Tarot Blog Hop – Questioning Time 11

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As Time Goes By…


Okay let’s do the customary introductions first… Joy Vernon of Completely Joyous inspired this month, which in a nutshell is the relationship between Magic (or Magik) and Tarot. This is a challenge for me but instead of running or opting out of from the challenge I have decided to take it onboard and feel my way through it from my own unique vantage point.


If you haven’t ‘hopped’ with me before, then welcome; let me briefly explain about this: A hop is a group of unique and experienced people who write, blog or work with tarot as part of their every day lives. We come together at a set time and the wrangler, cat herder and juggler of unusually pointy objects that keep exploding, sets the topic, which the rest of us end up insanely writing about at the last second. This time (and probably wisely done) I am the last, so you’ll end up at the start again when you use the Next Blog at the top or bottom of this post…


This topic presents a rather interesting challenge, one that I am not even sure I can fully explore; I really don’t see the Tarot as most do, I rarely pay attention to the conventions, the wyrd or even the astrological, mythological or alchemical elements to the tarot; those are only useful if you have a connection or relationship to them already, through study or background. They can bog you down in the minutiae details, just as much as they can enhance the reading. What is the point in knowing you have an aires in the spread if the other person hasn’t a clue about astrology, or where would be the point in telling someone don’t get involved with a situation where you have someone that is very much a hero with a weakness like Achilles, when they’ve never read or studied mythology?


It’s not that these things aren’t relevant because they are, for the one giving the reading; using these references it allows us to explain that someone who has a very powerful but focused attention may not be the best person to be around, if you aren’t able to keep up with them and they’re not willing to see they’re own flaws. Just as its better to be careful when dealing with people in power or people that are only interested in stepping on others, because to show them your weakness, your soft point only makes you their next target.


My ability to ‘step into death’ was a phrase coined by for want of a better word, a mentor. When it was first used I realised that this is what happens when a medium like myself transcends the confines of fear. It’s okay to step into death and communicate with those that are on the other side of the this veil, I have been here before countless times in other lives and also a few times in this; so to stand in this place and welcome the love from the other side is a bit like magic, it gives those that I work with peace and proof. The tarot factors into this as well, because like stepping into death, I am able to become a mirror, able to sense who this person is and see it reflected within the card dealt by them.


The solutions then begin to present and unveil themselves, the more my client shows up. As the mirror I already know that this is what is happening because I feel it and reflect it. Again this is my magic and several moons ago now, I let go of lables. I let go of attempting to make sense of what this is. I have given it many names and none fit; Witch, Mage, Wiccan, Pagan and Celt, none of these fit. Mystic, Oracle, Medium, Clairvoyant; again none of them fit…


I wonder sometimes if I am maybe a Shaman, even though I have had no formal Shaman training; and this feels wrong because it is older than Shamanism, perhaps I should reconsider and consider this way of being Delphi’s Gift, a Celt/Pagan Oracle Wiseman; you see none of these fit, they are either too tight or too loose. Thing is maybe it doesn’t have a name or a title because where this comes from it didn’t need one, there wasn’t a need to give this a lable.


All I do know is that it extends beyond Tarot, gave birth to the concept of Medium, who it turn helped to nurture the Wytch, who then extended the family and adopted the odd Clairvoyant. It allows me to help, heal and bring home those that need to come home, but most of all it means that I get to show up every day and its never dull…

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Tarot Blog Hop – A Wrong Turn at Delphi… 18

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… That’s when you know it’s time surrender to the flow …


I keep thinking to myself, it’s fine; in fact it is perfect, everything will work out and here I am on the day of the blog hop and I am running late. Not intentionally though, its a technological thing (yet again)… I have this love/hate relationship with technology, when it works, it works amazingly and when it doesn’t… Well you’ve heard what happened to the dinosaurs.


Whether you are familiar with blog hopping, blogging or if you are just joining in for the first time, then welcome to the chaos that is my contribution to this month. A hop if you are not familiar with this; it is a group of writers and bloggers coming together on a singular subject and exploring it from their point of view; we then link to one anothers blog (albeit earlier than originally planned) and thus the hop is birthed (prematurely and late birth for this one… wyrd huh?).


This was meant to be about the Aces, but I swear the Oh Gods of Technology and the Delphi Oracles, have other plans for this one, and yet even as I sit here and allow the flow to just take over, I get the sense of the Aces playing their part. However they’re not playing an active role in this, they’re on the side lines so to speak, sheltered by everything else. The rest of the suits and the major cards as well are forefront again playing the part of the protector.


When you have the Aces present, what do they make you think about, for me the directions and the quarters. Now here is where it all goes chaotic, which one belongs where? For me Wood burns, therefore The Ace of Clubs would be Fire, A Sword cuts Air, therefore for the Ace of Swords would be Air, Pentacles, are metalic and made of earthly materials and so the Ace of Pentacles (Coins in some decks) would be Earth, leaving the Cups, holding water so therefore the Ace of Cups would be Water.


I would argue that this makes absolute perfect sense, I would say that my understanding is right; but then I would. It can be argued that Swords represent Fire, Batons/Clubs represent Air and the other two would be fine as they are, but then this argument would be right, I would be wrong and so would my understanding, but then it would be right… and so would I. It depends on how you came into Tarot, it depends on where you learnt those skills; neither one is wrong, just as neither one is absolutely right.


Recently there has been a spate of click-bate, misinformation, fake-news and ‘alternative facts’ it’s about seperation and fear; it’s about who controls who, and it’s about placing us where others feel we need to be placed and ultimately it comes down to power. I have tried several times to ride the currents of the collective and get a sense of where things are going but I swear I keep taking a wrong turn at Delphi, I keep sensing the Ten’s of each Suit, doing a Wheel of Fortuna and sending me back to the start again.


That’s when I started to realise that I just need to stop, it’s when you start ending up back at where you started that you know its time to surrender to the flow. Simply let the eddies and the current take you where is needed, not where is wanted. It’s the only way to be…


So yeah this has been my blog hop experience, don’t forget to leave me a comment (even if it does say about time or better later than never)…


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Movement of Light & Shadow – Tarot Blog Hop 8

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Welcome to the Tarot Blog Hop for December, this month is a little different for me; as I am having to work at the time it has gone live. Therefore I have done a Vblog or a Video Blog. It is a little unconventional I grant you, and it was ‘fun’ trying to put together, which believe me is a post all of its own on the peril and pearls that come from outdated technology.
Firstly huge shout out to each of the Wranglers for this year, Joanne Sprott, Louise Underhill, Arwen Lynch Poe, Aisling the Bard, Morgan Drake Eckstein, Karen Sealey, Ania Marczyk, Joy Vernon, and not forgetting myself in this as well. Now as you know the blog hop is a bit like a round robin or a wytches circle, in that there is no end and no real start either, simply a group of dedicated bloggers, writers and also Vbloggers, discussing tarot, oracle or runes cards as you’ll find in the video. There is a theme to the month and this one was thought up by Joanne Sprott.

Going back to the Dark Side, the Hidden Realm beneath the autumn leaves and the snow. It’s time to dig…


Well I hope that my entry has been of interest and you’ve managed to watch through it all, have a great hop and please feel free to leave me a comment in the positive, negative or neutral as every bit of feedback helps me and the likes of me to do more of the same (and different).


Walking with the Ancestors 16

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Welcome to the Samhain Tarot Blog Hop;


Hello, welcome, don’t stand there on ceremony or give me that critical eye thing; you should be familiar with my ways by now. Ah so your new to this that’s okay; honesty just put your deck down over there for a few, hang up your broom over there by the door and grab some left overs from last months Blog hop, they’re fresh out the time portal. Tonight is about honouring the ancestors after all its Samhain, All Hallows or Día de Muertos, if you happen to speak Spanish or come from Mexico.


This is my time of the year (except maybe for driving in the dark), there is a chill to the air, you know the snow or at the very least the frost and ice is about to start forming and let’s face it, the spooks and ghouls (oh and freaky fools) start to wake up. This time around I don’t have any plans that can go awry but I know that it’s important to follow this one through, because not only will it be relevant to the Blog Hop but I also sense that its going to be honest, revealing and mildly sentimental. So if its not you thing or you feel that you may end up doing a disservice to your ancestors and mine with you comments, then maybe best to just skip ahead.

WhoisMeet my family, this is dad, mum and me; hubby is the one taking the photo. Dad’s been with the ancestors now for going on five years. He was terminally ill with a progressively degenerative condition known as MSA (Multiple System Atrophy) and it was just all to do with when he was ready to let go and return home. My family was and still is awesome, a bit crazed at times, disjointed and touched or tainted (really depends on how you look at it). Dad in his own way was empathic and the other side (meaning mum’s), well I am convinced that my grandma coming from fishing folk (so I’m told) was a seer, she would do the tea leaf readings and the palms for folks but stopped when she witnessed/foresaw my aunt in an accident.

Thing is all that had to end up somewhere, so it chose me or rather I believe I chose it. All through my life cycle this time around it’s been in the background and then one day it decided to get acquainted with me and well since then it’s been nonstop. I will get to that, there is something that I need to deal with first…

I think what brought home this year to me was getting married, it changed and yet expanded my life in ways I really didn’t think was possible. Two words within a sentence and suddenly I have a whole new set of ancestors that I didn’t even know in my life, which is massively wyrd when you have a great uncle and a ancestral king from a family you’ve known a little bit about and now suddenly they want to tell you their story in dream-o-vision, complete with bloody murder and up close and personal madness.

WhoisHowever I have learnt to deal with death; both the card and the moment of death. You see I have felt the passing and witnessed the passing of more than one member of the family line, it’s odd because the sense of peace and beauty that comes from it, the understanding and complete knowledge that you obtain from being the witness is, well it has no words. The picture here is of my father-in-law, husband, myself and my mum; I felt my father-in-law pass to the higher side of life, it began the day he made peace with his son.

It is a personally held belief of mine that some moments are sacred and only meant to be witnessed by the family themselves. Without needing to be in that room, I knew that everything they needed to say, all the moments that needed to be, happened in that room and then when it was done, my father-in-law had decided there was no more needing done and chose to meet his wife, my dad and all the others that wait beyond the veil for us. I do think there is a beauty in that; we may not get to decide how we are going to exit, but at least once its happened, there is some solace in the knowledge we’ll be made welcome…

tarotThis weekend I went on an ancestral healing workshop, a lot happened on the workshop and I was able to witness a great deal, work with the tools that we learnt but I also connected with all four of the family lines; my dad’s, mum’s, hubby’s and also my past lives; the part I am glad about is none of the lines needed to have it out with me or me with them. I seem to have a healthy respect for all of them and know I can call on them when I need to as well.

This started me thinking in terms of Tarot, maybe it is possible to help clear the past using the representations presented in the cards, we have plenty of archetypes to work with from Hierophant as the grandfather to the Emperor as the father, but is there a Grandmother figure within the traditional deck? The mother is represented as the Empress, the daughter as the High Priestess, with the Star as the virginal sister. The fool the son and the Magician the brother, but where do you find the Grandmother? Originally I thought it may have been The World, but thinking about it this can have too many representations. I know that a lot of it depends on the deck but I am just thinking of the general rule for the major deck as it was in the like of rider-waite or the IJJ Swiss.

I have a varied family tree and my past lives are certainly very interesting and there is a wealth of understanding and knowledge within them that they allow me to access when it’s needed. Having learnt from my Grandma on Mums side how to read not only cards but also tea as well as the Crystal Ball, mainly from the spirit side than here on the physical, plus learning to come into alignment with the empathy and sense of things as I have, I have come to realise that being a seer or oracle is not to be taken lightly. The more I write (and yes edit) this I am not sure that I would use a Tarot deck to help heal wounds of the past, mainly because one set of grumpy ancestors is enough but an entire spirit world of them, no thanks! 


A huge thanks and shout to our Cat Herder and Blog Wrangler Louise for this idea, do leave me a thought, a comment or a WTF if you feel like it and enjoy the rest of the tour, don’t forget your deck, your broom and great uncle bulgaria’s map of the internet in binary for the blind on your way out… 

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Tarot Blog Hop Master List 2

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Welcome to the Mabon Tarot Blog Hop;


My name is Jay Cassels and I am your Chef and Cat Herder Extraordinaire for the hop. This is the Master List or Recipe Book, it is the “Don’t Panic” of the Hitchhikers Guide to the Tarot Blog… In other words it’s a good place to come back to if you end up getting lost when you’re reading the blogs; the order has been created from the sign up list on the Facebook Group (if that is how you arrived here).


If you are new to the Blog Hop Scene and are a member of the group there is an amazing FAQ guide on the group that explains the whole concept so it is worthwhile finding that post/document and having a read. Okay so below this passage of text you will find the shuffled list and both above as below (a nod to all the witches, pagans and heathens out there) you will find the links to the blogs.


As this is the master list, the next blog link will start you at the first blog and as you may have guessed the Previous link takes you to the last blog on the shuffled list, which is my own.


If you spot any issues with this master list, I would ask you to highlight them in the Facebook Group, as you flick through and read each of the fantastic treats and delights on offer this month, don’t forget to tip the chef with your comments, and if you like what you see then why not spread the word so that others can sample what you have.


May your ingredients be fresh and your seasoning spicy

Jay Cassels


Mabon 2016 Tarot Hop Blog List

7. Meniscus Tarot (by Ania M) | http://meniscustarot.co.uk/for-the-love-of/
16. Benebell Wen | http://wp.me/p32or0-1Ui

The Tao of Tarot… 13

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Yin-YangIt’s that time again! Herding cats, broken links, education and all in all a good time; I have the accompaniment of Tori Amos as I get started on my third blog hop post. If you haven’t heard of a Blog Hop, it’s okay you may know it as a Writers Circle or similar, the word hop in some places meant a dance or gathering. Either way it is a place where like minds join and write about a topic of choice. We have a shepherd or herder of cats, who keeps a master list of everyone involved.
The topic of this month’s was a choice of two…
A) Find a card that represents, to you, more than one of the four elemental energies, specifically two which might be thought of as “opposites”. I think, when I say this, of the way that we have such varied interpretations of wands and swords, depending on which is fire and which is air….but, is there a case that could be made for a single card being both? Such a concept of a card being “two things at once” is usable in any of the suits, depending on one’s understanding of the connection with elemental energies. It isn’t necessary for the two elements to directly be sourced opposite one another in any concept of directional alignments, but as you discuss the card, make sure you are evaluating its connection to two opposite characteristics of the tool or being represented on the card.

B) Find a pair of cards which work as a unit but represent two opposite views of the same situation. They both may be in the same suit or in two different suits, one may be major and one minor arcana, but if one were to receive both these cards in a reading, how would one represent the opposing energies thereof as they apply to the same situation?

… Never known me to do what I was told …


The Tao of Tarot

The-MagicianSince this was announced as the topic I have struggled to find the words that fit, well it is a bit more than that it got me thinking about the whole world of Tarot and how its become a convoluted mess, you have the traditional decks and then these psudeo-decks as well; now don’t misunderstand me, I have nothing against them, I just wouldn’t call some of them Tarot, the reason being is they are actually more Oracle based than Tarot, so right away I can see there is scope for expansion in what we’ve been asked. As I said I don’t have anything against them, I just don’t feel they are tarot.
It’s true I have never really known me to do what I was told, I always seem to head off on paths uncharted, not unlike the Magician, he’s old enough to take care but young enough to go off on an adventure to see where it takes him and it is the very same with me and my thought trains. You would think that I would have a male and female comparative since I am following the contrast of Yin and Yang, but at the moment I don’t think there is a Yin (female) card off the top of my head asides from the Queen, but believe me when I say there are times when I can outmatch all four queens in the deck and today is one of them, so I think the closest match for this Yin and Yang balance is The Hermit.

… Wisdom teaches tolerance but …

The-HermitToday while I was prepping for writing this up, I realised that one of the major battles I have been having since really coming into my own sense of self is that Tarot has become fluffy. Not the art of it but the decks, authors just seem to push out these really fluffy decks as if we’re going to become offended by some of them, I can name three major cards and several minor cards that could instantly evoke offense but the thing is that they are apart of Tarot History. They were developed during a major upheaval in world history, the word arcane means record of ancient knowledge, so not only do the Tarot depict events through history but they are a record of the changes our world has been through.
Wisdom teaches tolerance but today, my wisdom is teaching me to take a very large kipper, dip it in water and then attach the words “Stop It” … This is where my Hermit card comes out, wise enough to know when to say nothing, but old enough not to care and say it anyway. I find that there is no balance of late, well not where I am from anyway, many of the decks I have seen are fluffy, let me hold you hand and tell you everything is going to be fine… Whereas the true tarot decks tend to be more, You’ve frelled up, it’s one big messy pile of poo-doo and you’re gonna have to clear it up, but here are the things you are going to need to make sure it’s cleaned up properly.
StrengthThe way I see things at the moment are a bit less fluffy and more realistic, Tarot is an amazing tool, tells you exactly what you need to hear at the right time and in the most direct way in other words it’s the Yang balance. These pseudo-tarot decks or more akin to Oracle decks are more Yin balance. They have the gentle and soft approach to things, where they cushion the blow, it’s as if they are saying, oops look you made a mess of things, but hey that’s okay, in fact its fine. Here is a cookie, and some milk, and don’t worry petal, let’s look at the lovely clouds all pink and fluffy. Now while you are looking at them, forgive yourself and the mess. There isn’t that lovely? Fix the mess? Oh no dearest, I don’t fix your mess, I just tell you how lovely things are…
Well okay maybe slightly overkill there but you kind of get the point; I just really need to stress this point here, I do not have anything against them… In fact as a collector I have many, MANY variants of these decks, and they have a purpose, most of them are doorstops but it’s a purpose… Tao is very much about the balance and these stark contrasts are the balance of Tarot, you can’t really have one without the other and they actually service a purpose for the user because some don’t want to face the realities of the Tarot Decks of old, they prefer the fluffy bunny approach where angels are going to give you sonnets, and words of comfort, it’s not as if Angels have ever had to smite, topple towers or evict one of their own now it is… Oh wait… My bad, yeah they have…

Cards of Balance…


… Balance within All things is Important …

LoversWithin the Tarot it’s important to have balance, true it can be said for all aspects of life but in Tarot there really does need to be a balanced approach and I can’t think of two cards that are more apt and to do with the balance than in the Major Arcana, minor cards have their balances as well but my approach with the minor suits is they re-enforce what the Major cards have already told you. In terms of writing, the minor deck are the character and the major deck is the narrative or the plot. Balance is never more so noticed than within the lovers, you have the union of opposites within this card. The beauty of it is although it’s represented as male/female and most of the time they are man/woman it isn’t defining relationships unless that is the question stated.
It’s polarities the male/female, white/black, light/dark or positive/negative of any given situation, in other words it’s the yin and yang of a problem or situation. There is always one inside the other, which is the nature of the union. To understand and also resolve any situation you must be able to see both sides or at least be able to understand perspectives in order to reach a conclusion and resolution that is best suited to any given situation. That is why Tarot has to have a balanced approach to it and the questions asked.

Move along home…


… Direct can be uncomfortable …

Wheel of FortuneThe Wheel is the counter-balance or the nature of things. I tend to see it as the completed union of opposites and in that the wheel turns to like nature it doesn’t stay static and much like this post has been The Wheel can be direct and direct can be uncomfortable, at times I am quite blunt and forward its part a change within me where I have stopped with the ‘story’ or ‘explanations’ when they are not needed and it is also a dyslexia thing too, I hope this hasn’t been too hard to read.
Still you have made it to the end of the post and now its time to as they say move along home, below as above are links to the next blog in the hop. Thank you for stopping in on me 🙂
Jay x


Self Reflective Tarot

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XI – The Hermit (Röhrig Tarot)


One of the first lessons that I did when I started looking into the Magikal/Esoteric side of the Tarot was to find myself. It’s not quite a shamanic journey into the soul and discover yourself but its locating the path of energy and karma that connects you to the moment and the world/universe at this time. As self study goes it can be quite profound and for the most part the card never actually changes, true other cards connecting you to your karma and pathway of the moment may get added but the core card remains the same.

Osho Zen TarotI tried the same thing in different decks the same thing happened, the same type of card and meaning seemed to follow me; The Osho it was ‘The Master’ and in the Röhrig Tarot it was ‘The Hermit’ and in The Witches Tarot its ‘The Seeker’ interestingly the only time it was numerlogically a ‘9’ was Osho, but the more I learn about the Eastern aspects, the more I start to see why it wouldn’t be that number.

The Hermit’s meaning when you look it up in the books says ” The traditional hermit is a crusty, bearded character who has withdrawn from the company of men to live a life of seclusion and hardship. Card 9 supports this understanding. The Hermit represents the desire to turn away from the getting and spending of society to focus on the inner world. He seeks answers within and knows that they will come only with quiet and solitude.

There comes a point in life when we begin to question the obvious. We sense that there is a deeper reality and begin to search for it. This is mainly a solitary quest because answers do not lie in the external world, but in ourselves. The hermit on Card 9 reminds us of Diogenes, the Greek ascetic who is said to have gone out with a lantern in hand to search for an honest man. Diogenes is a symbol of the search for truth that the Hermit hopes to uncover by stripping away all diversions.

In readings, the Hermit often suggests a need for time alone – a period of reflection when distractions are limited. In times of action and high energy, he stands for the still center that must be created for balance. He can also indicate that withdrawal or retreat is advised for the moment. In addition, the Hermit can represent seeking of all kinds, especially for deeper understanding or the truth of a situation. “Seek, and ye shall find,” we have been told, and so the Hermit stands for guidance as well. We can receive help from wise teachers, and, in turn, help others as we progress.

Witches Tarot - The SeekerThis card is Destiny, there is no question in my mind that is what this card represents and to embrace exactly what Destiny offers is to take ownership of your own energy and be able to say that you dictate what is going to happen to you. True we are influenced by our stars, other people and the cosmic order of things but at the end of the day, it is our own choice to set whatever ball is on top of our hill into motion. It is not fair to put the blame on to someone else or say it is circumstances, but track it back it is always you, you are involved in the situation, you are involved when sometime bad begins and its you that can make the choice to end that cycle of bad by walking away or taking action to change it.

That is not to say that someone else isn’t at fault, they can be and in some of the more serious circumstances they are and should be held accountable as well as punished when the situation calls for that to be the case. However it still comes back to you/us to end that cycle. Destiny is fickle and it never pans out the way we assume its going to; however taking ownership of that karma and that energy puts you in control and you can change the intention and outcome for the better, well that is my take on it anyway.

Tarot Blog Hop – May You find Some Comfort Here 19

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Welcome to the Metaphysical Angels Blog; all my blog posts both current and yet to come relate in some way to my work and interests, participating in a Blog hop is one way to do that very thing. If you haven’t come across a Blog hop before that’s okay because I am going to take a few moments before getting into the topic for this month to explain exactly what a Blog Hop actually is.

What is a Blog Hop?

Okay so a Blog Hop is a new name for something that has been around for as long as I have written journals, it is basically like a writer’s circle or in this case a group of like minded people coming together to give their take on a set subject. You get all kinds of Hops, such as a Reiki Blog Hop, which is another one that I participate in.

A Little Bit about Me…

My name is Jay, I have been working with Tarot for 25 years and for those of you good with figures, yes, yes that’s right since I was 16. These days when I reflect back to that time I believe it was always going to be my path to end up working with the Tarot, back then I would never have thought that I would become a collector, historian and Cartomancer. I actually still have my very first deck. I remember vividly how the journey began and it actually ties into the title of this post aptly…

May You find Some Comfort Here…

Picture it May 1991, a skinny bloke, long blonde hair, blue eyes; a total loner sitting up the back of the canteen at his local college annex; shuffling a deck of Mythic Tarot Deck… Yep that’s right me! Up until this point I had been studying the cards and had learnt a great deal of their history, done a project on them for the college course and basically had made them my hobby, passion and soon to be life.

Let’s Look at the Past…

Now let me take you back a bit before I explain the relevance of the title, at 16 I had picked up an encyclopedia of the supernatural at the library and reading through it I saw a small excerpt on the Tarot it read…

Tarot Cards: A method of Divination and Fortune Telling; see IJJ Swiss Tarot for more information.

There was no where locally that I could get these fabled cards, so one weekend with my saved up money I went into the city and eventually found this shop called ‘Tam Shepherd’s Joke Shop’ in the cabinet at the door it had Tarot Cards amongst everything else and so in I went; nervous as hell I have to point out. Tam the owner really gave me a hard stare and asked me if I really was sure I wanted to buy this set. I was so keen and sacred at the same time and well as you will have guessed I bought them, so home I got opened this fabled set and they were in French!

That’s right, you read me correctly French! I failed my French at High School Level, I could barely string a sentence together in the language and here these cards as mystical and awesome as they were in French… Well I was crestfallen and kind of felt thwarted, no amount of reading the book was going to get me out of this one. So I read the book for what it was a book and I started just looking at the card for what they were, images.

I tried to read them for my Dad one night, I was right in the prediction; just got the timing wrong instead of being in the immediate future the prediction of his death happened 21 year later, (which is one of the reasons I won’t read for family or very close friends). At the time I thought it was an epic fail and I almost gave up but then I watched Live and Let Die, the James Bond film, and right there and then I wanted to be Solitaire.

As you can imagine off I went this time to pick up from Tam Shepherd’s the ‘Tarot of the Witches’ now I have to point out that this point I was still quite new to all of this and so I hadn’t a clue at that time that there were several decks bought in order to make those scene realistic, (I learnt about that later). So I tried and tried on the dining room table to create that layout and do the readings just as she had done them but again it didn’t exactly work out…

Now into the Past/Present

By this point in time I have bought my third deck, the Mythic Tarot and it was a fairly normal college day; it was lunch time and I was passing the time by myself with the cards, trying out spreads and really just getting a feel for them. I was a bit surprise and I guess a bit worried by the sudden shadow over my table; as I looked up I was greeted by this quite tall, dark haired lady, she had a tray in her hand and was staring at me.

I smiled at her and I was braced for all kinds of “Devil Worshiper, Tarot is Evil and so on” but instead she asked if she could sit down at the table. I agreed and well the conversation went a little like this:

“I hope you don’t mind me interrupting you, I have been watching you with the cards since the start of lunch and I felt drawn to come over and ask if you would read for me.”

“Read for you? I don’t do this professionally or anything I am only learning at the moment.” I replied back with sincere honesty

“That is okay, I really don’t mind; would you at least try?”

To this day I don’t know what made me say yes but I did. The reading is still vivid in my head because I used the Celtic cross spread and I alway remember that the first card was filled with a deep sadness and longing. I told her that it typically didn’t mean that because The empress was a card of joy, love and laughter; a motherly card in many ways.

the-high-priestessIt was the card that crossed the really struck a cord. The High Priestess, I stared at her for a good few moments and I then explained that this card represented someone that felt like she wasn’t here anymore but also still felt like she was here at the same time. I explained that from this card I got the sense that it was time to consider letting go and moving on; now at the time during the reading I had the impression that perhaps the daughter or someone like a daughter was connected, however that actually wasn’t the case.

After I completed the reading, the woman looked at me; now I have to admit I was braced for a bawling out, a slap or for her to storm off but instead she thanked me. She explained that her daughter had passed to the higher side of life five years ago on that day, she had been pretty much the way I had described and looked in the card; quiet, smart, intelligent and all the things someone of her age should be and then like that gone…

The woman said that her daughter had come through via the reading, had told her that she was fine and that it was time to move on and let go of the sadness that she had been holding on to. She looked at me with very sincere eyes that even to this day make me get a little misty when I reflect and said “Thank you for bringing me comfort and peace.” it was then she handed me some money and told me to get myself some lunch.

Could-a, Would-a, Should-a… Maybe?

I often recount this to my students when I mentor them to do with the Tarot, I explain that it isn’t about the meanings as they have been attributed by others to the cards, we don’t actually know for certain that these meanings we use today are accurate, so I say, use them as a guide; don’t follow them verbatim or as a script to stick to. Read the book or manual once or twice, look on line as well for information but at the end of the day, just put to the side.

I can image a few horror looks on faces right about now; there is a reason why I say this to my students and also why I am saying it now. The tarot is a reflection of us, our collective unconscious as well as traditional iconic images that we assign meaning to. Every person that we read for brings in their own story and their own energy and the cards tell us what is happening but if we stick to a prescribed format, using someone else’s meanings we are only parroting back another person’s words.

It may work but it also may not work, but listening to that inner instinct and that inner voice, asking what does this card mean to me and mean when I am working with this person’s energy what is that telling me. What I realise now that I didn’t back then is the woman who sat across from me received a healing from spirit through the Tarot and maybe that is exactly what the Tarot can do, is heal others; it shows us the areas that need focus and can show the potential for change but it also show personal responsibility not just for us but also to the other person as well.

We can’t make the changes in a person’s life happen, they need to do that themselves; all we can do as readers is hand them the map and point out the best places to visit, the rest as always is up to them.


Well thank you for your company and I wish you well on your Blop hop travels. If you are interested in having a reading done then please feel free to get in touch and if you are local then we can organise a face to face meeting, however distance isn’t really an issue as I am happy to work via email as well.

Jay x