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Balance: Approaching the Path to Yin/Yang Understanding

Balance: Approaching the Path to Yin/Yang Understanding

Challenging Your Perceptions…

 

TBHTo challenge and in return be challenged is a gift, although if I am honest, I do not always see it as such. Unless I am writing an article for the Tarot Blog Hop or Reiki Blog Hop then a lot of what I am writing is Soul-Felt. Recently I have found myself on the receiving end of more than one challenge. During Sacred De-armouring I was confronted with my own tourist like behaviours in all kinds of situations. It wasn’t an easy thing to deal with but the gift I received wasn’t just knowledge but also a personal truth; and an uncomfortable personal truth at that.

 

Being shown that sometimes you can be wrong, isn’t something I was ready to feel or possibly even accept. I avoided the concept like I avoided the concept that things could be perfect, complete opposite ends of the same spectrum and I had to face both over the course of one weekend. Now here I am confronting that same lesson but this time I don’t have that feeling, I read through an article that at first thought well yes! I must be wrong in my thought processes, but then I processed it a little more and thought about an old turn of phrase.

 

TBHMany moons ago I picked up a turn of phrase, ‘Twice is Confirmation’ it just means to hear, see or come into contact with the same thing more than once is proof that there is something to it. This is something that has time and again shown itself to be accurate for me, when I am writing a paper for a course or doing a project, I fact check and I will make note of the places that I gain information from. Typically I will go to my books first and then I will come to the internet and if all else fails I will ask, before going to Wikipedia. It is rare for me to state that I know something for certain or make any definite statement, as I try to only speak from my experiences and my own knowledge base. I have had a lot of my work and words validated over the last 20 – 24 years and that includes anything that I have done with regards to Tarot or Spirituality.

 

The one thing I have grown tired of saying in all that time is I’m dyslexic, it has become this badge I continually have to wear almost like a caution for the ignorant or those too lazy to take the time to read posts and pages properly. It will almost always come up at some point in a conversation with someone who doesn’t know me that well and in those instances it’s actually fine, and I don’t mind, I think that other thing I have grown weary or maybe just wary of is just how limited the perception others can have. I mean I am the one with the reading issue and yet I end up having to walk someone through a train of thought that is fairly self explanatory.

 

TBHWords Have No Emotion Unless Spoken or Framed in Context… There is just something powerful in that simple statement, we use words, sentences and paragraphs every moment of life, even as babies before we grasped what words were; we had our unique language and then we were gifted the ability to structure that unique language with words that belonged to our race, country and place of birth. Throughout time we have been able to attach emotions to the words spoken and written words in a book when framed correctly evoke the right emotion, but words in a text message and certainly in a messenger window, don’t that same kind of emotional connection; initially they are just words and true once we know a person very well, we attach emotion and even a voice to them, but we know that person to some degree but yet there is an almost incessant need to attach an emotion to the words of a stranger, we’re almost socially conditioned into it.

 

Maybe it is something that I have gained from the on and off years I have been doing Tai Chi, or the connections that I have made between Reiki, Eastern and Western philosophies; as well as the philosophies from Taoism and Buddhism. I have come to realise that where the internet and indeed social media are concerned there is no point in creating attachments to the words that authors write on pages or feeds. To personalise something that may or may not be about you only causes you the emotion, the other person is oblivious to the fact you are having those feelings. In fact to show that you are reacting only make that person stronger, so sometimes it is best to just walk away from it.

 

TBHIt may sound out there but for long enough there has been a sense that I had been shattered or at the very least fractured through the drama on Social Media. Granted on the outside everything would appear fine to the casual stranger but on the inside, there was the sense of shattering, and it needed to come its natural end. So with that in mind I think that at this point I want to start rounding up some of the threads that are within this post. Mainly to help you understand where this is all leading to. As for me I already know because I am the author, so let me start with something that I mentioned at the start about tourist behaviours; these are behaviours such as making and stating very grand things but not really having that much conviction or explanation behind them, they are said to see what reaction can be evoked, its not really done in malice or badness it’s a defence mechanism that I employed to try make friends or at least hide behind a pretence and observe people without really being in the moment or having a genuine feeling or connection.

 

It is almost as if a moment is a transitory experience and it doesn’t actually matter, when the reality is, that every moment does matter, regardless of how transitory it might appear to be. There are other examples as well but the best one to really see yourself through your own eyes is to remove your name, for a day or in the right kind of workshop just remove your name, or give yourself another one and see what happens. Another one to try is ask yourself “Who are You without Your Spiritual Story?” When I chose to do that very thing, I saw myself through the eyes of others and it changed me. At first I was actually repulsed by the words that others had said to me, eventually after trying to hold it together I broke, I needed to break and needed the release because in doing so I found myself again… I had to go through a period of dissolution, but through this I’ve rediscovered my core essence and being.

 

TBHWhere words are concerned, I relate and work with a great deal of the Ancient and Arcane ways, however these two words have caused problems in the past. I find that they are very similar in meaning and when I use them I do so with specific context. However before I begin the next wrap up paragraph; I’ve looked up both words in to clarify my thinking and I am happy that my own perceptions and usage for them is correct.

 

The word Ancient can mean: “Ancient(adj); old; that happened or existed in former times, usually at a great distance of time; belonging to times long past; specifically applied to the times before the fall of the Roman empire; opposed to modern; as, ancient authors, literature, history; ancient days“.

 

The word Arcane can mean: “Arcane(adj) understood by few; mysterious or secret.”arcane procedures for electing people” synonyms: mysterious, secret, hidden, concealed, covert, clandestine, enigmatic, dark; esoteric, obscure, abstruse, recondite, little known, recherché, inscrutable, impenetrable, opaque, incomprehensible, cryptic, occult “the arcane world of the legal profession” antonyms: well known, open“.

 

Let’s walk this through, to explain why I feel these two words can be used in a specific context. Arcane as you can see “understood by few; mysterious or secret” and Ancient as you are also aware and can see “old; that happened or existed in former times” by our modern day standards Arcane knowledge is also Ancient knowledge because it is now not known or understood by few and has become mysterious and secret because of its age and because it existed in a former time (Source: definitions.net & google.co.uk)

 

However this notion of word usage and context has as I say became a problem, and made me address this idea of being wrong or misinformed. It’s like my knowledge base as well, I have studied many subjects within the esoteric movement from parapsychology, numerology, character analysis, astrology and the list goes on, I have studied tarot but I learnt through doing not through books, I only chose to get a certification because I felt being out in the public domain I had better have something that shows my worth. The books I have on the subject vary from 1800’s through to 2016 and somehow I don’t think I would just ‘bin them’ because my thoughts on the matter clash with someone else. (you can see the entire saga here)

 

13925125_1014015315378834_3318230305177294569_nIt really comes down to a matter of balance and opinion. If I believe I am wrong I will admit to it, if another suggests that I am wrong or that my knowledge is fallible then that is also something that I will admit to as I did on the Sacred weekend. However on this blog and this site, I am prepared to dig my heels in and not exactly fight but state my case from my understanding until either an impasse is reached or I realise that there is no power in the words and it is opinion. In which, case I am no longer afraid of suggesting that the opinion is actually wrong. True there will be times when both opinions are right or indeed wrong, but at the end of the day, does that even matter?

 

The soul of the matter for me is direct and straightforward, opinion like fact is based on someone having written the words to begin with and then having others back-up, verify and give pundits or accreditation to those words. Then through time the words soon become thought of as fact and eventually even historical fact; whether they are right or wrong; Freud is a good example of this, many still accept his work as historical fact but many others find his work to be flawed and outdated by our modern day standards and yet many still adhere to his works and reference them. As I said at the very start of this to challenge and be challenged is a gift. It may not always be welcomed but it is a gift none the less. I have received several gifts from challenges. It has changed the way I process and make sense of them. The best way for me is to write it out. Like I have done here; I know my mind, my knowledge and own my understanding, I am happy and content to have that peace, I am also content that some days I may be wrong and my opinion may be wrong but you know something… Today really isn’t that day…

 

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Facing the Light of Diogenes

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TBHI felt challenged earlier but in a very good way. I was reading Jeff Foster’s Page on Facebook, and he posed a very interesting question; “Who are you without your Spiritual Story?” – the question is part of a poem/haiku-esque piece but its profound in that it asks a very potent and loaded question. Let’s face it anyone that walks a faith path, whether its orthodox as we understand it today or non-traditional again by today’s standards there is a story attached, however that is not always a bad thing, it just is the way that some are.

 

TBHI am not certain that my own path of faith actually has a name, I read on Social Media ages ago now about Om-ism representing the path of belief in all faiths, but as it turns out this is just another Social Media Meme and doesn’t actually have any basis outside the Binary / Hexadecimal constructs that are the Internet. It’s a pity because I really like that idea of Om as well as representing the core sound at the heart of the Universe (Spiritually speaking) also representing the Path of Belief and Understanding within all Faiths. Alas for now it will need to remain an allusion and meme for the moment, but it is interesting to find this question and then discover, what I thought was a real thing, was just a meme, which then brings me back round to the question of the moment; “Who am I without my Spiritual Story?”

 

TBHMy ‘story’ is interesting because I began with being baptised into the Church of Scotland (CoS), its diocese and predominance would be akin to Presbyterian in England and some rural places in Scotland, but it is mostly recognised as being in line with Protestantism. After 40 odd years I still haven’t worked out why there is such a divide between the different orthodox religions in the UK let alone the world. However I am stressing here, I am not open for a discussion on the whole thing, in my 40 plus years in this incarnation, I have managed to avoid the whole religious politics that divide the UK as a nation because of something that happen well over 300+ years ago and really needs to be healed.

 

TBHOkay so back to the point, as I said I began in the CoS and then around high school age, towards 13/15 I started to witness flaws that I guess I already knew were there but wasn’t aware enough to see them, but at this stage when all my senses were adjusting through puberty I did. Women bitching about others, Men folk being ignorant of other men folk, and even children absorbing this spectacle of hypocrisy and starting to parrot it back, I realised as I sat out in the hallway waiting on my folks that this was not my life. This is was not a community nor was it a path that I wanted to follow any longer, it was flawed and worse than that it had betrayed me. I had believed that it was accepting, all encompassing and loving, but it was much like the parables of Judas and his betrayal of Jesus, and at that moment I related to Jesus more than any human in those walls outside of my parents.

 

TBHMy journey expanded throughout the next ten years and then again after I was 25, till I reached a point where I had become familiar and understood a percentage of the worlds religions, including the ones that weren’t really known or had been forgotten about over here. What I discovered throughout this journey of learning, was that they all had common themes and denominators; and yet they still fought about who was right and wrong. The answer is still glaringly obvious; they are all right and also they are all wrong because like history it really boils down to who is writing it. Most faiths have been written and then re-written when the need has arisen. (King) Henry VIII for example didn’t like some of the text in the bible, in his benevolence, he had it re-written, only to then decide that he wanted religion based around him. As his illness and subsequent madness took hold, Henry decided that anyone who wasn’t following his chosen faith was to be killed. This speaks of a macabre spiritual story and also speaks volumes about the pitfalls of religion, when you ponder upon it from an ‘objective’ point of view.

 

By Internet Archive Book Images - https://www.flickr.com/photos/internetarchivebookimages/14560204190/Source book page: https://archive.org/stream/lychnocausiasive00farl/lychnocausiasive00farl#page/n49/mode/1up, No restrictions, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=44199636If I were to come face to face with the modern day version of Diogenes of Sinope and he/she/they were to ask of me “Who are you without your Spiritual Story?” then I would answer in honesty as I allowed the lamp light to shine upon me. I would say that I wear this face and this body, a wonderful combination of my parents genetic and biological genetics. I hold in within me the generational bloodlines of countless generations and I have healed the wounds of these generations and released the traumas that were contained within them. I continue on by saying that I have been a victim of an failing education system but I am better now, and I am certain that this is not the only time I have been here and I have a dharma line that is as much ET as it Human. Without my Spiritual Story, I am a loyal and loving person to my husband, my friends, my family as well as to the strangers who I may meet for the first time. I strive to be the same person online as I am offline, in person as I am on the phone. I will continue to strive to be the best me I can possibly be at any given moment.

 

HermitAs well as being able to ‘Step into Death’ when I am working on platform, I find that these days I am stepping into the role of Diogenes of Sinope or The Hermit, where I am starting to not only hold a lamp up at my own truth, honesty and authenticity but I am holding up the lamp as I start my own quest looking for an Authentic Person. Truth like honesty is a perception, we each see these concepts from our own ‘objectivity’ therefore no one person is ever right or wrong in their beliefs with regards to the Truth or Honesty. Collectively we believe in a singular truth, but when each of us witnesses something wrong with the facts that build up this singular truth, particularly when it is from our own perspective, we then collectively start to question it. Whether it develops into a conspiracy theory, a dismissal of that truth from the individual or collectively we question the facts, is really dependant on the singular truth. The one that I came across last week was a science philosopher that stated Reiki was a myth and had no solid basis for it to work.

 

TBHPersonally and also professionally I really didn’t much care for the authors opinion of facts as he saw them. It was his truth and he was owning it, in text at that time of writing and again at the time of printing and release of the book. Purely at that level and without engaging with it too much, I gave the author his truth and continued reading the rest of the chapter, if I were to hold up my lamp to this text and this author I am not sure I would find authenticity, I would find a respectable author, scientist and philosopher but as to his authenticity, I remain uncertain but I will admit perhaps I am slightly jaded because of his remarks with regards to Reiki. However I will say this, when you follow a path of logic, reason and science; it can be hard to accept something that is metaphysical in nature. I would not suggest that it is spiritual purely because Reiki isn’t a religion, it would be amazing if it was but then it would lose a lot of its credibility as a healing modality and pathway to recuperation that it has become known for today.

 

TBHReturning again to the question that was posed at the start, “Who are you without your Spiritual Story?” I am an incarnate being androgynous by nature, on a journey of authenticity that started at some point in my teenage years and has meant shedding a load of Trauma’s, Karmic and Dharma drama that wasn’t mine to start with, it has meant standing up to some nasty people out to damage and hurt me professionally and personally but it has also meant meeting and being in love with an amazing husband, having an awesome family and loving my life as it continually evolves, changes and becomes.

 

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Show and Tell – What Makes a Teacher

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TBHSocial media and the internet is awash with all kinds of courses, books and people that are ready to change your life but at a price. There are life, spiritual and religious guru’s aplenty just waiting at the click of the mouse to ‘fix’ you and there in rests the first problem, this idea that life in some way needs an external ‘fix’ – we’re not a set of pipes nor do we have copper wiring and I am not speaking for anyone else as I say this but I am certainly not in need of neutering either!

 

TBHIt’s not that I actually have an issue with any of it, for a lot of people out there it works but for everyone else it doesn’t. In many ways handing over our sovereignty that is to say our supreme power or authority that governs and defines who we are; to someone else is a huge deal and there are no certainties that once that is done they are going to treat it with respect, despite what their words say. I have experienced both the good and the bad of doing this in my 40 odd years upon this planet so far, the bad was not pleasant in the slightest but the good actually helped but only because I allowed the good to happen.

The biggest question that have encountered is what makes a good teacher? My honest answer is someone that doesn’t need the title for anything other than advertising purposes. Telling is one thing but showing is another, many tell their viewing audience but very little show. Telling your audience how good you are or how good they can be is fine, its very much like a presentation; anyone can throw together a power-point, get books printed off and book a room. I should know I have done it! I have been that guy, the teller, the fixer rather than the shower.

 

TBHAssuming that you have stayed with this, let me explain a bit about the idea behind show and tell. It’s a familiar term from school days, where you’d be asked to do a project or bring in something personal to tell the others in your class about. It’s a similar idea, showing is a bit like I do one, and then others do it after me and as for telling, well that is more about explaining and painting a picture with words, its not that effective and not all the information is retained. It’s a common thing in some colleges and Universities, depending on the subject matter.

 

I recognise that part of my work is to pass on knowledge and to be begin with I really thought that I had it sussed, I taught development with an open and friendly way, treating everyone the same. To my detriment I learnt that sometimes people only want to be your friend in order to profit from that kindness and then pass it off as their own and in all fairness I didn’t protect myself against that until it was too late in the day to do anything. What I discovered from the experience was that I had an unhealthy auto-response, which was to apologise even through others treated me like shit! However that apologetic auto-response is slowly being replaced, it’s not that I am suddenly becoming a different person, it is just that I am now protecting my work and passion to avoid that same mistake.

 

TBHI have learnt how to be better at passing on my information, the one thing I decided that was best for me was to drop the whole teacher vibe, and instead adopt the Sensei vibe. I find that I am teaching every day, just as I am taught every day, I find that I am in the cycle of show and tell a lot at the moment. Telling I am keeping up my skills and showing when I am working with clients or arranging appointments. I am even showing when I am on platform instead of telling, the showing and teaching comes in the form of the demonstrations of Mediumship and Clairvoyance, the telling comes in as I convey what is needed.

 

I find that as I facilitated Angelic and Usui Reiki, I am not teaching but rather imparting and opening the way through Sacred Space for the sentient energy of Reiki to birth a new adept or practitioner and bring the awareness of Self Mastery to those taking the journey of Mastership in either Reiki practise. When I am doing Trance Workshops, it is very much see one and then do one, I spend very little time telling, asides from the health and safety regulations for the space I am working in. This is how I believe that things should be when it comes to working with groups. Where is the point in sitting in a seat and being bombarded with information? Granted there are some circumstances where that is needed, but even then with a bit of careful planning it can be made for a time when its going to be of benefit rather than at the end of a day, for example.

 

TBHThe biggest tell that someone is just a carbon copy is outdated information or sticking to a prescribed format because it is safe. The best show is someone that takes their learning and owns it, really owns it. Just being in their presence is learning through transmission, watching them work with the techniques is watching an artist at work and then to be able to use that learning and then build on it, now that is learning, showing and what a Sensei or teacher if you will is meant to be. It is how I aim to be, an artist and Sensei of my skills set, when I am teaching I am looking to help others understand from where they are not from where I am. That’s just teaching by rota or parrot, its saying do as I say not as I do. Quite frankly I don’t honestly see what there is to gain from it other than massaging the ego.

 

I am by no means perfect and I am by no means suggesting that Guru’s or Teacher, Coaches or what have you aren’t worth it. Just as I am not suggesting that courses, books and so on can’t make a difference, they can to a degree. It’s the ‘fixing’ that is the bothersome part, we really are the only ones that can do that. We can only fix ourselves with the right tools, and perhaps that is what the teachers, coaches and gurus for tomorrow need to be learning, how to pass on the tools to the ones who will come to them. It is what I do these days, I show my students how to fix their lives, I transmit and through sacred space open their sovereign self to that knowledge in a session or in a workshop help the students to find their meaning and understanding in the time that we spend together, only then will they discover true self and self mastery.

 

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Tango of the Wounded Healer – Embracing Bravery

TBHAs with any new skill, trade or information it takes a moment to get to grips with it. Firstly it’s how does it work, followed by what does this do and so it goes on. It’s the same thing when you discover that you’re what’s known as a Wounded Healer. Now to be honest I started at “There’s no such thing”, before I travelled into “This must be a bad thing” before finally arriving at “It’s a brave thing to be here” because being A Wounded Healer is an absolute privilege.

 

TBHHowever, at first I really didn’t understand the concept or what I was meant to do with this knowledge, particularly when you don’t know what to call it. This is one part of this that I have really struggled with for as long as I care to remember. When I began this journey, I started with the SNU (Spiritualist National Union), thinking that this would be the way to go and I had my first brush with abuses of power, but also with what it was possible for me to do.

 

Granted the entire experience was unpleasant, but it was my first brush with being a Wounded Healer. Since that first encounter there have been times when I have walked, then ran in the opposing direction, only to discover that it was always the right direction.

 

(c)2011/10 gdj.graphicdesignjunction.com What I didn’t grasp at that time is the path, this Golden path we all seem to walk, it isn’t one way. The biggest and possibly worst assumption that we can make collectively is that just because linear time dictates that we can not go back in years, doesn’t mean that our path is like that. We can move forward and we can move back along the path, it’s already perfect so there is no way to make a mistake and even if that were to happen, it is already perfect and so it is not a mistake but something to learn from.

 

Even when I turned my back, stopped listening to my calling; a way was found to return me because that was how I was always going to be. It was how it was meant to be, I was still on my Golden Path, all I had done was stepped through the mirror and onto another branch of it, a bit like Alice going through the looking glass; at the other end another mirror and back out on the journey. The lesson being, you can pause, have a breath but sooner or later you will be following your calling.

 

If I am honest until around 7 years ago, I would never have accepted that this was my calling. However there are pivotal moments that completely change you, open you to the possibilities that you have a fated life or a destiny (depending on if you believe in such things). I have often crossed paths with destiny; meeting my husband, meeting my extended family because of a spilt drink and then meeting amazing people through an open invite to my wedding on Social Media.

 

Moments that have changed the course of my life for the better, these moments feel like stepping through mirrors as part of this Golden Path, because sometimes a crossroads or a meeting with Destiny, is fated to change everything. This year has really been a time for release, a time for shedding and a time for letting go of old stagnated energies. So much of this would not have been possible without support from my family, from my husband and mum in particular.

 

(c)2012 Pablo LeboTheir unwavering belief and support has made it okay for me to just let go and be me, to release all the baggage and responsibility that comes with seeing the world differently. I have been dancing to a very intricate tango, learning the moves as I have danced but never felt brave enough to take the lead, until today.

 

The tango is very much like YinYang, for the dance to succeed one must have dominance but rather than the other being subservient, they must bend like a reed in the wind and be supple. The dance originally was between two men, locked in a dance both equals and yet during the dance the roles change as to who is leading who. As Yin will surrender to Yang, so does Yang surrender to Yin, it is the way balance is maintained. It is the way of the Dance.

 

My dance has been about acceptance, understanding that I am a Wounded Healer. Having the understanding of others pain, hurt and loss as well as their joys, loves and journey to beauty.

 

The Wounded Healer, doesn’t try to fix, mend or dictate how another soul should be, instead the Wounded Healer, holds space. The healer will embrace and meet the person where they are and act as a guide. We embrace our bravery and understand that we are reluctant to walk in a world that does not understand us yet, but then in order to heal the wounds that other do not see, we must walk the paths that others cannot know.


The Rites to Reply: Rest in Pieces the Freedoms of Speech…

TBHWe gather here at this time on this blog to pay our respects; indeed it was this very week that the Freedoms of Speech, departed Social Media. It was an unexpected and untimely passing, which seems for many of us to have gone unnoticed. However, for a great many more, the passing of this beautiful and gracious being has a profound impact. Where there was voice, silence now has lease, where there was once safety, the Sword of Damocles now hangs.

 

TBHThe sense of danger now dangles, upon the last strands of that ancient steed’s hair, as the profiles fade to black. As we gather to remember the Freedom, as it was before the weekend, I am reminded of some words spoken at the time of passing… “When all blame is laid at the feet of the innocents, made to feel responsible for the acts of a few, will that make the world better? When all the responsibility has been handed out, given to all the wrong people, and those who it belongs to are dust, will the world be healed?”

 

TBHAs I look around at the blackened profiles, the sad emojis and the empty comments box, I find that I mourn for that Freedom and I ask “When the last sorry is uttered by the last innocent soul, will forgiveness be given to the forefathers and foremothers? When the last of us stands at the mouth of the dead rain forest, will that valuable contribution online matter? In the echoes, the screams, in our blindness and blame, will the illicit pointed finger of complicitness be as dumbstruck as listening to the power of positive trending?”

 

Peering into the crucible as echoes and the screams of popular finger pointing trends, froths up, boils over; I wonder, will nothing become better? When will the healing be done? Because after the dust has settled and the last sorry whispered at the mouth of the dead trees, no one will know what the foremothers and forefathers taught us. The comments boxes will still be empty, the profiles will still be black and the innocents will have been cast out from Social Media.

 

As the tide of scathing posts and malicious memes scald the blameless, deafen the silent and slaughter innocence, will that satisfy the need for blood? As the last Y and the last X Chromosome are sacrificed upon the altars of The Cyan Bird and The Mighty White F, will that mean all is forgiven? Will that #cleanse and #heal the genderless rift? Will that make the illicitness of being complicity ignorant alright?

 

As we gaze at our brightly lit gods, waiting with heads bowed in silent scrolling, let us hashtag and reflect. Let us post as I read out the last Eulogy and Rites of our beloved Freedom; “Will the crime of having no knowledge punishable through the trail of social media be made better, when the blind author obeys and says sorry through woeful fingers? Will the jury of peers #like or thumbs down, as the last YX child drags his coffin and gets ready to fall upon his password login, before he can grow up and do no harm? and she rises from the ashen pyres of scorn upon scorn for being true to their own knowing, will that allow them to post once again?

 

Lets us depart dear ones, as frenemies; hand in hand and forever distant, separated by the poisoned chalice of social media and let us forget now that each one of us has the Rites of Reply, as we bid farewell and commit The Freedoms of Speech to barren and binary land before us. Remembering how they taught us that If when we post hate online, those words won’t anoint, and the holy waters of comments and likes won’t wash us clean.

 

Instead it will rise up like a tide of poison and try as we might to scream from the bullhorn of perceived justice of being right, the false truth will be strapped to our ankles and as we sink down into the bottomless well of silence; maybe then we will notice how all around, everyone else is more comfortable remaining voiceless, and maybe then we’ll remember, dear Freedoms of Speech, who is no longer there, because this is after all its last rites.

Amen.


Tarot Blog Hop – A Different Kind of Journey… 13

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TBHWelcome to the Tarot Blog Hop! If you have ‘hopped’ before, then let me briefly explain, for those of you that have, feel free to skip this bit: A hop is a group of unique and experienced people who write, blog or work with Tarot. We come together at a set times during the wheel of the year and the cat herder, juggler of strange people that keep imploding aka the Wrangler, will set the topic and those of us who partake end up insane, mostly because we’re  composing, writing and posting down to the last second…

 

TBHKiss Boglárka, came up with a different theme for this month; TAROT Characters and Sacred Cooking OR TAROT Characters and Mabon Beauty Products, now this for me is not a strong point, yes I cook and yes I do have an admiration for beauty but I have never really taken too much of an active interest to be able to blog or discuss either of them at length,
so rather than attempt to do it, I came up with an alternative way into this topic.

 

TBHWhen learning anything new, we look at the book, so in cookery we’re following a pre-planned instruction set, until we get used to it and then improvise. Likewise is beauty, we follow the guide of the person who sold us the product or watch online videos; and it is the same when we learn to work with an unfamiliar deck author. True most cards end up meaning the same anyway regardless of the name, but its the language of the deck and its energy when we work with it that we kind of need to understand.

 

TBHThis notion of energy and learning the language of the deck, occurred this week while during a reading, I came up against XX – Karma, which is in The Witches Tarot, this takes the place of XX – Judgement from decks like the Rider-Waite. After the reading was completed, I sat with this idea for a bit, was this like a pre-planned instruction, was it the same as someone giving you the guide on how to apply the ideology of Judgement but giving it another name, or was this more like an improvisation, where someone has improved on the original design? It certain felt curious the more I sat with this.

 

TBHRecently I picked up a cross-genre deck, by that I mean it services two purposes; the first is a tie-in to a table top war game and the second as a stand alone Tarot deck. It is called the Tarot of Loka, by Riverhorse Games and by all accounts it is fascinating to learn the language from a Cartomancy point of view. It speaks in such a complex but simple language, about different aspects but as yet I am not sure whether there is a functional use, much like the Dishonoured deck, pretty, interesting but very insular and unfriendly for reading with.

 

TBHOddly it makes me think of the I-Ching, one of the most complex but yet accurate divintation tool around, like Runes, it is a system unto itself, and learning that system can be slow going and sometimes just when you are ready to quit, it makes itself known, almost like it is testing you. In many ways again a bit like trial and error with cookery and beauty, only by working, trying and testing do you know what is good and what is not.

 

Thank you for the company as I have taken you through a somewhat different avenue for this months Tarot Blog Hop, next month is the Samhain Hop, which will mean that I am taking the wrangling reins, so plenty of time to start thinking (or fleeing).

 

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No Such Thing As A Toxic Man…

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It is not that often that I take to my site and speak my mind, it’s not that often that I have call to speak my mind if I am honest, but recently I find that there are have been a spate articles that are dehumanising and belittling men and masculinity. I tend to call it the Trunchbull Effect or the Matilda Syndrome, it derives from that saying “I’m Big, You’re Small…” or “I’m right and you’re wrong…” today I came across this notion of ‘Toxic Masculinity‘ and that was enough.

 

 

Toxic Masculinity‘ in a nutshell is another constructed form of gender stereotyping, where it is defining how masculinity is perceived and how a man should act in accordance with archaic societal expectations that are only perpetuated by Hollywood and the Media at large. Gender stereotyping is about as backwards as you get. That is of course unless you work in Social sciences, Print or Broadcasting Media, in which case gender is used to profile, stereotype and target sell to as much of the populus as possible but generally speaking it is as much use as a chocolate teapot!

 

 

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Before I continue, I’d like to point out that I have never really had a male role model outside of family. I learnt how not to be masculine through the education system and also learnt that no matter how much I would have liked to have been supported at school and even college; it wasn’t going to happen because of the laws and by-laws that were inbuilt to the education system and also Scots Laws as well, and they would not be repealed until the turn of the century, but thanks to those laws and by-laws I learnt about how not to be a man of that time, and as I hold up a mirror and watch the reflections being cast, I see now that I have a lot of be thankful for even through the bullying.

 

 

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Although I was told that I wasn’t a lot of things either verbally or non-verbally through being bullied, I also realised that it was just enough pain to forge the strength that I have now; that because of the by-laws and laws of that time, they did me a solid in that I learnt how to be my kind of human, and my kind of man. One with just enough of everything to be rounded and just enough ‘damage’ to be driven to move forward.

 

 

The only trouble was that until recently I never really fully appreciated the life lessons from these experiences. I was too limited in my view of my experiences; school hasn’t really taught me much, a great deal of my numeracy skills came from having to work with colours, perm lotions and peroxide strengths for a few years. As for my literacy skills they have come from writing dissertations for family, projects for college and the occasional NaNOWri or feature length story arcs on forums. True school and college taught me about reading, my dyslexia, dyscalculia and dyspraxia as well. However bullying at college level taught me about just how toxic femininity can be as well, its not easy being the only man on a hairdressing course and being turned into public enemy for no other reason than because I was male; however in 2017, it’s not permissible to suggest that just as there is a Toxic Masculinity there is also a Toxic Femininity.

 

 

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What I find very troubling these days is that how much of a mirror I am witnessing, except this mirrored reflection is showing me that this ‘attack’ against masculinity is insipid, because it is two pronged; on the one side you have the ‘men did this’ meaning rape, murder, subjugation etc but also you have the ‘be a man’ where men have to be the providers, progenitors of the family line, kings, soldiers etc essentially men are told they aren’t allowed to have emotions. This is the type of message that I kept getting through school, college and even to some degree the career or working world. At no time was I told that I could have the career path that I am forging now. The concept of Toxic isn’t just limited to one gender it is a systemic flaw in the way society works, it is not about acceptance it is about fitting in, the tactics of the bully have just changed to fit the times.

 

 

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It took a lot for me to rediscover myself, I’ve had to readdress the inner balance, hold myself into account for all my actions, both the best and the worst; I had permitted society to dictate my ‘normal’ and I believed that I was the worst, the worst driver because I wasn’t going as fast as others, the worst at being in business because I don’t use Facebook, Twitter or the many other platforms or because I keep my prices low, even though I know my worth. I also noticed that Society tried to dictate how I was supposed to love as well, and by that I was supposed to marry, have a child to a woman and so on, but as it happens I chose to marry a man and we intend to have children when the time is right for us.

 

 

This is where Gender Toxicity becomes Toxic Society, because the archaic ideals are being perpetuated by institutions that haven’t grown or evolved. Yes there are plenty of wonderfully fluffy or scary articles on the subject of human evolution or raising awareness but normally they are right along side those wonderfully targeted adverts for – INSERT ANY OLD BRAND NAME HERE – and they’ll excuse it because they need the revenue, umm no! If you were that evolved or that caring about your fellow human you wouldn’t have them. Let me clarify something before I move on, there are those who make their living from using advertising; that is a conscious choice made by an individual. The type of article I refer to are the clickbait, where it is a rehash telling of another article on another site usually owned by the same parent company…

 

 

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It is not that surprising to me that as we progress, there is a need for connection on a realistic level; however we are not taught to connect neither at the human level or the intimate level; everything I learnt about intimacy was either through books, videos or pornography, yes that’s right more so when I wanted to learn how I should be with a man, I had to rely on How to Videos, Pornography and Women’s Magazines, we are not taught how to be intimate with others or even how to have a human experience with another, all that is out there is how to make babies and do it doggy style because that is how afraid the archaic system is of human connection.

 

 

Imagine what would be to feel and be in perfection with another? True perfection, at the moment we glamourise and sexualise practically everything, from sexualised Tarot Cards to sexualising children for the purposes of looking good while performance dancing and yet this is normalised and excused. There is nothing wrong with performance dancing, gymnastics or anything else for that matter I used to figure skate when I was a lot younger, the point that I am trying to get across is that as soon as you put out there on the Televisual media, as soon as you put it into a glossy magazine, they are looking to sexualise and glamourise it up so as to get ratings; it is no longer about a troupe doing routines it becomes about how eye catching and glamorous children as young as 3 or 5 can be for a television executive and their camera.

 

 
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I didn’t start out writing this proclaiming to know all the answers, nor did I start out with the intention of defending all men; I started out with one aim, to point out the inherent flaws in clickbait articles, gender pigeon holing, stereotyping and also to point out that both genders can be just as toxic as each other but the Politically Correct brigade and their censorship police would rather men and masculinity be the problem rather than the society and the bully mentality that exists within it. The mindset is so entrenched in holding back the years, creating barriers to genuine connection, awareness of human sexuality and true intimacy that the whole idea of gender is become fluid, which in itself is awesome and scares the old guard, gender is just another barrier, holding the old ways in place.

 

 

Imagine what would be to feel and be in perfection with another? This is not about raging against the machine, anarchy or devolution of society, as some might think. The whole point is this – We have our laws to keep us safe, stifling though they are at times as long as we understand their place and value, we just get on with our lives in all their glorious technicolour; we drive at the right speeds, do business as we see fit and avoid the clickbait articles as much as possible. It is time acknowledge that there is a whole culture of sexualisation for profit and start moving on towards openness. If we are to survive then we need to move out of the past, give history its place and start forging a new mindset. Start by embracing this notion that sexuality isn’t dirty and it doesn’t revolve around gender, porn or glossy imaging; it is time to start stepping into our awareness that we are more than just a some of our parts and more than just parts to someone else’s ideology of society.

 

 

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Tarot Blog Hop – Dance of Erdgeist 8

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Welcome to the Litha Tarot Blog Hop! If you haven’t ‘hopped’ with me before, then welcome and if you have then welcome back… Let me briefly explain how I view a Blog Hop: It is a meeting of the minds, where a talented group of unique and experienced people, write/blog and typically work with tarot as part of their everyday lives. We come together at a set time and the wrangler, cat herder and juggler of unusual objects that keep exploding, sets the topic, which the rest of us end up insanely writing about at the last second…

 

 

Aisling (Our Wrangler) suggested:  “… the Oak King and the Holly King are two aspects of the same being, so we will use our Tarot cards to explore and explain the duality of our own natures. Who, indeed, is your “other Self”, your “Tanist”? How is it that you are, actually, of “two minds”?”

 

 

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I love the union of opposites and it was an odd sensation when it dawned on me that I could not find this within the Tarot, but as I pondered on this and considered the many reasons why this would be, I discovered that really the card that I have a connection to within any deck, doesn’t really have a unity… 

When looking at the deck, really any deck since they follow the same Rider-Waite principles; there are many dualities within it, High Priest and High Priestess, Emperor and Empress, Magician and Star (since both have their innocence to some degree). However The Hermit nor Death really have their dualities, well not that I can see.

 

 

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However as soon as I took myself outside of the scope and looked into the I Ching and Tao, there it was; my Yin/Yang and my non-duality, which is really how I view The Hermit, he is my Green Man or Oak & Holly Kings. Yes there is duality there but it is non-conformist. I mean come off it, I’m just about ever a-whatever you can name; asexual, apolitical, thankfully not amoral, or atheist (okay last one was a bit of a non a-ism).

 

The point being, The Hermit represents non-duality; a bit like Death; which I will get to in a second. The Hermit creates himself and then re-creates his self as needed; he’s both Master or Sensei, Master Magician or Healer; Shinto Priest and Taoist, the unity of Perfect and Non-Perfect. He is also an aspect of Nature, in that there is a constant flux and yet steadfast predictability as well.

 

 

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If you managed to stay with this then, brilliant it is my hope that you are still remaining open to what is being said, after all I get that when I am doing these blog hops, I am not exactly conventional in my approach to Tarot, but then I had to develop my own ways of understanding, as did we all I guess. It’s very much in-line with how we view Death, which it my other duality / non-duality card although not one that I go looking for.

 

It if anything normally comes and finds me; my relationship with the Tarot in a way self created my connection to the Spirit & Angelic Realms. If I hadn’t become interested in Tarot, I would not have developed my connections but likewise without my connections guiding me I would never have found my way to the Tarot, so therefore I find that my connection to Spirit as well as now the Land, I find that any major shifts I will sense and further to that I am aware of them on the other-side as they transition to the next stages in life. Hence my saying I don’t need to look for it, as it normally finds me, because in order to do the work I do, I need to ‘Step into Death’ or ‘Step into Love’ when I am working with the Angelic side.

 

 

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All through this I have been looking at both sides, duality and non-duality, the yin/yang union of opposites. Tarot in itself as a deck and a divination method does have its own duality, each card has a upside and a reverse, should we decide to recognise it or not. I don’t, for me, I find that the cards can have the same meaning either way depending on what is around it but I will pay recognition to the reverse and tell my client so, as it is a challenge they are either facing or have faced.

 

 

I guess it depends on you whether you take stock in the reverse meaning or not, we’re all individuals in that sense, which is why no two readings are ever the same, which is duality and non-duality at work again. There can be similar things appearing, same narratives and driving forces but how each reader sees, understands and conveys them, well that is where Taoist see perfection, Shinto sees Divinity and where Duality and Non-Duality meet within the Union of Opposites.

 

Thank you for stopping by, please do leave me some feedback, even if it is just hello. Do visit the other blogs in this hop, via the links and I may see you in the next hop.

 

 


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Tarot Blog Hop – Keeping it Simple… 10

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Welcome to the Beltane Tarot Blog Hop! If you haven’t ‘hopped’ with me before, then hello and if you have then you can skip this bit and head on down to the next paragraph… Okay let me briefly explain: A hop is a group of unique and experienced people who write, blog or work with tarot as part of their everyday lives. We come together at a set time and the wrangler, cat herder and juggler of unusual objects that keep exploding, sets the topic, which the rest of us end up insanely writing about at the last second…

 

Arwen Lynch Poe (Wrangler):  Since Beltane is a holiday of coming together, I thought it would be fun to answer this question: “Do you combine Tarot with any other divination system? Why or why not?”

 

It is a day for really keeping it simple. hot off the heels of my anniversary where we birthed a Stag and Horse drum with Hubby. I was lucky to be granted the chance of travelling to the otherworlds, had some of the most intense processes and then add to that the mad ways of how amazingly hard it was to get there and then amazingly simple it was to get home… Its taught me a great deal. Taught me about divination in the most straightforward of ways imaginable, nature knows!

 

Not just outside nature but also inside nature, human nature; one of the most complex structures ever known to exist is the nature of our own self. Yet feeling my way through this was really interesting because I was not only feeling my way but full fledged five natural senses and then the five psychic senses on top sensing my way through this. Now by this point you’ll be trying to work out what the hell all this has to do with Tarot and this hop…

 

Simples really, no matter how you wrap it up in words and place a bow on it, your working with all the senses; even the ones you haven’t figured out yet. You don’t just a read a person by their cards, you read that person the cards are an extension of that person, you are apart of that reading as well, because they are your cards. You see the mirrors and the reflections, you see what they don’t because you are the reader after all.

 

To extend out and use another divination tool on top is just another layer, another chapter of that client’s story; be it oracle, runes, be it a star chart or their hand, be it a crystal ball or someone from the the higher side walking forward it is another chapter, another layer peeled away to show you their core. Tarot is simple, its 78 pieces of a jigsaw, 78 depictions of life, 78 single pages but when put together, when weaved and shuffled, those 78 simple, jigsaw, pages and depictions, they’re no longer simple.

 

They are the weave of life, the clients life and answering their questions, finding their answers and reading their soul and giving them the truths they’re sometimes not ready for… well that is anything but simple….

 

Thanks for stopping by xx

 

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