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Tango of the Wounded Healer – Embracing Bravery

TBHAs with any new skill, trade or information it takes a moment to get to grips with it. Firstly it’s how does it work, followed by what does this do and so it goes on. It’s the same thing when you discover that you’re what’s known as a Wounded Healer. Now to be honest I started at “There’s no such thing”, before I travelled into “This must be a bad thing” before finally arriving at “It’s a brave thing to be here” because being A Wounded Healer is an absolute privilege.

 

TBHHowever, at first I really didn’t understand the concept or what I was meant to do with this knowledge, particularly when you don’t know what to call it. This is one part of this that I have really struggled with for as long as I care to remember. When I began this journey, I started with the SNU (Spiritualist National Union), thinking that this would be the way to go and I had my first brush with abuses of power, but also with what it was possible for me to do.

 

Granted the entire experience was unpleasant, but it was my first brush with being a Wounded Healer. Since that first encounter there have been times when I have walked, then ran in the opposing direction, only to discover that it was always the right direction.

 

(c)2011/10 gdj.graphicdesignjunction.com What I didn’t grasp at that time is the path, this Golden path we all seem to walk, it isn’t one way. The biggest and possibly worst assumption that we can make collectively is that just because linear time dictates that we can not go back in years, doesn’t mean that our path is like that. We can move forward and we can move back along the path, it’s already perfect so there is no way to make a mistake and even if that were to happen, it is already perfect and so it is not a mistake but something to learn from.

 

Even when I turned my back, stopped listening to my calling; a way was found to return me because that was how I was always going to be. It was how it was meant to be, I was still on my Golden Path, all I had done was stepped through the mirror and onto another branch of it, a bit like Alice going through the looking glass; at the other end another mirror and back out on the journey. The lesson being, you can pause, have a breath but sooner or later you will be following your calling.

 

If I am honest until around 7 years ago, I would never have accepted that this was my calling. However there are pivotal moments that completely change you, open you to the possibilities that you have a fated life or a destiny (depending on if you believe in such things). I have often crossed paths with destiny; meeting my husband, meeting my extended family because of a spilt drink and then meeting amazing people through an open invite to my wedding on Social Media.

 

Moments that have changed the course of my life for the better, these moments feel like stepping through mirrors as part of this Golden Path, because sometimes a crossroads or a meeting with Destiny, is fated to change everything. This year has really been a time for release, a time for shedding and a time for letting go of old stagnated energies. So much of this would not have been possible without support from my family, from my husband and mum in particular.

 

(c)2012 Pablo LeboTheir unwavering belief and support has made it okay for me to just let go and be me, to release all the baggage and responsibility that comes with seeing the world differently. I have been dancing to a very intricate tango, learning the moves as I have danced but never felt brave enough to take the lead, until today.

 

The tango is very much like YinYang, for the dance to succeed one must have dominance but rather than the other being subservient, they must bend like a reed in the wind and be supple. The dance originally was between two men, locked in a dance both equals and yet during the dance the roles change as to who is leading who. As Yin will surrender to Yang, so does Yang surrender to Yin, it is the way balance is maintained. It is the way of the Dance.

 

My dance has been about acceptance, understanding that I am a Wounded Healer. Having the understanding of others pain, hurt and loss as well as their joys, loves and journey to beauty.

 

The Wounded Healer, doesn’t try to fix, mend or dictate how another soul should be, instead the Wounded Healer, holds space. The healer will embrace and meet the person where they are and act as a guide. We embrace our bravery and understand that we are reluctant to walk in a world that does not understand us yet, but then in order to heal the wounds that other do not see, we must walk the paths that others cannot know.


The Rites to Reply: Rest in Pieces the Freedoms of Speech…   Recently updated !

TBHWe gather here at this time on this blog to pay our respects; indeed it was this very week that the Freedoms of Speech, departed Social Media. It was an unexpected and untimely passing, which seems for many of us to have gone unnoticed. However, for a great many more, the passing of this beautiful and gracious being has a profound impact. Where there was voice, silence now has lease, where there was once safety, the Sword of Damocles now hangs.

 

TBHThe sense of danger now dangles, upon the last strands of that ancient steed’s hair, as the profiles fade to black. As we gather to remember the Freedom, as it was before the weekend, I am reminded of some words spoken at the time of passing… “When all blame is laid at the feet of the innocents, made to feel responsible for the acts of a few, will that make the world better? When all the responsibility has been handed out, given to all the wrong people, and those who it belongs to are dust, will the world be healed?”

 

TBHAs I look around at the blackened profiles, the sad emojis and the empty comments box, I find that I mourn for that Freedom and I ask “When the last sorry is uttered by the last innocent soul, will forgiveness be given to the forefathers and foremothers? When the last of us stands at the mouth of the dead rain forest, will that valuable contribution online matter? In the echoes, the screams, in our blindness and blame, will the illicit pointed finger of complicitness be as dumbstruck as listening to the power of positive trending?”

 

Peering into the crucible as echoes and the screams of popular finger pointing trends, froths up, boils over; I wonder, will nothing become better? When will the healing be done? Because after the dust has settled and the last sorry whispered at the mouth of the dead trees, no one will know what the foremothers and forefathers taught us. The comments boxes will still be empty, the profiles will still be black and the innocents will have been cast out from Social Media.

 

As the tide of scathing posts and malicious memes scald the blameless, deafen the silent and slaughter innocence, will that satisfy the need for blood? As the last Y and the last X Chromosome are sacrificed upon the altars of The Cyan Bird and The Mighty White F, will that mean all is forgiven? Will that #cleanse and #heal the genderless rift? Will that make the illicitness of being complicity ignorant alright?

 

As we gaze at our brightly lit gods, waiting with heads bowed in silent scrolling, let us hashtag and reflect. Let us post as I read out the last Eulogy and Rites of our beloved Freedom; “Will the crime of having no knowledge punishable through the trail of social media be made better, when the blind author obeys and says sorry through woeful fingers? Will the jury of peers #like or thumbs down, as the last YX child drags his coffin and gets ready to fall upon his password login, before he can grow up and do no harm? and she rises from the ashen pyres of scorn upon scorn for being true to their own knowing, will that allow them to post once again?

 

Lets us depart dear ones, as frenemies; hand in hand and forever distant, separated by the poisoned chalice of social media and let us forget now that each one of us has the Rites of Reply, as we bid farewell and commit The Freedoms of Speech to barren and binary land before us. Remembering how they taught us that If when we post hate online, those words won’t anoint, and the holy waters of comments and likes won’t wash us clean.

 

Instead it will rise up like a tide of poison and try as we might to scream from the bullhorn of perceived justice of being right, the false truth will be strapped to our ankles and as we sink down into the bottomless well of silence; maybe then we will notice how all around, everyone else is more comfortable remaining voiceless, and maybe then we’ll remember, dear Freedoms of Speech, who is no longer there, because this is after all its last rites.

Amen.


Tarot Blog Hop – A Different Kind of Journey… 13

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TBHWelcome to the Tarot Blog Hop! If you have ‘hopped’ before, then let me briefly explain, for those of you that have, feel free to skip this bit: A hop is a group of unique and experienced people who write, blog or work with Tarot. We come together at a set times during the wheel of the year and the cat herder, juggler of strange people that keep imploding aka the Wrangler, will set the topic and those of us who partake end up insane, mostly because we’re  composing, writing and posting down to the last second…

 

TBHKiss Boglárka, came up with a different theme for this month; TAROT Characters and Sacred Cooking OR TAROT Characters and Mabon Beauty Products, now this for me is not a strong point, yes I cook and yes I do have an admiration for beauty but I have never really taken too much of an active interest to be able to blog or discuss either of them at length,
so rather than attempt to do it, I came up with an alternative way into this topic.

 

TBHWhen learning anything new, we look at the book, so in cookery we’re following a pre-planned instruction set, until we get used to it and then improvise. Likewise is beauty, we follow the guide of the person who sold us the product or watch online videos; and it is the same when we learn to work with an unfamiliar deck author. True most cards end up meaning the same anyway regardless of the name, but its the language of the deck and its energy when we work with it that we kind of need to understand.

 

TBHThis notion of energy and learning the language of the deck, occurred this week while during a reading, I came up against XX – Karma, which is in The Witches Tarot, this takes the place of XX – Judgement from decks like the Rider-Waite. After the reading was completed, I sat with this idea for a bit, was this like a pre-planned instruction, was it the same as someone giving you the guide on how to apply the ideology of Judgement but giving it another name, or was this more like an improvisation, where someone has improved on the original design? It certain felt curious the more I sat with this.

 

TBHRecently I picked up a cross-genre deck, by that I mean it services two purposes; the first is a tie-in to a table top war game and the second as a stand alone Tarot deck. It is called the Tarot of Loka, by Riverhorse Games and by all accounts it is fascinating to learn the language from a Cartomancy point of view. It speaks in such a complex but simple language, about different aspects but as yet I am not sure whether there is a functional use, much like the Dishonoured deck, pretty, interesting but very insular and unfriendly for reading with.

 

TBHOddly it makes me think of the I-Ching, one of the most complex but yet accurate divintation tool around, like Runes, it is a system unto itself, and learning that system can be slow going and sometimes just when you are ready to quit, it makes itself known, almost like it is testing you. In many ways again a bit like trial and error with cookery and beauty, only by working, trying and testing do you know what is good and what is not.

 

Thank you for the company as I have taken you through a somewhat different avenue for this months Tarot Blog Hop, next month is the Samhain Hop, which will mean that I am taking the wrangling reins, so plenty of time to start thinking (or fleeing).

 

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No Such Thing As A Toxic Man…

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It is not that often that I take to my site and speak my mind, it’s not that often that I have call to speak my mind if I am honest, but recently I find that there are have been a spate articles that are dehumanising and belittling men and masculinity. I tend to call it the Trunchbull Effect or the Matilda Syndrome, it derives from that saying “I’m Big, You’re Small…” or “I’m right and you’re wrong…” today I came across this notion of ‘Toxic Masculinity‘ and that was enough.

 

 

Toxic Masculinity‘ in a nutshell is another constructed form of gender stereotyping, where it is defining how masculinity is perceived and how a man should act in accordance with archaic societal expectations that are only perpetuated by Hollywood and the Media at large. Gender stereotyping is about as backwards as you get. That is of course unless you work in Social sciences, Print or Broadcasting Media, in which case gender is used to profile, stereotype and target sell to as much of the populus as possible but generally speaking it is as much use as a chocolate teapot!

 

 

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Before I continue, I’d like to point out that I have never really had a male role model outside of family. I learnt how not to be masculine through the education system and also learnt that no matter how much I would have liked to have been supported at school and even college; it wasn’t going to happen because of the laws and by-laws that were inbuilt to the education system and also Scots Laws as well, and they would not be repealed until the turn of the century, but thanks to those laws and by-laws I learnt about how not to be a man of that time, and as I hold up a mirror and watch the reflections being cast, I see now that I have a lot of be thankful for even through the bullying.

 

 

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Although I was told that I wasn’t a lot of things either verbally or non-verbally through being bullied, I also realised that it was just enough pain to forge the strength that I have now; that because of the by-laws and laws of that time, they did me a solid in that I learnt how to be my kind of human, and my kind of man. One with just enough of everything to be rounded and just enough ‘damage’ to be driven to move forward.

 

 

The only trouble was that until recently I never really fully appreciated the life lessons from these experiences. I was too limited in my view of my experiences; school hasn’t really taught me much, a great deal of my numeracy skills came from having to work with colours, perm lotions and peroxide strengths for a few years. As for my literacy skills they have come from writing dissertations for family, projects for college and the occasional NaNOWri or feature length story arcs on forums. True school and college taught me about reading, my dyslexia, dyscalculia and dyspraxia as well. However bullying at college level taught me about just how toxic femininity can be as well, its not easy being the only man on a hairdressing course and being turned into public enemy for no other reason than because I was male; however in 2017, it’s not permissible to suggest that just as there is a Toxic Masculinity there is also a Toxic Femininity.

 

 

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What I find very troubling these days is that how much of a mirror I am witnessing, except this mirrored reflection is showing me that this ‘attack’ against masculinity is insipid, because it is two pronged; on the one side you have the ‘men did this’ meaning rape, murder, subjugation etc but also you have the ‘be a man’ where men have to be the providers, progenitors of the family line, kings, soldiers etc essentially men are told they aren’t allowed to have emotions. This is the type of message that I kept getting through school, college and even to some degree the career or working world. At no time was I told that I could have the career path that I am forging now. The concept of Toxic isn’t just limited to one gender it is a systemic flaw in the way society works, it is not about acceptance it is about fitting in, the tactics of the bully have just changed to fit the times.

 

 

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It took a lot for me to rediscover myself, I’ve had to readdress the inner balance, hold myself into account for all my actions, both the best and the worst; I had permitted society to dictate my ‘normal’ and I believed that I was the worst, the worst driver because I wasn’t going as fast as others, the worst at being in business because I don’t use Facebook, Twitter or the many other platforms or because I keep my prices low, even though I know my worth. I also noticed that Society tried to dictate how I was supposed to love as well, and by that I was supposed to marry, have a child to a woman and so on, but as it happens I chose to marry a man and we intend to have children when the time is right for us.

 

 

This is where Gender Toxicity becomes Toxic Society, because the archaic ideals are being perpetuated by institutions that haven’t grown or evolved. Yes there are plenty of wonderfully fluffy or scary articles on the subject of human evolution or raising awareness but normally they are right along side those wonderfully targeted adverts for – INSERT ANY OLD BRAND NAME HERE – and they’ll excuse it because they need the revenue, umm no! If you were that evolved or that caring about your fellow human you wouldn’t have them. Let me clarify something before I move on, there are those who make their living from using advertising; that is a conscious choice made by an individual. The type of article I refer to are the clickbait, where it is a rehash telling of another article on another site usually owned by the same parent company…

 

 

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It is not that surprising to me that as we progress, there is a need for connection on a realistic level; however we are not taught to connect neither at the human level or the intimate level; everything I learnt about intimacy was either through books, videos or pornography, yes that’s right more so when I wanted to learn how I should be with a man, I had to rely on How to Videos, Pornography and Women’s Magazines, we are not taught how to be intimate with others or even how to have a human experience with another, all that is out there is how to make babies and do it doggy style because that is how afraid the archaic system is of human connection.

 

 

Imagine what would be to feel and be in perfection with another? True perfection, at the moment we glamourise and sexualise practically everything, from sexualised Tarot Cards to sexualising children for the purposes of looking good while performance dancing and yet this is normalised and excused. There is nothing wrong with performance dancing, gymnastics or anything else for that matter I used to figure skate when I was a lot younger, the point that I am trying to get across is that as soon as you put out there on the Televisual media, as soon as you put it into a glossy magazine, they are looking to sexualise and glamourise it up so as to get ratings; it is no longer about a troupe doing routines it becomes about how eye catching and glamorous children as young as 3 or 5 can be for a television executive and their camera.

 

 
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I didn’t start out writing this proclaiming to know all the answers, nor did I start out with the intention of defending all men; I started out with one aim, to point out the inherent flaws in clickbait articles, gender pigeon holing, stereotyping and also to point out that both genders can be just as toxic as each other but the Politically Correct brigade and their censorship police would rather men and masculinity be the problem rather than the society and the bully mentality that exists within it. The mindset is so entrenched in holding back the years, creating barriers to genuine connection, awareness of human sexuality and true intimacy that the whole idea of gender is become fluid, which in itself is awesome and scares the old guard, gender is just another barrier, holding the old ways in place.

 

 

Imagine what would be to feel and be in perfection with another? This is not about raging against the machine, anarchy or devolution of society, as some might think. The whole point is this – We have our laws to keep us safe, stifling though they are at times as long as we understand their place and value, we just get on with our lives in all their glorious technicolour; we drive at the right speeds, do business as we see fit and avoid the clickbait articles as much as possible. It is time acknowledge that there is a whole culture of sexualisation for profit and start moving on towards openness. If we are to survive then we need to move out of the past, give history its place and start forging a new mindset. Start by embracing this notion that sexuality isn’t dirty and it doesn’t revolve around gender, porn or glossy imaging; it is time to start stepping into our awareness that we are more than just a some of our parts and more than just parts to someone else’s ideology of society.

 

 

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Tarot Blog Hop – Dance of Erdgeist 8

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Welcome to the Litha Tarot Blog Hop! If you haven’t ‘hopped’ with me before, then welcome and if you have then welcome back… Let me briefly explain how I view a Blog Hop: It is a meeting of the minds, where a talented group of unique and experienced people, write/blog and typically work with tarot as part of their everyday lives. We come together at a set time and the wrangler, cat herder and juggler of unusual objects that keep exploding, sets the topic, which the rest of us end up insanely writing about at the last second…

 

 

Aisling (Our Wrangler) suggested:  “… the Oak King and the Holly King are two aspects of the same being, so we will use our Tarot cards to explore and explain the duality of our own natures. Who, indeed, is your “other Self”, your “Tanist”? How is it that you are, actually, of “two minds”?”

 

 

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I love the union of opposites and it was an odd sensation when it dawned on me that I could not find this within the Tarot, but as I pondered on this and considered the many reasons why this would be, I discovered that really the card that I have a connection to within any deck, doesn’t really have a unity… 

When looking at the deck, really any deck since they follow the same Rider-Waite principles; there are many dualities within it, High Priest and High Priestess, Emperor and Empress, Magician and Star (since both have their innocence to some degree). However The Hermit nor Death really have their dualities, well not that I can see.

 

 

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However as soon as I took myself outside of the scope and looked into the I Ching and Tao, there it was; my Yin/Yang and my non-duality, which is really how I view The Hermit, he is my Green Man or Oak & Holly Kings. Yes there is duality there but it is non-conformist. I mean come off it, I’m just about ever a-whatever you can name; asexual, apolitical, thankfully not amoral, or atheist (okay last one was a bit of a non a-ism).

 

The point being, The Hermit represents non-duality; a bit like Death; which I will get to in a second. The Hermit creates himself and then re-creates his self as needed; he’s both Master or Sensei, Master Magician or Healer; Shinto Priest and Taoist, the unity of Perfect and Non-Perfect. He is also an aspect of Nature, in that there is a constant flux and yet steadfast predictability as well.

 

 

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If you managed to stay with this then, brilliant it is my hope that you are still remaining open to what is being said, after all I get that when I am doing these blog hops, I am not exactly conventional in my approach to Tarot, but then I had to develop my own ways of understanding, as did we all I guess. It’s very much in-line with how we view Death, which it my other duality / non-duality card although not one that I go looking for.

 

It if anything normally comes and finds me; my relationship with the Tarot in a way self created my connection to the Spirit & Angelic Realms. If I hadn’t become interested in Tarot, I would not have developed my connections but likewise without my connections guiding me I would never have found my way to the Tarot, so therefore I find that my connection to Spirit as well as now the Land, I find that any major shifts I will sense and further to that I am aware of them on the other-side as they transition to the next stages in life. Hence my saying I don’t need to look for it, as it normally finds me, because in order to do the work I do, I need to ‘Step into Death’ or ‘Step into Love’ when I am working with the Angelic side.

 

 

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All through this I have been looking at both sides, duality and non-duality, the yin/yang union of opposites. Tarot in itself as a deck and a divination method does have its own duality, each card has a upside and a reverse, should we decide to recognise it or not. I don’t, for me, I find that the cards can have the same meaning either way depending on what is around it but I will pay recognition to the reverse and tell my client so, as it is a challenge they are either facing or have faced.

 

 

I guess it depends on you whether you take stock in the reverse meaning or not, we’re all individuals in that sense, which is why no two readings are ever the same, which is duality and non-duality at work again. There can be similar things appearing, same narratives and driving forces but how each reader sees, understands and conveys them, well that is where Taoist see perfection, Shinto sees Divinity and where Duality and Non-Duality meet within the Union of Opposites.

 

Thank you for stopping by, please do leave me some feedback, even if it is just hello. Do visit the other blogs in this hop, via the links and I may see you in the next hop.

 

 


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Tarot Blog Hop – Keeping it Simple… 10

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Welcome to the Beltane Tarot Blog Hop! If you haven’t ‘hopped’ with me before, then hello and if you have then you can skip this bit and head on down to the next paragraph… Okay let me briefly explain: A hop is a group of unique and experienced people who write, blog or work with tarot as part of their everyday lives. We come together at a set time and the wrangler, cat herder and juggler of unusual objects that keep exploding, sets the topic, which the rest of us end up insanely writing about at the last second…

 

Arwen Lynch Poe (Wrangler):  Since Beltane is a holiday of coming together, I thought it would be fun to answer this question: “Do you combine Tarot with any other divination system? Why or why not?”

 

It is a day for really keeping it simple. hot off the heels of my anniversary where we birthed a Stag and Horse drum with Hubby. I was lucky to be granted the chance of travelling to the otherworlds, had some of the most intense processes and then add to that the mad ways of how amazingly hard it was to get there and then amazingly simple it was to get home… Its taught me a great deal. Taught me about divination in the most straightforward of ways imaginable, nature knows!

 

Not just outside nature but also inside nature, human nature; one of the most complex structures ever known to exist is the nature of our own self. Yet feeling my way through this was really interesting because I was not only feeling my way but full fledged five natural senses and then the five psychic senses on top sensing my way through this. Now by this point you’ll be trying to work out what the hell all this has to do with Tarot and this hop…

 

Simples really, no matter how you wrap it up in words and place a bow on it, your working with all the senses; even the ones you haven’t figured out yet. You don’t just a read a person by their cards, you read that person the cards are an extension of that person, you are apart of that reading as well, because they are your cards. You see the mirrors and the reflections, you see what they don’t because you are the reader after all.

 

To extend out and use another divination tool on top is just another layer, another chapter of that client’s story; be it oracle, runes, be it a star chart or their hand, be it a crystal ball or someone from the the higher side walking forward it is another chapter, another layer peeled away to show you their core. Tarot is simple, its 78 pieces of a jigsaw, 78 depictions of life, 78 single pages but when put together, when weaved and shuffled, those 78 simple, jigsaw, pages and depictions, they’re no longer simple.

 

They are the weave of life, the clients life and answering their questions, finding their answers and reading their soul and giving them the truths they’re sometimes not ready for… well that is anything but simple….

 

Thanks for stopping by xx

 

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Tarot Blog Hop – Questioning Time 11

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Okay let’s do the customary introductions first… Joy Vernon of Completely Joyous inspired this month, which in a nutshell is the relationship between Magic (or Magik) and Tarot. This is a challenge for me but instead of running or opting out of from the challenge I have decided to take it onboard and feel my way through it from my own unique vantage point.

 

If you haven’t ‘hopped’ with me before, then welcome; let me briefly explain about this: A hop is a group of unique and experienced people who write, blog or work with tarot as part of their every day lives. We come together at a set time and the wrangler, cat herder and juggler of unusually pointy objects that keep exploding, sets the topic, which the rest of us end up insanely writing about at the last second. This time (and probably wisely done) I am the last, so you’ll end up at the start again when you use the Next Blog at the top or bottom of this post…

 

This topic presents a rather interesting challenge, one that I am not even sure I can fully explore; I really don’t see the Tarot as most do, I rarely pay attention to the conventions, the wyrd or even the astrological, mythological or alchemical elements to the tarot; those are only useful if you have a connection or relationship to them already, through study or background. They can bog you down in the minutiae details, just as much as they can enhance the reading. What is the point in knowing you have an aires in the spread if the other person hasn’t a clue about astrology, or where would be the point in telling someone don’t get involved with a situation where you have someone that is very much a hero with a weakness like Achilles, when they’ve never read or studied mythology?

 

It’s not that these things aren’t relevant because they are, for the one giving the reading; using these references it allows us to explain that someone who has a very powerful but focused attention may not be the best person to be around, if you aren’t able to keep up with them and they’re not willing to see they’re own flaws. Just as its better to be careful when dealing with people in power or people that are only interested in stepping on others, because to show them your weakness, your soft point only makes you their next target.

 

My ability to ‘step into death’ was a phrase coined by for want of a better word, a mentor. When it was first used I realised that this is what happens when a medium like myself transcends the confines of fear. It’s okay to step into death and communicate with those that are on the other side of the this veil, I have been here before countless times in other lives and also a few times in this; so to stand in this place and welcome the love from the other side is a bit like magic, it gives those that I work with peace and proof. The tarot factors into this as well, because like stepping into death, I am able to become a mirror, able to sense who this person is and see it reflected within the card dealt by them.

 

The solutions then begin to present and unveil themselves, the more my client shows up. As the mirror I already know that this is what is happening because I feel it and reflect it. Again this is my magic and several moons ago now, I let go of lables. I let go of attempting to make sense of what this is. I have given it many names and none fit; Witch, Mage, Wiccan, Pagan and Celt, none of these fit. Mystic, Oracle, Medium, Clairvoyant; again none of them fit…

 

I wonder sometimes if I am maybe a Shaman, even though I have had no formal Shaman training; and this feels wrong because it is older than Shamanism, perhaps I should reconsider and consider this way of being Delphi’s Gift, a Celt/Pagan Oracle Wiseman; you see none of these fit, they are either too tight or too loose. Thing is maybe it doesn’t have a name or a title because where this comes from it didn’t need one, there wasn’t a need to give this a lable.

 

All I do know is that it extends beyond Tarot, gave birth to the concept of Medium, who it turn helped to nurture the Wytch, who then extended the family and adopted the odd Clairvoyant. It allows me to help, heal and bring home those that need to come home, but most of all it means that I get to show up every day and its never dull…

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Reiki Blog Hop – The Journey of Reiki 6

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I didn’t half set myself up with this one, the Journey of Reiki is perhaps one of the biggest pieces that I have ever touched upon in my entire time of doing the blog hop, and even though this was originally typed up post January blog hop, it will still be just as relevant by the time March arrives.

 
However before I get into this, let’s do some of the civil pleasantries; not everyone will have started or even read the Master List page, so let me give you a kind of cliff notes version, and if you are curious, why not go have a read of the Master List, as it sets everything up very nicely for this month.

 

The theme for this month is the Journey of Reiki, it is my belief that we enter into a consensual relationship with Reiki, for me I believe that it is a form of living energy and that the attunement process is a bit like a marriage ceremony in that we willingly allow that energy to work with us and through us, just as we work with it and through it. The journey then starts to unfold in whatever way it is meant to.

 

Each person, be they a master, practitioner or a student taking their first steps has this journey and it is my sense of things that Masters have an ongoing journey because they are teaching students to connect and what that means for them, so in essence they are supporting the process of attunement and learning not only for someone but for themselves as well.

 

The master list is the link in the chain of how each blog writer discusses this theme from the experiences of their own ongoing journey. Where you are at the moment is at the start or end of the chain depending on which way you have come.

 

 

As I said at the start, this has been a huge one for me; I came into awareness of it during my own process to do with betrayal of trust concerning the master/student relationship and the respect and honouring of the friendship that developed from that place. The dynamic gave the appearance of being mutual, where I was no longer just a student but I had entered into the teacher/facilitation role.

 

However this began to shift as soon as I began enquiring about the Masters, it felt like there was some hugely guarded sacred rite of initiation that I needed to pass before it would acceptable for me to even create the manual or teach/hold space for the Masters; now without feeding this or giving it drama, it is possible to assume from all that I have said that this was to do with power, status and control.

 

What is interesting and I am exploring here is the journey reiki took me; it literally took the shaky foundations of this perceived relationship/friendship and gave them a tap, only for the entire structure down to its foundations to crumble and become debris with no hope of ever rebuilding it, so all it services now is a talking point and instructional lesson aid for future teachers of this particular Reiki practise.

 

My journey didn’t end there, in fact it triggered a massive shift; and brought to the surface some stuff that while unexpected was welcomed in the sense that it was time for it to go; what I have discovered is that Reiki is taking me down a new and somewhat uncharted road, instead of now just being a practise; it’s a way of life, and in that I am being shown new ways to work.

 

At first I was like this is not Reiki, this is anything but Reiki and then this weekend I stopped blocking myself. This is what Reiki evolves into when you stop dividing and conquering. Okay so I realise that at this moment, I am most likely starting to loose some of you with this, so let me break this down just a little.

 

If you haven’t hopped with me before or even if you have it doesn’t do any harm for me to share, as long as you are open to it, a little piece of my Reiki background and journey. I started with Usui Reiki, it was my dad pushing me from the higher side of life; that opened or rather reopened a door that had been firmly shut.

 

Within about a year give or take, I have completed through to my Masters Certificate, but I didn’t feel as if there had been completion and so I did it again with my Original Master, (in total I have about four or five). It was the right thing to do because it opened a door to learning for both of us (another entry for another hop). I then went on to do my Kundalini Reiki, but included with that were Etheric, Gold and further Boosters to the Kundalini. Then I went through Karuna, Shamballa MDH and finally (until recently) Angelic Reiki, which I took through to Teacher level (I prefer Facilitator but again, another entry for another hop).

 

Recently I decided to do some Continued Personal Development and did a couple of refresher courses online through Udemy for Reiki. These were good because it was showing me how it is possible to discuss and perhaps do a bit of teaching online, which always seems to get the backup with some but if it works why decry it? May not be for everyone but surely in Reiki anything is possible right?

 

Okay so my sense and feeling with regards to Reiki has been that there is coming a point now where no matter the name, no matter the master, and no matter how the attunements are entered into, this sentient reiki energy that has entered into a consensual symbiotic relationship with us no longer has titles, designations, it doesn’t require them. It’s like thought, we don’t label our thoughts, or have to address the internal desire that says “It’s time to Pee” so why do we do it with Reiki?

 

My sense of awareness and as I feel my way through this is suggesting that this need to label and give energy is hierarchal place (meaning Usui Reiki is lower on the scale than Angelic Reiki or Kundalini Reiki doesn’t work or it’s not Reiki) is about human amoris and the need for something to be superior even when it isn’t.

 

The journey of reiki itself isn’t really shrouded in that much mystery; Usui Reiki in reality really only has second or third hand accounts of how it is remembered; the reality is that Usui was a very private man, he was given the title Sensei only because he was revered and honoured by those around him.

 

Kundalini, Karuna and Shamballa were all created, inspired processes by humans who were no more godly that the rest of us on our very good days. The fact is they worked and they helped to shift or created a process for healing. Angelic Reiki, based on Shamballa and Usui Reiki, has intuitive and inspired writings that allows us to understand how to develop a personal connection to the Angelic energies (however you understand them); many students, masters and teacher came together and helped the originator of the system to create the now simplistic way of how the attunements are written today and facilitated.

 

However mythical the system appears, the fundamental realities were that the founder and originator of Angelic Reiki, simply wrote things down on paper, typed up other things and basically handed these out to the students. It was a student of his that finally gathered all of it up and said here use this as your manual and is there anything you need to add to it?

 

Reiki is the essence of being human, a gift from source to bring us back in true alignment with our own sovereign selves, and that is basically just scratching the surface. This is what Reiki is teaching me, this is uncharted road; it is stripping out all the bull, all the shitty human ego mythos that has gotten in the way.

 

It is taking back our own power and it is telling those who would try to invade, undermine or anything else just to fuck off! When there is ever doubt as to how far I have come, or if I find myself lost, I look at the journeys I have seen others who have a connection to Reiki take, some its taken them to a place where they’ll move to a new country eventually. For others they are coming into their own, and taking ownership of what that means.

 

It has opened hearts, minds and souls to their fullest potential, and it has helped others to become bad ass shamanic practitioners. Reiki is truly amazing, its unassuming, living energy that works to bring us into who we are meant to be.

 

Thanks for stopping by and staying with this, loving you and your journey so far.

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Tarot Blog Hop – A Wrong Turn at Delphi… 18

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… That’s when you know it’s time surrender to the flow …

 

I keep thinking to myself, it’s fine; in fact it is perfect, everything will work out and here I am on the day of the blog hop and I am running late. Not intentionally though, its a technological thing (yet again)… I have this love/hate relationship with technology, when it works, it works amazingly and when it doesn’t… Well you’ve heard what happened to the dinosaurs.

 

Whether you are familiar with blog hopping, blogging or if you are just joining in for the first time, then welcome to the chaos that is my contribution to this month. A hop if you are not familiar with this; it is a group of writers and bloggers coming together on a singular subject and exploring it from their point of view; we then link to one anothers blog (albeit earlier than originally planned) and thus the hop is birthed (prematurely and late birth for this one… wyrd huh?).

 

This was meant to be about the Aces, but I swear the Oh Gods of Technology and the Delphi Oracles, have other plans for this one, and yet even as I sit here and allow the flow to just take over, I get the sense of the Aces playing their part. However they’re not playing an active role in this, they’re on the side lines so to speak, sheltered by everything else. The rest of the suits and the major cards as well are forefront again playing the part of the protector.

 

When you have the Aces present, what do they make you think about, for me the directions and the quarters. Now here is where it all goes chaotic, which one belongs where? For me Wood burns, therefore The Ace of Clubs would be Fire, A Sword cuts Air, therefore for the Ace of Swords would be Air, Pentacles, are metallic and made of earthly materials and so the Ace of Pentacles (Coins in some decks) would be Earth, leaving the Cups, holding water so therefore the Ace of Cups would be Water.

 

I would argue that this makes absolute perfect sense, I would say that my understanding is right; but then I would. It can be argued that Swords represent Fire, Batons/Clubs represent Air and the other two would be fine as they are, but then this argument would be right, I would be wrong and so would my understanding, but then it would be right… and so would I. It depends on how you came into Tarot, it depends on where you learnt those skills; neither one is wrong, just as neither one is absolutely right.

 

Recently there has been a spate of click-bate, misinformation, fake-news and ‘alternative facts’ it’s about separation and fear; it’s about who controls who, and it’s about placing us where others feel we need to be placed and ultimately it comes down to power. I have tried several times to ride the currents of the collective and get a sense of where things are going but I swear I keep taking a wrong turn at Delphi, I keep sensing the Ten’s of each Suit, doing a Wheel of Fortuna and sending me back to the start again.

 

That’s when I started to realise that I just need to stop, it’s when you start ending up back at where you started that you know its time to surrender to the flow. Simply let the eddies and the current take you where is needed, not where is wanted. It’s the only way to be…

 

So yeah this has been my blog hop experience, don’t forget to leave me a comment (even if it does say about time or better later than never)…

 

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