Blog Hopping Here and you can sign up to the Group Here or through the link at the top of this paragraph.

The format on my hop posts has changed this year to include information on the topic, which would normally include time, date and topic. However this as this month I am the Wrangler, all the information is here on the Master List.


Welcome, to the first blog hop of a new cycle for The Reiki Blog Hop. It is the first one of 2018 and already there are massive changes going on. It has the feeling that this year the training wheels are off and it is time to bring some cycles into completion as well as really get working with all my skills.


This of course felt like a prompt from those that guide, and so I set this prompt for the blog hop.



How do you approach/answer or discuss the topic of Reiki Guides, is it something that you’ve encountered, do you believe that as masters or as students that we are guided when it comes to Reiki? If you have done a hop with me before, then you’re aware that I am a great believer in if you find yourself being called to discuss something that is on parallel with this topic, you are most welcome to explore it.



Guided By The Light



In many ways it was always meant to be that I would find my way to Reiki and I suppose it wasn’t even meant to end at just Usui Reiki, which is the founding system. I was meant to find my way into Angelic, Kundalini as well as all the other ways in which Reiki and I cross paths.


I have actually lost count of the different schools, methods and modalities that I have studied where Reiki is concerned. I’ve come to see it as my Dharma, meaning that I was always meant to rediscover my roots, rather than it being a Karmic thing, where I decided to find it and then heal something within my reincarnation cycle; which is a topic for another hop I think. Needless to say I have always had a connection to it and to being guided by it. Reiki has always guided my path, even before being awakened to the energies of Reiki, it ensured that I had all the knowledge and insights that I would need in order to make sense of the very deep and sometimes mirky path that Reiki has been tainted with.


The whole idea of guides and Reiki can be a little tempestuous, you just need to look at the symbol that represents Reiki to see just how diverse and tricky it is. After all the first question that raised my brow was why are there two and what is the difference between them? It took me ages to actually discover an answer that actually sits well with me.




There is plenty of history on Reiki, however as we know history is re-written to favour the outcome, and the person who is writing it. I guess this is why I have never really truthfully held with any version of Reiki’s history. 


In many ways I think I would honestly prefer not to know, which would be fine if I didn’t teach. It is a funny thing because when I have students for Usui Reiki, I say that I am what would be called a Sensei as it honours the fact I am one who knows Reiki, but also one who is always learning; plus it is purely honorific, so it sits well with me. However when I have students for Angelic Reiki, I say I am facilitating as it is the student that is doing a lot of the work, however when it comes to the attunement and healing techniques for both I am there to be a channel for the attunements and a guide for helping to learn the techniques.


There is that word again Guide… Perhaps it is time to start looking at this in a bit more detail. Let’s start with the Traditional or Usui Reiki…


There is something unkind and unwelcoming about this version of the Reiki symbol. It denies the idea of guides and simply suggests that it is human energy that is at the root of Reiki, which is fine providing it’s 65+ years ago in a time when we knew nothing of energy work, spirit or reincarnation. However it’s not and we do know these things, so it begs the question, why does the symbol persist? I have manuals and certificates with this on it and I keep thinking, why use it, when you are discussing in your manuals and lessons about spiritual energy and connection to this energy? 


True, each to their own and we all have our own styles, methods and ways of teaching/facilitation based on how we were taught, but surely we are more than just the sum of our teachers? When there is so much information out there and so much still being discovered about Reiki, is it not about time the we moved on and stopped giving energy to something that goes against the very thing Reiki has always stood for?


Forgive my outburst and perhaps my lack of knowledge, depending on how you receive this entry. You see for me I have spent a lot of time looking into this whole subject, as someone that passes along knowledge and understanding; I like to make sure that I can give as much information in my manuals as I can, and from time to time I like to update them, so that my students can learn to make up their own mind. It is after all their journey to take, as for me I am furthering my experiences and learning in order to make the transition into the ways of Reiki, for others easier to understand.


It is a bit like this symbol, which to me embodies Reiki in all its forms and says that it is about working in alignment with those that guide, however we understand them. Many see their guides as figures in the mind’s eye or in visions with their eyes shut, some sense or hear, others might even smell or perhaps taste.


I don’t think I have met anyone who embodies their Reiki guide, or embodies Reiki. It is perhaps a leap that only a few will make in any life cycle. It is perhaps a concept that very few are able to understand or interpret in such a way that would make sense to them.


What I have come to realise is that Reiki and I, found a path that would not only clear the old ancestral cycles, karmic cycles and also give me the understanding of my dharma; that I am now in a position to be actively and consciously free to move forward with my path. Reiki has also given me a gift of a new way in which to work with it, and that is to embody the energy of Usui, Angelic, Kundalini and all the others that I have mentioned, in such away that I no longer feel like I have to make a distinction between them, so where does that leave me as a teacher/sensei/facilitator?




It took me a while to realise that although for the sake of students, organisations, continuity and insurances, there needs to be clear distinctions between these different schools, modalities and methods; it is purely a comfortable blanket or safety bar that keeps everything nice neat and in a box. That can be clearly classified and that is perfect for those systems and people that have a mind, where there is that continuity. I will happily work alongside these and not rattle cages, boxes or cause to much corruption within the system, but from a personal point of view, it makes working with me a very unique, fun and interesting place to be.


It has taken five years for me to be able to happily say I know my stuff when it comes to working with Reiki, or most of what I have been trained to do. It was an old cycle based in partially truth of the time and also fear of competition and experiences that meant I kept on to it. I was taught that if I put myself out there and allowed my ego-self to boast, then bad things would happen and the universe would ‘slap’ me. 


The Universe in its sentience has better things to do than play God, we have religion to do that. The realities of the ‘bad things’ were a combination of foresight, self-fulfilling prophecy and the universal energies ensuring that I broke the self-destructive cycles that were repeating. I just didn’t understand or even see these cycles until much later.


It was through Reiki that I got to grips with the concept of cycles, Usui taught me to recognise them, Kundalini to embrace and work through them and Angelic taught to release and severe the cords, however it also brought to light other cords and severances that needed to happen alongside these and all revolving around teaching/facilitation and honouring Reiki in all its forms.




There is truth in the phrase, you learn through doing; I have learnt to release, let go and use my knowledge and experiences to talk openly about the cycles that I have been through and removed.


It has allowed me to discuss the abuses of power that exist within spiritual movements such as Reiki, and it shows as well as flags up who is good people and who are anything but good people. It is also true to say that; like does attract like but then Reiki and Quantum have a lot in common, which again is a topic for another hop.


Well all that remains for me to say is thank you for stopping by this entry on the blog hop, remember that you can visit the blog before me or the blog after me using the links above and below. The Master List is a fantastic navigation tool if you get lost or looking for a particular entry. If you feel drawn to leave me a comment then that would be most welcomed.



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Tarot Blog Hop – Pale Rider Jumping Over the Moon 14



TBHWelcome to the Tarot Blog Hop! If you have ‘hopped’ before, then let me briefly explain, for those of you that have, feel free to skip this bit: A hop is a group of unique and experienced people who write, blog or work with Tarot. We come together at a set times during the wheel of the year and the cat herder, juggler of strange people that keep imploding aka the Wrangler, will set the topic and those of us who partake end up insane, mostly because we’re composing, writing and posting down to the last second…


TBHI have just about recovered from Samhain, I think I have just about found all the bits of the juggled exploding people that took part and managed to put most of the pieces back together. So now it’s Ania M’s turn to juggle with cats, TNT and live eclectic eels. As this Blog Hop falls on the Solstice; Ania has posed a lovely thought-form for this last turn of the wheel in 2017…


As we approach the final festival of the calendar year, we prepare for a time of feasting and drinking. Whether you are observing Yule, the winter solstice, Christmas, any other holiday, or just being able to down tools for a few days, it is a time for celebration and also for anticipation and wishes. With this in mind and before you fling yourself headlong into the spirit of seasonal over-indulgence, take a moment to reflect on what this year has brought you and what you wish for the next year to bring. Which card(s) best represent or celebrate your past year and which best represent your wishes for the year ahead. You can either select the cards you think fit best, or draw them randomly and see what the Tarot thinks.


Pale Rider Jumping Over the Moon


Pale Rider, jumping over the moon is not only a reference to a song lyric but also to the tarot also. Pale rider, is Death in all her forms and the Moon, imagery I think is very important both textually and also visually, after all that is part of the appeal to the Tarot, we connect and resonate with the images. It is very much the same with the Oracle decks as well, although I sometimes like working with Ogham and Runes, where its the patterns, the symbols and the connection to the Ancestors that really shine through. However trying to scan and scry at the same time, is not always that easy…

TBHSo putting the Ogham, Runes Stones and Crystal Balls to the one side for now, I would normally reach out for the Energy Oracle, Mythic, Dragon or Rune Cards for doing an introspection type spread. However this time, I have chosen not to go with the familiar and ask The Golden Tarot and Kuan Yin Oracle for their perspective and in place of an astrological or calendar review, I am simply doing a variation on the Name spread, where it is my public persona (Jay) that I using as a focus.

The public persona spread has its basis from the name spread, which is a layout over 3 rows and 3 columns. The focus on the past, present and looking ahead. The cards are shuffled, split and then from the chose side, the name is then spelt out and depending on the name there can be a known by, given and last name or first, middle and last. Naturally there can be many variants on this theme, it purely depends on the questioner.

In this adaptation, only the public persona or known by name is needed. As I did the prep for this a fourth card fell out and wanted recognition, I gave this card the title of ‘X’ or the unknown factor. To add a bit of random chance to this, I literally laid the cards on the scanner and let the computer do its thing. The only time I saw the cards was the preview and now I have them scanned in order and laid out on my desk in that same order. This is the part where I take a look at what they have to offer me before I consult with the Kuan Yin Oracle for its insight.


Between Mind & Heart

TBHIt’s always interesting to me when the cards elect to show me sides that I had not really taken into consideration or thought about on any deep levels. The Seven of Coins, in this particular deck is flagging up how introspective this year has actually been, and it’s also shown me the road that I have been on and the fact that I have not been alone on this quest I guess you could call it. The red sheet is very striking in that I have been in the introspection not looking at all aspects, in other words while I have been digging deep, I should have stopped to take stock on the surroundings and appreciated just how far I have come.

TBHEvery time The Tower appears for me I am reminded of “The path of excess, leads to The Tower of wisdom” for me The Tower represents what happens when I get into my head space and forget to ‘land’ and this resonates because for a time I literally was trapped within the head-space, however wisdom taught me the value of living in the body and being in the now. I see what is happening around me and that in many ways chaos is reigning but I have chosen not to allow its affects to cross the threshold of this land I am on.

The Tower now is representing all the ripples around me and it represents the ability I have to stay calm in the chaos and act as an anchor for those that are going through a process. Have I perfected this, of course not! It is an ongoing and every changing learning curve where one size doesn’t fit all. I find now that my ivory tower is stones on the ground, those stones are ever casting new directions and pathways, strangely I have a lot to thank the tower for.

TBHIt truly is a blessing to see the Queen of Cups sitting here, as this card represents all the good and positive, I very much recognise who this card is representing. It is the card of my family, as despite his height; hubby like mother are both loyal and have a dignity that really is amazing. I find that family is my home, my strength but also doesn’t define or limit me, they inspire me to be better and do more because they support me, just as much as the land and the universe support me.

What do these cards; The Seven of Coins, The Tower and Queen of Cups show me collectively? Well interestingly enough they show the pathway of this year, from success and introspection, to tough choices and the wisdom that has come from them and into the support and compassion to know that everything is as it should be at this moment. A true blessing of the cards in many ways and now to see what the unknown element or ‘X’ has to show me.

TBHAh what is not to love about The Empress, she is speaking volumes about the future, the birthing of my next phase at the coming spring of 2018, reaching my peaking and being able to know myself, what I am able to do and also support myself and others through the knowledge, her crown speaks of knowledge and trusting in the source. The vulnerability of the small babe in her arms, the innocence and sometimes nakedness of the souls I will be in service to as just as vulnerable as a babe. It is embracing without fear the perfectly imperfect nature of my work and acceptance of where this leads.


T.N.T for the Brain…

TBHAs I conclude I am looking to the Kuan Yin Oracle, the downside in some ways to this deck is that the writing and wisdom is in a book rather than on the card itself, which I would have liked but it makes using them delightful as well because, it requires listening to the inner sage and its wisdom, so lets see what they have to say… How I am working with these is to just simply fan spread them with just a brief shuffle since they are brand new and in order. I am interested to see where my eye is drawn to.

TBHShining Lotus, is a very rich card just in its beauty alone. However as I look at the card with all my senses its not only rich in its beauty but also its elegance. It speaks of my work doing Tai Chi & Qi Gong, not only for myself but also with others as well. It tells me not to worry and to just be in acceptance of the gifts I am learning and will share as well through this, both spiritual and also physical as well. Her face his truly serene and graceful, just like Tai Chi & Qi Gong are. The form in which she sits but also moves, just speaks of simple elegance and being.

Maybe in some wyrd way I have adopted the role of the pale rider, and witnessing my journey of this wheel has only been possible by jumping over the moon. Then again maybe it is only a reference to a song lyric, I will let you be the your own Judgement card on that one. However the one thing that is a definite at this point is you’ve reached the end of this entry for the Tarot Blog Hop. It has been a pleasure to take you on this journey, if you feel like it please leave me a comment. Until the next time, may you enjoy the rest of your journey through the hop.




Balance: Approaching the Path to Yin/Yang Understanding

Balance: Approaching the Path to Yin/Yang Understanding

Challenging Your Perceptions…


TBHTo challenge and in return be challenged is a gift, although if I am honest, I do not always see it as such. Unless I am writing an article for the Tarot Blog Hop or Reiki Blog Hop then a lot of what I am writing is Soul-Felt. Recently I have found myself on the receiving end of more than one challenge. During Sacred De-armouring I was confronted with my own tourist like behaviours in all kinds of situations. It wasn’t an easy thing to deal with but the gift I received wasn’t just knowledge but also a personal truth; and an uncomfortable personal truth at that.


Being shown that sometimes you can be wrong, isn’t something I was ready to feel or possibly even accept. I avoided the concept like I avoided the concept that things could be perfect, complete opposite ends of the same spectrum and I had to face both over the course of one weekend. Now here I am confronting that same lesson but this time I don’t have that feeling, I read through an article that at first thought well yes! I must be wrong in my thought processes, but then I processed it a little more and thought about an old turn of phrase.


TBHMany moons ago I picked up a turn of phrase, ‘Twice is Confirmation’ it just means to hear, see or come into contact with the same thing more than once is proof that there is something to it. This is something that has time and again shown itself to be accurate for me, when I am writing a paper for a course or doing a project, I fact check and I will make note of the places that I gain information from. Typically I will go to my books first and then I will come to the internet and if all else fails I will ask, before going to Wikipedia. It is rare for me to state that I know something for certain or make any definite statement, as I try to only speak from my experiences and my own knowledge base. I have had a lot of my work and words validated over the last 20 – 24 years and that includes anything that I have done with regards to Tarot or Spirituality.


The one thing I have grown tired of saying in all that time is I’m dyslexic, it has become this badge I continually have to wear almost like a caution for the ignorant or those too lazy to take the time to read posts and pages properly. It will almost always come up at some point in a conversation with someone who doesn’t know me that well and in those instances it’s actually fine, and I don’t mind, I think that other thing I have grown weary or maybe just wary of is just how limited the perception others can have. I mean I am the one with the reading issue and yet I end up having to walk someone through a train of thought that is fairly self explanatory.


TBHWords Have No Emotion Unless Spoken or Framed in Context… There is just something powerful in that simple statement, we use words, sentences and paragraphs every moment of life, even as babies before we grasped what words were; we had our unique language and then we were gifted the ability to structure that unique language with words that belonged to our race, country and place of birth. Throughout time we have been able to attach emotions to the words spoken and written words in a book when framed correctly evoke the right emotion, but words in a text message and certainly in a messenger window, don’t that same kind of emotional connection; initially they are just words and true once we know a person very well, we attach emotion and even a voice to them, but we know that person to some degree but yet there is an almost incessant need to attach an emotion to the words of a stranger, we’re almost socially conditioned into it.


Maybe it is something that I have gained from the on and off years I have been doing Tai Chi, or the connections that I have made between Reiki, Eastern and Western philosophies; as well as the philosophies from Taoism and Buddhism. I have come to realise that where the internet and indeed social media are concerned there is no point in creating attachments to the words that authors write on pages or feeds. To personalise something that may or may not be about you only causes you the emotion, the other person is oblivious to the fact you are having those feelings. In fact to show that you are reacting only make that person stronger, so sometimes it is best to just walk away from it.


TBHIt may sound out there but for long enough there has been a sense that I had been shattered or at the very least fractured through the drama on Social Media. Granted on the outside everything would appear fine to the casual stranger but on the inside, there was the sense of shattering, and it needed to come its natural end. So with that in mind I think that at this point I want to start rounding up some of the threads that are within this post. Mainly to help you understand where this is all leading to. As for me I already know because I am the author, so let me start with something that I mentioned at the start about tourist behaviours; these are behaviours such as making and stating very grand things but not really having that much conviction or explanation behind them, they are said to see what reaction can be evoked, its not really done in malice or badness it’s a defence mechanism that I employed to try make friends or at least hide behind a pretence and observe people without really being in the moment or having a genuine feeling or connection.


It is almost as if a moment is a transitory experience and it doesn’t actually matter, when the reality is, that every moment does matter, regardless of how transitory it might appear to be. There are other examples as well but the best one to really see yourself through your own eyes is to remove your name, for a day or in the right kind of workshop just remove your name, or give yourself another one and see what happens. Another one to try is ask yourself “Who are You without Your Spiritual Story?” When I chose to do that very thing, I saw myself through the eyes of others and it changed me. At first I was actually repulsed by the words that others had said to me, eventually after trying to hold it together I broke, I needed to break and needed the release because in doing so I found myself again… I had to go through a period of dissolution, but through this I’ve rediscovered my core essence and being.


TBHWhere words are concerned, I relate and work with a great deal of the Ancient and Arcane ways, however these two words have caused problems in the past. I find that they are very similar in meaning and when I use them I do so with specific context. However before I begin the next wrap up paragraph; I’ve looked up both words in to clarify my thinking and I am happy that my own perceptions and usage for them is correct.


The word Ancient can mean: “Ancient(adj); old; that happened or existed in former times, usually at a great distance of time; belonging to times long past; specifically applied to the times before the fall of the Roman empire; opposed to modern; as, ancient authors, literature, history; ancient days“.


The word Arcane can mean: “Arcane(adj) understood by few; mysterious or secret.”arcane procedures for electing people” synonyms: mysterious, secret, hidden, concealed, covert, clandestine, enigmatic, dark; esoteric, obscure, abstruse, recondite, little known, recherché, inscrutable, impenetrable, opaque, incomprehensible, cryptic, occult “the arcane world of the legal profession” antonyms: well known, open“.


Let’s walk this through, to explain why I feel these two words can be used in a specific context. Arcane as you can see “understood by few; mysterious or secret” and Ancient as you are also aware and can see “old; that happened or existed in former times” by our modern day standards Arcane knowledge is also Ancient knowledge because it is now not known or understood by few and has become mysterious and secret because of its age and because it existed in a former time (Source: definitions.net & google.co.uk)


However this notion of word usage and context has as I say became a problem, and made me address this idea of being wrong or misinformed. It’s like my knowledge base as well, I have studied many subjects within the esoteric movement from parapsychology, numerology, character analysis, astrology and the list goes on, I have studied tarot but I learnt through doing not through books, I only chose to get a certification because I felt being out in the public domain I had better have something that shows my worth. The books I have on the subject vary from 1800’s through to 2016 and somehow I don’t think I would just ‘bin them’ because my thoughts on the matter clash with someone else. (you can see the entire saga here)


13925125_1014015315378834_3318230305177294569_nIt really comes down to a matter of balance and opinion. If I believe I am wrong I will admit to it, if another suggests that I am wrong or that my knowledge is fallible then that is also something that I will admit to as I did on the Sacred weekend. However on this blog and this site, I am prepared to dig my heels in and not exactly fight but state my case from my understanding until either an impasse is reached or I realise that there is no power in the words and it is opinion. In which, case I am no longer afraid of suggesting that the opinion is actually wrong. True there will be times when both opinions are right or indeed wrong, but at the end of the day, does that even matter?


The soul of the matter for me is direct and straightforward, opinion like fact is based on someone having written the words to begin with and then having others back-up, verify and give pundits or accreditation to those words. Then through time the words soon become thought of as fact and eventually even historical fact; whether they are right or wrong; Freud is a good example of this, many still accept his work as historical fact but many others find his work to be flawed and outdated by our modern day standards and yet many still adhere to his works and reference them. As I said at the very start of this to challenge and be challenged is a gift. It may not always be welcomed but it is a gift none the less. I have received several gifts from challenges. It has changed the way I process and make sense of them. The best way for me is to write it out. Like I have done here; I know my mind, my knowledge and own my understanding, I am happy and content to have that peace, I am also content that some days I may be wrong and my opinion may be wrong but you know something… Today really isn’t that day…



Facing the Light of Diogenes



TBHI felt challenged earlier but in a very good way. I was reading Jeff Foster’s Page on Facebook, and he posed a very interesting question; “Who are you without your Spiritual Story?” – the question is part of a poem/haiku-esque piece but its profound in that it asks a very potent and loaded question. Let’s face it anyone that walks a faith path, whether its orthodox as we understand it today or non-traditional again by today’s standards there is a story attached, however that is not always a bad thing, it just is the way that some are.


TBHI am not certain that my own path of faith actually has a name, I read on Social Media ages ago now about Om-ism representing the path of belief in all faiths, but as it turns out this is just another Social Media Meme and doesn’t actually have any basis outside the Binary / Hexadecimal constructs that are the Internet. It’s a pity because I really like that idea of Om as well as representing the core sound at the heart of the Universe (Spiritually speaking) also representing the Path of Belief and Understanding within all Faiths. Alas for now it will need to remain an allusion and meme for the moment, but it is interesting to find this question and then discover, what I thought was a real thing, was just a meme, which then brings me back round to the question of the moment; “Who am I without my Spiritual Story?”


TBHMy ‘story’ is interesting because I began with being baptised into the Church of Scotland (CoS), its diocese and predominance would be akin to Presbyterian in England and some rural places in Scotland, but it is mostly recognised as being in line with Protestantism. After 40 odd years I still haven’t worked out why there is such a divide between the different orthodox religions in the UK let alone the world. However I am stressing here, I am not open for a discussion on the whole thing, in my 40 plus years in this incarnation, I have managed to avoid the whole religious politics that divide the UK as a nation because of something that happen well over 300+ years ago and really needs to be healed.


TBHOkay so back to the point, as I said I began in the CoS and then around high school age, towards 13/15 I started to witness flaws that I guess I already knew were there but wasn’t aware enough to see them, but at this stage when all my senses were adjusting through puberty I did. Women bitching about others, Men folk being ignorant of other men folk, and even children absorbing this spectacle of hypocrisy and starting to parrot it back, I realised as I sat out in the hallway waiting on my folks that this was not my life. This is was not a community nor was it a path that I wanted to follow any longer, it was flawed and worse than that it had betrayed me. I had believed that it was accepting, all encompassing and loving, but it was much like the parables of Judas and his betrayal of Jesus, and at that moment I related to Jesus more than any human in those walls outside of my parents.


TBHMy journey expanded throughout the next ten years and then again after I was 25, till I reached a point where I had become familiar and understood a percentage of the worlds religions, including the ones that weren’t really known or had been forgotten about over here. What I discovered throughout this journey of learning, was that they all had common themes and denominators; and yet they still fought about who was right and wrong. The answer is still glaringly obvious; they are all right and also they are all wrong because like history it really boils down to who is writing it. Most faiths have been written and then re-written when the need has arisen. (King) Henry VIII for example didn’t like some of the text in the bible, in his benevolence, he had it re-written, only to then decide that he wanted religion based around him. As his illness and subsequent madness took hold, Henry decided that anyone who wasn’t following his chosen faith was to be killed. This speaks of a macabre spiritual story and also speaks volumes about the pitfalls of religion, when you ponder upon it from an ‘objective’ point of view.


By Internet Archive Book Images - https://www.flickr.com/photos/internetarchivebookimages/14560204190/Source book page: https://archive.org/stream/lychnocausiasive00farl/lychnocausiasive00farl#page/n49/mode/1up, No restrictions, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=44199636If I were to come face to face with the modern day version of Diogenes of Sinope and he/she/they were to ask of me “Who are you without your Spiritual Story?” then I would answer in honesty as I allowed the lamp light to shine upon me. I would say that I wear this face and this body, a wonderful combination of my parents genetic and biological genetics. I hold in within me the generational bloodlines of countless generations and I have healed the wounds of these generations and released the traumas that were contained within them. I continue on by saying that I have been a victim of an failing education system but I am better now, and I am certain that this is not the only time I have been here and I have a dharma line that is as much ET as it Human. Without my Spiritual Story, I am a loyal and loving person to my husband, my friends, my family as well as to the strangers who I may meet for the first time. I strive to be the same person online as I am offline, in person as I am on the phone. I will continue to strive to be the best me I can possibly be at any given moment.


HermitAs well as being able to ‘Step into Death’ when I am working on platform, I find that these days I am stepping into the role of Diogenes of Sinope or The Hermit, where I am starting to not only hold a lamp up at my own truth, honesty and authenticity but I am holding up the lamp as I start my own quest looking for an Authentic Person. Truth like honesty is a perception, we each see these concepts from our own ‘objectivity’ therefore no one person is ever right or wrong in their beliefs with regards to the Truth or Honesty. Collectively we believe in a singular truth, but when each of us witnesses something wrong with the facts that build up this singular truth, particularly when it is from our own perspective, we then collectively start to question it. Whether it develops into a conspiracy theory, a dismissal of that truth from the individual or collectively we question the facts, is really dependant on the singular truth. The one that I came across last week was a science philosopher that stated Reiki was a myth and had no solid basis for it to work.


TBHPersonally and also professionally I really didn’t much care for the authors opinion of facts as he saw them. It was his truth and he was owning it, in text at that time of writing and again at the time of printing and release of the book. Purely at that level and without engaging with it too much, I gave the author his truth and continued reading the rest of the chapter, if I were to hold up my lamp to this text and this author I am not sure I would find authenticity, I would find a respectable author, scientist and philosopher but as to his authenticity, I remain uncertain but I will admit perhaps I am slightly jaded because of his remarks with regards to Reiki. However I will say this, when you follow a path of logic, reason and science; it can be hard to accept something that is metaphysical in nature. I would not suggest that it is spiritual purely because Reiki isn’t a religion, it would be amazing if it was but then it would lose a lot of its credibility as a healing modality and pathway to recuperation that it has become known for today.


TBHReturning again to the question that was posed at the start, “Who are you without your Spiritual Story?” I am an incarnate being androgynous by nature, on a journey of authenticity that started at some point in my teenage years and has meant shedding a load of Trauma’s, Karmic and Dharma drama that wasn’t mine to start with, it has meant standing up to some nasty people out to damage and hurt me professionally and personally but it has also meant meeting and being in love with an amazing husband, having an awesome family and loving my life as it continually evolves, changes and becomes.



Show and Tell – What Makes a Teacher



TBHSocial media and the internet is awash with all kinds of courses, books and people that are ready to change your life but at a price. There are life, spiritual and religious guru’s aplenty just waiting at the click of the mouse to ‘fix’ you and there in rests the first problem, this idea that life in some way needs an external ‘fix’ – we’re not a set of pipes nor do we have copper wiring and I am not speaking for anyone else as I say this but I am certainly not in need of neutering either!


TBHIt’s not that I actually have an issue with any of it, for a lot of people out there it works but for everyone else it doesn’t. In many ways handing over our sovereignty that is to say our supreme power or authority that governs and defines who we are; to someone else is a huge deal and there are no certainties that once that is done they are going to treat it with respect, despite what their words say. I have experienced both the good and the bad of doing this in my 40 odd years upon this planet so far, the bad was not pleasant in the slightest but the good actually helped but only because I allowed the good to happen.

The biggest question that have encountered is what makes a good teacher? My honest answer is someone that doesn’t need the title for anything other than advertising purposes. Telling is one thing but showing is another, many tell their viewing audience but very little show. Telling your audience how good you are or how good they can be is fine, its very much like a presentation; anyone can throw together a power-point, get books printed off and book a room. I should know I have done it! I have been that guy, the teller, the fixer rather than the shower.


TBHAssuming that you have stayed with this, let me explain a bit about the idea behind show and tell. It’s a familiar term from school days, where you’d be asked to do a project or bring in something personal to tell the others in your class about. It’s a similar idea, showing is a bit like I do one, and then others do it after me and as for telling, well that is more about explaining and painting a picture with words, its not that effective and not all the information is retained. It’s a common thing in some colleges and Universities, depending on the subject matter.


I recognise that part of my work is to pass on knowledge and to be begin with I really thought that I had it sussed, I taught development with an open and friendly way, treating everyone the same. To my detriment I learnt that sometimes people only want to be your friend in order to profit from that kindness and then pass it off as their own and in all fairness I didn’t protect myself against that until it was too late in the day to do anything. What I discovered from the experience was that I had an unhealthy auto-response, which was to apologise even through others treated me like shit! However that apologetic auto-response is slowly being replaced, it’s not that I am suddenly becoming a different person, it is just that I am now protecting my work and passion to avoid that same mistake.


TBHI have learnt how to be better at passing on my information, the one thing I decided that was best for me was to drop the whole teacher vibe, and instead adopt the Sensei vibe. I find that I am teaching every day, just as I am taught every day, I find that I am in the cycle of show and tell a lot at the moment. Telling I am keeping up my skills and showing when I am working with clients or arranging appointments. I am even showing when I am on platform instead of telling, the showing and teaching comes in the form of the demonstrations of Mediumship and Clairvoyance, the telling comes in as I convey what is needed.


I find that as I facilitated Angelic and Usui Reiki, I am not teaching but rather imparting and opening the way through Sacred Space for the sentient energy of Reiki to birth a new adept or practitioner and bring the awareness of Self Mastery to those taking the journey of Mastership in either Reiki practise. When I am doing Trance Workshops, it is very much see one and then do one, I spend very little time telling, asides from the health and safety regulations for the space I am working in. This is how I believe that things should be when it comes to working with groups. Where is the point in sitting in a seat and being bombarded with information? Granted there are some circumstances where that is needed, but even then with a bit of careful planning it can be made for a time when its going to be of benefit rather than at the end of a day, for example.


TBHThe biggest tell that someone is just a carbon copy is outdated information or sticking to a prescribed format because it is safe. The best show is someone that takes their learning and owns it, really owns it. Just being in their presence is learning through transmission, watching them work with the techniques is watching an artist at work and then to be able to use that learning and then build on it, now that is learning, showing and what a Sensei or teacher if you will is meant to be. It is how I aim to be, an artist and Sensei of my skills set, when I am teaching I am looking to help others understand from where they are not from where I am. That’s just teaching by rota or parrot, its saying do as I say not as I do. Quite frankly I don’t honestly see what there is to gain from it other than massaging the ego.


I am by no means perfect and I am by no means suggesting that Guru’s or Teacher, Coaches or what have you aren’t worth it. Just as I am not suggesting that courses, books and so on can’t make a difference, they can to a degree. It’s the ‘fixing’ that is the bothersome part, we really are the only ones that can do that. We can only fix ourselves with the right tools, and perhaps that is what the teachers, coaches and gurus for tomorrow need to be learning, how to pass on the tools to the ones who will come to them. It is what I do these days, I show my students how to fix their lives, I transmit and through sacred space open their sovereign self to that knowledge in a session or in a workshop help the students to find their meaning and understanding in the time that we spend together, only then will they discover true self and self mastery.



Tango of the Wounded Healer – Embracing Bravery

TBHAs with any new skill, trade or information it takes a moment to get to grips with it. Firstly it’s how does it work, followed by what does this do and so it goes on. It’s the same thing when you discover that you’re what’s known as a Wounded Healer. Now to be honest I started at “There’s no such thing”, before I travelled into “This must be a bad thing” before finally arriving at “It’s a brave thing to be here” because being A Wounded Healer is an absolute privilege.


TBHHowever, at first I really didn’t understand the concept or what I was meant to do with this knowledge, particularly when you don’t know what to call it. This is one part of this that I have really struggled with for as long as I care to remember. When I began this journey, I started with the SNU (Spiritualist National Union), thinking that this would be the way to go and I had my first brush with abuses of power, but also with what it was possible for me to do.


Granted the entire experience was unpleasant, but it was my first brush with being a Wounded Healer. Since that first encounter there have been times when I have walked, then ran in the opposing direction, only to discover that it was always the right direction.


(c)2011/10 gdj.graphicdesignjunction.com What I didn’t grasp at that time is the path, this Golden path we all seem to walk, it isn’t one way. The biggest and possibly worst assumption that we can make collectively is that just because linear time dictates that we can not go back in years, doesn’t mean that our path is like that. We can move forward and we can move back along the path, it’s already perfect so there is no way to make a mistake and even if that were to happen, it is already perfect and so it is not a mistake but something to learn from.


Even when I turned my back, stopped listening to my calling; a way was found to return me because that was how I was always going to be. It was how it was meant to be, I was still on my Golden Path, all I had done was stepped through the mirror and onto another branch of it, a bit like Alice going through the looking glass; at the other end another mirror and back out on the journey. The lesson being, you can pause, have a breath but sooner or later you will be following your calling.


If I am honest until around 7 years ago, I would never have accepted that this was my calling. However there are pivotal moments that completely change you, open you to the possibilities that you have a fated life or a destiny (depending on if you believe in such things). I have often crossed paths with destiny; meeting my husband, meeting my extended family because of a spilt drink and then meeting amazing people through an open invite to my wedding on Social Media.


Moments that have changed the course of my life for the better, these moments feel like stepping through mirrors as part of this Golden Path, because sometimes a crossroads or a meeting with Destiny, is fated to change everything. This year has really been a time for release, a time for shedding and a time for letting go of old stagnated energies. So much of this would not have been possible without support from my family, from my husband and mum in particular.


(c)2012 Pablo LeboTheir unwavering belief and support has made it okay for me to just let go and be me, to release all the baggage and responsibility that comes with seeing the world differently. I have been dancing to a very intricate tango, learning the moves as I have danced but never felt brave enough to take the lead, until today.


The tango is very much like YinYang, for the dance to succeed one must have dominance but rather than the other being subservient, they must bend like a reed in the wind and be supple. The dance originally was between two men, locked in a dance both equals and yet during the dance the roles change as to who is leading who. As Yin will surrender to Yang, so does Yang surrender to Yin, it is the way balance is maintained. It is the way of the Dance.


My dance has been about acceptance, understanding that I am a Wounded Healer. Having the understanding of others pain, hurt and loss as well as their joys, loves and journey to beauty.


The Wounded Healer, doesn’t try to fix, mend or dictate how another soul should be, instead the Wounded Healer, holds space. The healer will embrace and meet the person where they are and act as a guide. We embrace our bravery and understand that we are reluctant to walk in a world that does not understand us yet, but then in order to heal the wounds that other do not see, we must walk the paths that others cannot know.

The Rites to Reply: Rest in Pieces the Freedoms of Speech…

TBHWe gather here at this time on this blog to pay our respects; indeed it was this very week that the Freedoms of Speech, departed Social Media. It was an unexpected and untimely passing, which seems for many of us to have gone unnoticed. However, for a great many more, the passing of this beautiful and gracious being has a profound impact. Where there was voice, silence now has lease, where there was once safety, the Sword of Damocles now hangs.


TBHThe sense of danger now dangles, upon the last strands of that ancient steed’s hair, as the profiles fade to black. As we gather to remember the Freedom, as it was before the weekend, I am reminded of some words spoken at the time of passing… “When all blame is laid at the feet of the innocents, made to feel responsible for the acts of a few, will that make the world better? When all the responsibility has been handed out, given to all the wrong people, and those who it belongs to are dust, will the world be healed?”


TBHAs I look around at the blackened profiles, the sad emojis and the empty comments box, I find that I mourn for that Freedom and I ask “When the last sorry is uttered by the last innocent soul, will forgiveness be given to the forefathers and foremothers? When the last of us stands at the mouth of the dead rain forest, will that valuable contribution online matter? In the echoes, the screams, in our blindness and blame, will the illicit pointed finger of complicitness be as dumbstruck as listening to the power of positive trending?”


Peering into the crucible as echoes and the screams of popular finger pointing trends, froths up, boils over; I wonder, will nothing become better? When will the healing be done? Because after the dust has settled and the last sorry whispered at the mouth of the dead trees, no one will know what the foremothers and forefathers taught us. The comments boxes will still be empty, the profiles will still be black and the innocents will have been cast out from Social Media.


As the tide of scathing posts and malicious memes scald the blameless, deafen the silent and slaughter innocence, will that satisfy the need for blood? As the last Y and the last X Chromosome are sacrificed upon the altars of The Cyan Bird and The Mighty White F, will that mean all is forgiven? Will that #cleanse and #heal the genderless rift? Will that make the illicitness of being complicity ignorant alright?


As we gaze at our brightly lit gods, waiting with heads bowed in silent scrolling, let us hashtag and reflect. Let us post as I read out the last Eulogy and Rites of our beloved Freedom; “Will the crime of having no knowledge punishable through the trail of social media be made better, when the blind author obeys and says sorry through woeful fingers? Will the jury of peers #like or thumbs down, as the last YX child drags his coffin and gets ready to fall upon his password login, before he can grow up and do no harm? and she rises from the ashen pyres of scorn upon scorn for being true to their own knowing, will that allow them to post once again?


Lets us depart dear ones, as frenemies; hand in hand and forever distant, separated by the poisoned chalice of social media and let us forget now that each one of us has the Rites of Reply, as we bid farewell and commit The Freedoms of Speech to barren and binary land before us. Remembering how they taught us that If when we post hate online, those words won’t anoint, and the holy waters of comments and likes won’t wash us clean.


Instead it will rise up like a tide of poison and try as we might to scream from the bullhorn of perceived justice of being right, the false truth will be strapped to our ankles and as we sink down into the bottomless well of silence; maybe then we will notice how all around, everyone else is more comfortable remaining voiceless, and maybe then we’ll remember, dear Freedoms of Speech, who is no longer there, because this is after all its last rites.