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Living within the Sacred Possibilities

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I am the first to admit that I haven’t been spending as much time online as I would normally. Partly this is because I am entrenched in case studies & assessments for the Diplomas that I am working towards. However there is perhaps a bit more to it; since really the Meteor shower, Solar Eclipse and the New Moon, I have had this sense of conformity and in essence this structured sense of reality just seemingly dissolve. The more I have sensed, felt and processed my way through this, it’s like there are no boundaries any more. So much of what I thought or considered improbable isn’t and with this new found sense of reality I am coming to terms with the notion that I have made friends with living within the sacred possibilities, and how liberating that is but also just how mindful I need to be as well.

 

 

Truthfully; I would equate this to going through a huge paradigm shift from the belief of being limited or being held back to stepping up. It’s not about doing, fixing or who is bigger, smarter or even who has less and who has more, it’s about really engaging with all aspects, from ego to soul, they’re not to be separated but rather integrated. This life, the people, animals and plants, our whole world is ready to support us in our journey as long as we give back what we take, so a plant for a plant, energy for energy. We live within sacred possibilities every day. It’s about knowledge and knowing what makes you very much you, not about somebody else telling you. Teachers, gurus or whatever should open a door, not stand in it and say its me you should follow.

 

 

From a very early age I always knew that I wanted to be a Wytch; thing was I never really understood what that word in its traditional sense meant. I always had a inner knowing that I wasn’t the same as other kids, and for most of my childhood I was always the outsider and ostracised or bullied for it. I had a very traditional CoS (Church of Scotland) upbringing, went to church on a Sunday, went through Sunday School and then began Bible Classes, but at some point around 13/14 I began to ask the odd questions such as “What if God is an Alien and we’re the science experiment that went ary and he abandoned/left it?” of course that didn’t sit well in Bible Class, and then there was the blatant hypocrisy of the congregation during the coffee morning at the end of the service…

 

 

As the outsider, the kid that spent most of his time alone while the other kids did what other kids did, I actually observed the adults. Thing is no one see a child unless they are doing something that falls outside the normal, so sitting by the service hatch or by the door, walking from one side to the other never registered on their radar and so I got to see adulting in its raw unfiltered form. I realised that there was nothing Christian about their behaviour, instead these were adult children, being mean about each other, talking behind their backs, and effectively being bullies even though they chastise their own for doing it. In that moment of reality I had my first awakening and I did not return to that church or any other for many years.

 

 

During my years of being bullied through high school, I had developed a coping mechanism, which allowed me to essentially exist outside of space-time as it is understood. Within this bubble there was no time, only source and the sentience I called Louise; this was actually my first spiritual guide and teacher (also my first goddess experience). If you think of Louise like Chocky, who was a fictional character from a series of Children’s books that was later serialised for TV, Chocky was a consciousness or guide for at first Matthew and then later a group of children, Chocky taught them about advanced sciences, telekinetics and much more. Then you begin to understand that Louise was my Chocky and she was teaching me about being a Medium, Clairvoyant and also a Wytch as well, although at first it was about guiding me to find the right information and books as the internet was a fictional thing at that time.

 

 

At 16 I never knew that I had Dyslexia or its associated learning difficulties, it would be 6 more years before I would learn about that, all I ever knew was that reading was a pain and I didn’t always recollect things the way I had learnt them. Therefore as I started to learn Tarot, I learnt from the pictures and very little from the text, this was also because my very first deck of Tarot was in French and I really didn’t (nor still do) have an aptitude for certain languages. I experimented and tinkered with Tarot for a while and then put them aside until later when I became smitten with becoming Solitaire; a character played by Jane Seymour in Live and Let Die, which was a James Bond Movie. In it Solitaire is Priestess to a Voodoo/Houdon sect, she foresees events using Tarot cards and of course becomes the main love interest for Bond. While I didn’t see myself as being the love interest for Bond, I did have a desire to become able to foresee events through the Tarot, so I bought the Tarot of the Witches and tried my hardest to replicate her ways… Unsuccessfully…

 

 

It be further year before I would fulfil the role of Solitaire to a degree and then four years before I would go through my second awakening, and this paradigm shift would shake my very foundations and strip me of my self importance and take me back to basics. It was a massive awakening when I faced the possibility of death, I had to take responsibility for my own fate, and in the run up to the car hitting me, I experienced every reality and choice. Staying in the car, getting out and sitting on the embankment, crossing to the other side of the road and even getting out and trying to attract their attention. Needless to say I stayed in the car and experienced being thrown out of my body and then wrenched back into it after a matter of seconds. A huge gift of an experience (and one I wouldn’t ever like to repeat) but I raged against the gift for a long time and blamed everyone including myself. The trauma really stayed and hid in me for a great many moons and was responsible for my self destructive journey until eventually after experiencing a form of energetic rape, I broke the cycle.

Not long after breaking the cycle, I realised that the relationship that I was in, wasn’t healthy and that the lifestyle I had been leading was self sabotaging my happiness amongst other things and it took my best friend to point this out in the car at well after midnight as I was heading home from another night out. It took another year before things changed and I was summoned back into service, prior to my summons into service, the person I had been learning from had left, and I had neglected my spiritual studies in favour of a hedonistic lifestyle, partly I blamed the higher side for not protecting me, but also for protecting me and teaching me the biggest lesson that I would not understand for some years…

 

 

Returning to service brought a cycle to an end because I spent time learning in Spiritual churches, faithfully being a member of the National Union of Spiritualists and not only one but two churches, until I realised that all I was giving was money and I wasn’t receiving anything in return, it became obvious that the same cycle of bullying, bitching and unspiritual like behaviours also occurred in this movement and it was happenstance that brought it to light, I had my own shop unit in the city and worked very hard to keep it afloat for a year and a half, during this time as a member of the main spiritual church in the city, I overheard and then was confronted with hypocrisy at its best. It amounted to being very open about my line of work and being told that as a spiritual member of the church I shouldn’t be openly working in the public domain… It wasn’t long before I left, but I would have two more dealings with that church one taught me about my abilities and the other opened the door to my platform work.

 

 

Since starting this journey and learning all that I have whether it has been through working with others or being taught by the highest side of life, I have come to understand that all of these experiences have been gifts of awakening, the paradigm shifts from within my consciousness have been true awakenings of the Kundalini, the compassionate action of Karuna, the experiential knowledge of the Muni-Qi and the reconnection to the Angelic energies and the stability of the Usui Ways of Reiki. The integration and awakening through de-armouring has reconnected all part of me and at some point I have come into the knowledge that this is my last lifetime having a human experience. I have found that this last few weeks have been a serious challenge but I also realise that I have in process.

As I come into the latter half of 2017, I am preparing to put all my skills into use, I am getting ready to finalise many of the skills I have learnt in massage, round off my skills in Chinese Medicine, and also start preparing the next phase of not only my business but my career as well. This is what it means for me at least to start living within Sacred Possibilities; I’m quite content to continue manifesting my life as it is, you see this is the bit that took me twenty plus years to learn and come to terms with, I manifested the biggest lesson, my car accident was something I needed to go through in order to force change, otherwise I would have been on a path of self destruction and most likely succeeded…

 

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Reiki Blog Hop – When Letting Go is Hard to Do… 4

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It’s funny how I always seem to adopt a different tone when I do this blog hop compared to the Tarot Blog Hop it’s not that I don’t treat it seriously because believe me I do, I just have a completely different approach to tarot, maybe because I have worked with it so long, we’ve got to a point where I give just as much attitude as I get from the 100+ decks I have in my collection. There again maybe its just with Reiki, I live within the possibilities of endless wonder.

 

This month our reiki cat herder and resident wrangler Joy, has brought up the topic of letting go and to be fair, I almost let go of the drink in my mouth upon reading the topic. I believe my actual comment was something along the lines of “…gees have you guys been scrying in your coffee and seeing my life this last two weeks??? I have a novel waiting for this one… followed later with something like “…seriously I think I have now reach my fifth volume for this post… in all fairness to this post, we’re looking at a sixth volume at this point.

 

I chose to let go of some of my weight I had been carrying, I chose to let to of just being engaged and entered into an unconventional but completely legal marriage… twice… I chose to let go of who I believed myself to be and in the process of a full weekend discovered who I actually was, I have been placed into a position where I have had to let go of a pedestal and discover the heart (and to an extent soul) of a person that I had a lot of respect for and I have also chosen to let go of inherited ancestral baggage as well as help other let go of theirs.

 

WhoisThere is no doubt in my mind though that I still have work to do, the process of letting go, this shedding continues throughout life, it doesn’t just suddenly stop one day. One of the most liberating things you can ever do is to surrender to the natural flow of reiki, its not like science, it’s not a text book method or a one-size fits all; yes! Reiki, is Reiki, is and always will be Reiki, no matter how much window dressing like words, symbols or mystical babble that gets created, at the end of the day it comes back to the fact its Reiki.

 

When you really look into Reiki, its history, its cultural heritage and even the language and philosophy of it; there is at the core of it, one blissful reality; Reiki is simple. Regardless of which history you read there is a point where the symbols, their meaning, their origins and purpose are discussed. Depending on which history you read will affect how you relate to the symbols and their function, meaning, origin and also purpose both functionally and beyond that function.

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The most common one I find difficulty with is the traditional Kanji, there is really odd debate about it not being correct and yet this is the one that actually defines Reiki at its most traditional, because it is the one that Usui-Sensei taught (allegedly just to be safe and not cause that much offense). My main sense about this is that as soon as it was brought over into the Western world, because there is so much mis-information and dis-trust between East and West, those that chose to bring it here (regardless of reasons) they decided to make it palatable for us so took out any spiritual or mystic reference and created what is mostly out there today.

 

However, as tourism and curiosity about other cultures took hold, we started to become more inquisitive and now we have more information than we really know what to do with, so where do you let go and just forge your own path? This is exactly the point that I am at; 2016 has been a phenomenal year of transformation for me. It has also been an almost full circle too; recently I charted my progress in terms of my certificated knowledge, meaning the colleges, universities and also masters and courses that I have done throughout my life. I am tempted to forego the laborious process of writing them all out, but no! At least not this time, this is about letting go and that can be seen in two ways, the release of the bad but also the releasing of knowledge, and information and let’s face it; how much do you really know about me?

 

WhoisNot that much I would imagine; Since 1998 I have studied: Media Skills, Hairdressing, Communications, Computing, Crystal Therapy, Character Analysis, Parapsychology, Numerology, Journal Therapy, Psychology of Self, Dream Analysis, Meditation Teacher, Tarot Card & Cartomancy, Counselling Skills, Spiritual Healing, Creative Writing, Wicca, Usui Reiki Level I, II and Masters, Angelic Reiki Practitioners, Masters and Teachers, Astrology, Angel Healing, Kundalini Reiki, Karuna Reiki, Gold Reiki, Shamballa MDH Reiki and I’m also studying Massage Diploma, Advance Crystal Healing and Chinese Massage & Accupressure.

 

The interesting thing about this year is while I am happy to have typed all of that out, I also release it; I have an entire alphabet after my name these days, but they aren’t me, they are what shaped me. I build my own computers, design a lot of my own logo/graphics – although admittedly these ones I am using are a gift from a friend good friend of mine – this year I have also learnt about de-armouring work, ancestral healing and I have also learnt a very valuable lesson about hero-worship and pedestals.

 

Throughout my reiki journey, I have heard the same message over and over again, ‘there is enough room for reiki practitioners, we’re all one big family, there is no competition, we all help each other…’ Let that one go! It’s said by those who are in a position where they have a stable client base and been in business for a while. They’ve got nothing to be concerned about and further they really don’t see anyone they are teaching as a threat, they also have another part to their business and Reiki is just apart of it. Since branching off into different areas of Reiki, I truly didn’t see there was any dark side to it, until I stopped looking at things from the higher side perspective.

 

You see when you take it into the physical, factor in living, money and running a business; it is highly competitive and there is no big Reiki family, in the past month alone I have been called uncaring, I have been told that the only reason I am even contemplating some of my business ideas is because I am coming from a place of ego, money or stealing students. It’s not in my nature to be any of those things, so it says more about the person saying this than me.

 

While I care about what is said about me, I also know that I am not that person being described; it is a view point coming from where that person is in their life. However it makes me realise that I have that skill set and I know that I am able to do that work, facilitate and bring new practitioners of Reiki, any Reiki into awakening and maybe its time to just stop trying to living within this world, where people and reiki are meant to be at a higher vibration, to be awakened in their own way; its clear to me that many are only coming from their own place, and at some point they have stopped being present and in their bodies to hear the message that is being broadcast within the silence.

 

“Reiki is Simple” “Reiki is Light!” “Reiki is Perfect Love!” This energy is a mirror, its a guide and it is a gift. Every person that has ever done Reiki, has been given an amazing gift, its set them on their pathway, from Shaman, Witch, Master, Practitioner, Facilitator, Devi/Deva and all the inbetweens. Reiki holds up a mirror, and says look at where you are, where you need to be and where you want to go… Reiki is Reiki is Reiki… and sometimes you just really need to let go of who you think you are, where you think you are and what you believe you are and simply be…

 

Thanks for stopping by this months entry on the Reiki blog hop. Please feel free to leave me a comment on here or on Facebook if you have trouble with my comments page

 

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Exploring the I Am Power

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Over this weekend I was invited (albeit) last minute on to Sacred Touch De-Armouring Level 1 Workshop, what had drawn me to the work has been a threefold combination of personal feeling, professional advancement and then something else that is actually neither of them and more to do with the work I have been doing with myself since around 2013. The trouble with actually explaining this work is exactly that, I am explaining and giving the explanation more power than it really needs, it’s a bit like an author writing their autobiography, and getting caught up in the minutiae of their story and what I am attempting (a bit poorly perhaps) to do is not actually get you caught up in that (but unintentionally doing just that).

 

I will get to why this is important in a second, but for now let’s stay with this point, with regards to the story and for once let me take it the personal for this explanation. I realised somewhere between yesterday and today I have been a bit like a tourist trying to fit in when dealing with social situations. I use words to attempt to impress, to fill in the moments and even use them too much because there was at that time a need for me to I guess prove something or deflect something, however I think maybe it could be both. At the end of the day that is semantics and that isn’t really needed nor is it the point, the whole point is I used words as an effective (from where I was at that time) shield, it wasn’t a craving to have power from anyone but it was to prevent someone stealing that power from me… but also I was being a voyeur upon the whole experience and interaction.

 

However today and this morning in particular is when I realised that up until that point there had been a form of subtle toleration of my voyeur and the best way to describe it a kind of humouring of tourist ways trying to impress, trying to fit in (so to speak) and then in one sentence and in one moment that was thrown back at me, the words were reflected back and I did not like that one bit. It’s hard to see that come back at you, it feels so raw and not welcomed but at the same time it was needed and what was required.

 

It sent the tourist and the voyeur packing and then there was quite literally just me; well the me aspect and that had no place to hide, it was either going to revert and recoil into the tourist in which case, it was time to move the car out and go to the beach and sulk, throwing out blame to the sea and claiming that I had just lost out on money, time and blah, blah, blah… In other word excuses, with more excuses on top of hey let’s go buy some crystals or let’s go find a place that sells tarot cards and buy them; or it was time to step up and confront.

 

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The ‘I Am’ (which is the really the only way to describe this feeling) pushed the rest, the me part into staying and forcing all the issues to the surface. To the point that my healing process my integration of ‘I AM’ means that for now I have to lose my voice, I am have to lose the power of word play until I am ready to use language and words correctly and properly. Only then will I regain the voice that the I AM is meant to have.

 

So you see now I am in a position where I have no ability to weave a story or use more words than is needed. Even now as I am typing this piece up I am deciding on the best choice of language, tone and word so that there is no ‘story’ there just is the account from me to you the reader of the experience of transformation the De-Armouring and in particular Sacred Touch De-Armouring actually has.

 

Now don’t get me wrong, my inner editor is having a field day; the inner editor is actually me but when you have a dis-association with words and how to actually use them effectively, which is really what dyslexia is and when you don’t know or rather at some point have realised it is easier not to engage with others, which is where my triggers are for the autism traits I have. (I am having a laugh at the moment because I almost fell into the author analogy from earlier there…) Anyway back to the matter at hand, the inner editor as I was saying is being content in the fact I am keeping it as simple as possible and direct as possible, which if you know me in real time, is a huge change for me.

 

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Okay so this work that I have been doing, it is personal/professional and it began in earnest around 2013, I did a lot of esoteric work not magic – well at least not in the conventional sense – more avant-garde than that, we’re talking about Akashic work, bringing home all the aspects that have been lost, we’re also talking about authentic self or true self. Trouble is when you start that journey, you are also having to bring home all the shadow-self aspects as well and being honest they aren’t nice.

 

When you begin no-one, well at least no-one I have encountered thus far is either willing to discuss or even open that door (for want of a better way to give it words) well until this weekend. Take it from me in all honesty right now you have no idea how much I want to stop writing this but it is needed because it is part of my process, my dharma, catharsis or process – they are really all words that mean the exact same thing, and I am checking in with the ‘I AM’ or the ‘I’ every few moments as this unfolds, even taking a break from the page and coming back to it has worked.

 

To explain the shadow-self has had many names, has had many descriptions but it is still all to do with you, all the contracts you make with daemons, dark forces, elementals and aliens. The contracts you create or forge within the past life (regardless of incarnation) it all still centres and connects to you. Shamans, Wise Women, Seers, Channellers, Sensitives and so on have all encountered the shadow-self in all its forms over the generations and dealt with the baggage, sent it back into the void of all possibilities or back into the time frame it belongs, sometimes they negate it and I feel that this is what was happening with me all through the weekend.

 

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Having been through it, the negation, the release back into the void and even a rescue release into the higher side as well through the weekend has changed me, helped me to reclaim my own power and not only embrace but actually release the need to explain what I know without the need to question or attach anything to it now, when you work with me, you are working with one of the oldest souls. However until today I would have felt as if that needed story, explanation or the tourist/voyeur approach; now I will explain it, answer any question you may have with regards to that but at the end, what you do with that answer, is your own choice. I will have moved on within 90 seconds of giving you what you need.

 

Right so let’s pick up something that I said about two paragraphs ago; I said that no-one that I have encountered thus far is willing to discuss or open the door to that discussion… What I mean by this is more coming from a sense, a new found sense at that. Authors (nothing against them) and Founders of systems that are bringing in ways to reclaim and release or work within the akashic records are doing good work but at the same time they are opening the way for the shadow-self stuff to come back in and without proper explanation or even guidance (again not the right word but it’s close enough) it can take up residence and create a co-habitation or co-dependency relationship and you may not even be aware.

 

Now this new found sense of things (rightly or wrongly) tells me that this is not new but old ways that the ancestors recognised and knew how to deal with it because the knowledge was already there, the collective or universal mind (touched on something there that wasn’t ready to be expressed but it’s dealt with) already had that knowing. This world well the part of it I inhabit has long since forgotten about the collective knowledge, yes at times it surfaces and we feel it but effectively it’s being drowned out.

 

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Authors and Founders don’t know or if that information is there it is being edited out to make the books sellable to a mass market. Sacred De-Armouring on the other hand, isn’t about making it sellable, palatable, there are no authors, tourists or voyeurs, there is only you. The shadow-self gets love, the parts that aren’t to do with you get negated and at the end there is only you. What you go through to get to that can be, well it honestly hasn’t got words it is experienced.

 

De-Armouring is not for everyone, mainly because my sense tells me that not everyone has that journey to take but it is a worthwhile experience to have regardless of journey. I don’t know (at least right now) how I am meant to work with it, but that is more to do with space than to do with me being ready. However my senses tell me that given the space circumstances it may chose to manifest or evolve into toning through voice, ting-shaws or singing bowl, it might be holding sacred space and that it just the tip of the iceberg known as possibilities, what I feel and I know without doubting it is De-Armouring has a place within my work. There are three known certainties for me: I know that it will be within my massage work, I know that it will be in my Angelic Reiki Work (touched on within the Practitioners but it will be within the Masters) and I know that when I need to I will go back to do more work with it for myself as well.

 

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It has been a true honour to have you read this journey, I just want you the reader to know that this has been apart of my dharma, catharsis or process, it is whichever word you feel resonates with you as you have read this. I do not mind answering any questions, replying to feedback in the positive or the negative. Just realise that your words are your own, they don’t have an effect on what I have shared, they will not hurt or insult me because I experienced this first hand, your are just reading what I needed express.

Namaste